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heart is in complete shambles after looking at geoff payne looking at the memorial and thanking fans and paul higgins being there like no parent should ever have to bury their child this is truly heartbreaking. and paul being there is just so. god they really were all so close and formed genuine relationships with everyone during 1d and that clip in this is us where paul says he's like the boys' dad on tour and now he's about to go bring liam back to the uk. i just. this is truly the most heartbreaking thing ever

tiredandlonelymuse

i loved one direction with an all-consuming force when i was younger. it hurts deeply to mourn someone you were a massive fan of as teenager, and became a peer of as an adult.

i know people change and grief is unsure or complicated when it’s attached to a fond memory or the feeling a person gave you and not tangibly the person themself. i can see many of you on here are struggling with that right now and i understand.

a few years ago i purchased a home that Liam previously owned. there were rumors the house was haunted. He assured me it was not, and i believed him. because i know the ghosts that haunt us aren’t tethered to buildings. They live in parts of us that are harder to reach and they go wherever we do.

as a parent, a fellow artist, and a fan, i simply cannot fathom this untimely loss. my heart goes out to his family, friends, and the fans. 💔

alloutshirt

seeing so many people who haven’t been here for a while . we’re all family and will always be . what we got to experience is rare and precious . hope time will allow us to look back at it with joy and peace again . hugging all of you tight

spideyzaynn

i haven’t gone on my stan socials in a long time, and to return due to such horrifying circumstances is sad but it makes me remember how for so long, this is what I looked forward to when I opened my phone. this COMMUNITY and the shared love we had for a band.

#1d #I miss them and the nostalgia is painfully real

huddiewilliams

no but I'm genuinely so thankful for the people here, the community here. people who understand the grief, the anger, the devastation. even when I've been unable to find the words to say, just seeing someone say exactly what I'm feeling and others sharing it, like yeah they understand. they know it too. they're feeling it too. i really don't know how I would've coped without you people here.