Just Another Day In The Life Of Gods Whipping Boy

This is blog about my experiences day to day and trying to cope with the reality that life is truly ugly, yet beautiful and the knowledge that death may be the only true gift we get. Just so you know a lil about me..I am a 33yr old freelance Web Designer/Graphic Artist/IT Professional/Computer Programmer/Amature Actor/Artist of Pencil, Oil and Acrylic Paint and I can fix anything except my life and social behaviors. I am also a bit of a party guy if you catch my drift. Hint:(fan of mind altering substances)

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Wishing...

Actually wishing someone out there could understand me and at bare minimum live up to their word and actually care. I am in dark place tonight and no one is here to stop me from doing something stupid...oh well.

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☆The young girl want to meet with brutal guy for sex!☆

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I love Tumblr lol...

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Looks like my last hope for true friendship just was destroyed

I lost my last real friend or at least i thought was real. So now I give up. World wanted me beaten down and bitter. You got it. Fuck humanity, fuck love, fuck happiness and while we’re at it fuck you to probably cause I don’t care anymore. Now I just hope everyone get a taste of what I’ve felt. No one bothered to give a fuck about me so I don’t give a fuck about you. And if we haven’t met yet, look at this way I’m just speeding up all the lies and bullshit you would tell me before you made up some reason why I’m an ass and did nothing. So fuck you! And if anyone doesn’t like it, please let me know so I can meet you in person and really show you how I feel.

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My favorite feral cats in the whole world!!Ginger lounging in my back yard nursing her little babies (Left) The little guy with the little mustache on the (Right) Is my super new favorite of Gingers liter. Looks like the cutest sad face in the world...awe cheer up little baby...accidentally soaked all of them with the hose and had to towel them all dry lol. Sorry fuzzy monkey kitten face?!

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Actually had a nice day yesterday with no real issues...ok who's fucking with me?

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That is just awesome.

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And some days I don't wake up at all cause I never went to sleep. So I just have the echo of all the bad things that ever happened to me from yesterday's wake up lol ha there is always another option! Damn, I need sleep getting delirious...eh couldn't hurt.

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Finally got the car I've always wanted (left photo 2003 BMW 325i w/euro lights all black) and spent all the cash I had ie (right photo) just to have the car for a little over a month and have the grill smashed in and the engine block crack (I believe still unknown but will not start and all cylinders are misfiring with no compression and it spit out all its oil so yea) FML oh and now I'm driving my old 2008 Ford Taurus which I thought was totaled but surprisingly not so much just has 3 out of 4 breaks, cracked windshield, no wipers, 2 bald tires, one doughnut (spare) from another car, 1 side view mirror, no ac, about $3,900 in body damage and oh yea I still owe $5,000 on it and it's not even worth $2,600 in new like condition. Yea so no REALLY FML. And it costs me $580 a month just to operate this priceless vehicle...FML, FML, Dear God FML. Ok off to do some work...Wish me luck out there...

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So True...

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Oh man does this go to like Vol 379? Cause then we might be getting somewhere...lol damn gotta get ready for the day. Wish me luck yall.

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Now I See Why This Is So Popluar...

So no sleep, up all night and very little work done. But probably a champ at Tumbler now lol. FML.

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More location Photos from the upcoming film "Blood Runners" 2016

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Made this entirely on an iPad just using a stylus. I know it’s not the best but I was really surprised how I was able to blend the colors for the sky so well digitally.

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My last portrait drawing that I did, it’s of my old friend’s daughter Haley. I used my very favorite pencil set 😉. My favorite is the #F pencil. Yea I know it’s weird but I don’t care.

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Take off the “big breakfast” and make it “McDonald’s Milshakes” and change “to sleep next to you” to “leave me the fuck alone” and that’s pretty much my Christmas list too lol.

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∞ - Fotot e kohështrirjes | via Facebook no We Heart It. http://weheartit.com/entry/87085668/via/TatianaMaryna

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Finally face to face screaming like men or is it like animals? I dunno lol

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You may not be who you were physically, but your cells remember who you are and what you've done...