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My New Boyfriend, Joey!

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I do not mean this to sound ignorant, as ignorant people usually don't, but your approach to sex; that is, that you do not endeavour to attach to it more emotional significance than it deserves, is interesting to me. I wonder, then, why you don't seem so open to intimacy with women, if you see it more as a kind of transaction. I could go on for ages to make this seem less outrageously invasive and offensive but these are the bare bones of my question and I hope you will appreciate that instead

Sex is emotional for me.  In escort work, it exhibits a very distinctly different emotional effect on me, Casual sex for fun has a less potent and similar emotional exertion on my psyche,  Sex with someone I love, or am falling in love with, can, when specific factors (perhaps Valentines day, perhaps just been out for a romantic meal, perhaps for the first time, perhaps with exessive, deep and persistent, intimate eye-contact etc.) has a prodigious emotional significance for me.  It is of a different nature and I rarely taste it.I do have intermacy with women, but only in a group sexual environment with men included.  I do not find woman sexually stimulating alone.  I don’t tend to get on with women as friends, I tend to find little in common with them and I don’t fancy them; I can only appreciate their beauty; it is not sexually arousing. Hence, intermarry with woman alone cannot elicit any enjoyable emotional response in me and thus I do not seek to engage in it, ever.

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Best Avant-garde in Lo don right now. See you there.

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2014

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Taking the children to school :)

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Friday 13th of February 2015

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Picture Update!  (24/01/2015)

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Sable Heart at UltraViolet (Shadow Lounge)

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Sable Heart, Dani St James and Michael James

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Sable Heart @ Shadow Lounge

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RIP Sasha Theodore "Alexander" Shulgin

OMFG! :o Sasha Theodore "Alexander" Shulgin, one of my greatest heroes has just died. If you do not know of the "Godfather of MDMA"... Please read more and enlighten yourself....

Shulgin, your life work of invaluable books and publications was invaluable.

Your experiences in life undoubtedly transcended (numerously) the most intense and mind-altering effects a human brain is capable.

"I first explored mescaline in the late '50s […]. Three-hundred-fifty to 400 milligrams. I learned there was a great deal inside me." — Alexander Shulgin, LA Times (1995)

This is a description of Alexander's Highest level of transcendence with psycho-active substances. I believe I have been there once and I will never ever be able to have a PLUS FOUR again. It brings tears to my eyes to think another human could emphathise with this mental state.

Shulgin describes the PLUS FOUR (++++) as follows. Do not believe AT ALL, EVEN REMOTELY, without the GREATEST DEMURE that you have ANY empathy for this state of mind whatsoever. I am certain I have never met another human to have had a PLUS FOUR. PLUS FOUR experiences are things far beyond virtually everyone's contemplation, comprehension and for that I am very sad.

Shulgin:

"PLUS FOUR (++++) A rare and precious transcendental state, which has been called a 'peak experience', a 'religious experience,' 'divine transformation,' a 'state of Samādhi' and many other names in other cultures. It is not connected to the +1, +2, and +3 of the measuring of a drug's intensity. It is a state of bliss, a participation mystique, a connectedness with both the interior and exterior universes, which has come about after the ingestion of a psychedelic drug, but which is not necessarily repeatable with a subsequent ingestion of that same drug. If a drug (or technique or process) were ever to be discovered which would consistently produce a plus four experience in all human beings, it is conceivable that it would signal the ultimate evolution, and perhaps the end, of the human experiment."

I have, since I was 16-17, predicted our ability to innumerably reproduce this experience invivo in humans, long before I had my own PLUS FOUR at 18 years old. I said:

"If we do not kill ourselves with hydrogen bombs, or whatever else, before technology reaches the capacity to give everyone reproducible transcendental euphoria, life-long - our intelligence will have out-developed us and Darwinism will see the end of the human race in the most perfect and seraphic and awe-inspiring way."

Shuglin - I shall never forget the comfort it was to know of the existence of another human who could empathise with me...

Rest in peace; your experience and enjoyment of life is virtually without comparison.

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I feel kind of bad for your parents. If I were a parent, and my daughter was a drug-addict prostitute, I would feel ashamed. If they support this shit you're into, they're fucked up as hell!

If my daughter was anything.... I would love them.  My parents worry too much about me, but they are better parents than you can ever hope to be.  Putting your own embarrassment in front of the love of your child.My parents do not support me being a prostitute, they do not support me taking drugs, but my parents do support me, through thick and thin.  Society has told you to hold prostitutes and people who take drugs in low regard.  You are too young, or too thick, to think for yourself.  You will forever be as naive as those before you... the kind of people who condemned blacks to slavery, the kind of people who burned witches at the stake and the kind of IGNORANCE that deemed torture for confession as acceptable, valid and morally justified practices. You cannot use your on brain and make decisions, you merely regurgitate things elders have told you and think that means you have a set of moral beliefs.  They are not even your beliefs... you have not assimilated anything... have you tried drugs, do you understand why people take them?  Do you even understand why I am an escort?I view myself, less of a daughter to be ashamed of and more of a daughter to be phenomenally proud of.  In my school years, I far out performed and achieved much higher than any of my peers.  I was accepted by one of the best universities in the world (Trinity College Cambridge) on a conditional offer which I BLEW OUT OF THE COSMOS. I have the ability to consider the things I'm told and make my own mind up, because I'm not a coward... I don't care if ignorant people like you condemn me... I know I am right and I your attempts to bring me down smash on my narcissistic armour! Anyway, I would like to offer you a different solution to your orginal diagnosis of me:I am adequately (intensely to say the least) passionate about changing my gender that I have decided to be be brave and become a sex-worker where I have been able to fund my surgeries which willl allow me to live happily as a woman.  I have fearless seized a dream... I hope you might understand my parents could be proud of that.  The drugs thing is pointless talking to you about, as I can tell you have ZERO experience and thus would not understand anything about the topic of taking narcotics. You're right, drugs can ruin lives, that's why society brainwashes you into condemning drugs without question.  It saves people like you, who are not intelligent enough to USE drugs and would only abuse and abuse.  I am not entirely against society brainwashing kids into thinking drugs are bad.  It has it's pros and cons.  It definitely saves thick and naive people from starting to use drugs and getting out of their depth, lacking understanding and ruining their lives.  It also makes people very ignorant about drugs, so if you do ever get introduced, you will feel as though everything you have ever been told was so biased that you no longer believe any of it and you will have no tools (unless an enthusiastic chemist/biologist) to use drugs safely to enhance your life.XxX

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Sable Heart's ass in latex :P

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Hail Countess Elizabeth Báthory!

The most prolific serial killer of all time? Elizabeth Bathory likely brutally tortured and murdered more than 650 virgin girls for her narcissism. "The Blood Countess", as she was known, bathed in the blood of her victims and clearly, Bathory was onto something!... Harvard University find the blood of young mice reverses the ageing process of older mice. http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-27281311

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