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I can leave my family behind and stay running

These genes still waiting for me wherever i’m going

I can outrun my family as much as I want

Those genes still gonna be waiting for me wherever i’m fucking going

I’ll stop pouring another glass

When it stops making everything feel less serious

I’m on my eight or ninth shot of who the hell cares

I feel nothing and everything

Nothing and everything

Can you just get up in my guts stretch out and split open anything that got scared hurt and swelled shut

Snap back my senses to being less fucking sensitive

You’re not gonna get hurt this is someone loving you you dumb fucking bitch

Bass maxed out and I can’t hear shit

Tear out my senses like I ain’t ever meant a fucking thing

Don’t wanna exist like this

Didn’t sign up for any of it

Any of it

I don’t wanna hear anything that anyone has ever fucking said

Letting this rum hit my stomach like it’s medicine

Get this shit out of my body get this shit out of my head

Don’t wanna go to sleep

I wanna fucking forget

Why’d you make me so self aware

And so fucking beyond repair

Nothing makes sense anymore

Through the looking glass in this bitch

Tipped upside down so long

I can’t fucking think

Walk a straight line they said

Gimme a minute

Grief in me that I cannot untangle

Rage would explode that no one would handle

You have no idea the person I’ve had to become to survive all this loss

All the truer versions of myself i’ve had to lose to keep my head above water

Now it’s not something I found

It’s just something you made

Would you like to wrap your personality up in the thing that swallows it

Would you like to overflow with another feeling just to bottle it

Would you like to gasp for life just to keep getting hollowed thin

you’re not careful with me

i’m not careful with you

I don’t know how many more perspectives in me I can keep growing

Just to get through the mundane moments without wanting to end it all

Spilled Ink Girl