Kate

• 21 • idiot dog

[tiniestlittlepony]

ˢʷᵉᵉᵗ ᵍⁱʳˡ ʷʰᵒ ⁱˢ ᵃˡʷᵃʸˢ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖʸ 🌙

[spider3y3]

oh also happy birthday to my ex best friend, it’ll be midnight in about half an hour so : ) that’ll be his birthday. So much to say really. I miss you, but I guess I don’t. I miss who I thought you were? Maybe who you are? Everyone around you says you’re bad, but I just couldn’t bring myself to feel that way. I’m sure this is just the last string you’ve tied to me, perhaps so I’ll always suffer just a bit when this day comes up or something reminds me of you. Who knows? Only you. Really though, I forgive you. You’re only human and I know you’re hurting inside. I don’t even know what would help you at this point… you just need to cleanse your life really. I think you should know you won’t get that date or to take any of my firsts, someone else is going to do that now. I waited a long time for you, but now someone is here and I’m not going to let him slip away in some false hope you’ll ever come back. I don’t even particularly hope you’ll come back, this is probably for the better. Sometimes I want to scream at you, ignore you and let you beg for forgiveness, sometimes I want to hug you tight. Things I know you’ll never say or do and situations that won’t come to fruition. Sometimes it helps me fall asleep at night, to imagine telling you off or crying to you. You’re my weak spot and I hate it. I’ll never allow myself to go that low or be that pathetic again. I wonder what your family got you, have you graduated college yet, what are you going to do as a career, will you guys get married, how will you ever come to my state and be able to live with yourself? Questions I’ve accepted I won’t get answers to. Anyway you outta know I’m happy now I think. I still have mood swings, like today of all days, but overall I’m happy. I’m falling in love I believe, I’ve got a friend, I can’t wait to have a place of my own, and ((one day)) a family. I’ve found the career I want and hopefully I’ll finish my education up. Things are well now, they get better every day. I don’t love you anymore, I’m sorry. I hope one day I can love you again. Bye bye buddy

[spider3y3]

it’s harder to be good in here then it is to starve and die

[spider3y3]

Why would I be vulnerable when I could just rid myself of all attachments

[spider3y3]

It’s easier for you to be sick

[spider3y3]

the worst thing you can do is lie to me. I will always know. All dogs go to heaven and all liars live their lives thinking they’ve spared others from pain when really they’ve just made it worse. You people think you’re so helpful..

[spider3y3]

Have attachment to nothing and no one. Disappear. Move freely. I don’t need you or your pity. I will be gone before you can say goodbye

[spider3y3]

Realizing that yes, no one understands you. No one. No one.

[spider3y3]

This really doesn’t upset me if I’m being honest. I’ll be understood by the greater being(s).

[spider3y3]

Realizing that yes, no one understands you. No one. No one.

[spider3y3]

I don’t eat. I don’t sleep. I don’t eat. I don’t sleep. I don’t need those functions. I am not of here.

[spider3y3]

Big boys don’t cry. Big boys don’t cry

[spider3y3]

The only lesson I can offer you is learned through my absence

[spider3y3]

Self isolation is the only cure to human loneliness, surround yourself with nothing. Get comfortable with silence, be happy with yourself, realize nothing is permanent but your soul. Material objects of this world will come and go. People will come and go. Your soul belongs to a place beyond the earth, it lives on beyond your body. To truly find that you must be alone. You must be silent. Why do you think we feel our best when we feel our worst? because we know that even in our worse we are not truly alone as long as we are alive. When you learn this, you’ll never be lonely again.

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[this-girl-loves-images]

[spider3y3]

I’m just tooooo cute.. when I walk around butterflies follow me and if I stand in the sunlight you may see my halo !

[pumpkingface]

They go on more dates💕