Stop Over-thinking

"Grace means that all of your mistakes now serve a purpose instead of serving shame" - Brene Brown Find this blog to be nothing more then a collection of mistakes.

[speakinmamind]

A partner doesn’t have to handle emotions the same way you do, but they should at least respect that you experience them.

[speakinmamind]

i told her i'd go away.

i just wanted her to look up at me

i just wanted her to care about me

i just wanted her to see i was trying

i just wanted her to recognize me

i just wanted her to see me

i just wanted her to hear me

[speakinmamind]

not 5 minutes before you go on the next task at hand

[speakinmamind]

i failed to mention that i've hated myself this week

and that i don't know who i am anymore

and that i don't think you care

and if i told you i dream of myself hanging from my workplace ceiling to prove how much no one cares

i would have told you i had this exact same thought at my old job

that i always picture myself hanging

because it's quite the scene, and maybe my organs could at least be used

that after years, this imagining has never been resolved, or addressed, or considered in any depth

that no one will find this letter

and that it's always been me - not the job, or the city, or the girlfriend

it's me

[speakinmamind]

how do you not see me collapsing in front of you?

is my gemini self that well masked that my best friend can't even see me imploding?

[dungeonskeleton]

we could be going down the bigfoot titty slide rn but you won't text back

[paper-wounds]

[my-dailydreams]

[losergfdotcom]

isolation the most goated coping mechanism i love talking to no one and losing my mind alone

[speakinmamind]

I would fucking hate me too.

[speakinmamind]

At what point is anyone not manipulative? It's just a matter of who's intentions are more ethical or moral.

[speakinmamind]

I'm a fucked up, dirt bag, piece of shit.

I'm a villain.

I'm a bad attitude.

I would hate me too.

[speakinmamind]

I'm done lowering my self-worth to the way you see me.

You only showed gratitude at the beginning, it quickly disappeared.

[becherdireinen]

you have to love yourself so much that you become unbothered by the lack of love from others.

[crimsolyn]

[speakinmamind]

i ask you to love me

to cuddle me

to touch me

to hold me

to feel me

to hear me

to de-sensitive me

to support me

but

all you do is

ridicule me

belittle me

trivialize me

manipulate me

guilt me

shame me

other me

categorize me

damage me

[speakinmamind]

this bed has never felt so big as when you're not touching me in it