Wowie

Hella

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Holy shit I just realized that I have been affected by my grandmother's passing like extremely deeply. Like to the core of my being a people pleaser. And I miss her a lot despite seeing her a handful of times. But she's my grandma and I love her and I feel like I never got to know her.

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Im in love w my ex

Fuck me

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

How do I tell my ex girlfriend that I want to kiss her at pride even tho we are amicable friends and going together w a group but also we never got to kiss at pride while we were together bc of covid. And I don't want to make things like weird between us but also maybe I'm lonely but I would love to like try again with her after college and without a global pandemic looming over our heads

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Alright bitches I need to fucking talk. My bf is in NY and he’s like ha this girl totally likes me and I’m like ok weird but uh just make sure you’re loyal or whatever. And then he’s like I’m super loyal! And then she like confesses her feelings and he’s like yeah I’m trying to let her down easy and then like twenty minutes later they’re still talking and he texts me and is like she’s super sweet!!!! And I’m like I DONT CARE!!!! And now I can’t text him because some weird restriction and he can text her as long as he wants and he gets to see her all the time and now I feel like shit.

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Lmao

Shoutout to the first high school relationship where I thought I had met my soulmate (which I don’t even believe in so it took a lot of work to change that idea) and then they ghosted me. Yes, I am still upset about this, but hopefully I’ll be telling Mackenzie I want to be assistant tech director tomorrow if I find her at the right time. So that’s exciting, gonna try and ruin their life like they ruined mine

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

The weirdest thing I do is when I’m angry at life I bite myself or just claw myself with my nails which is fun. If I ever get a therapist it’s gonna be a hard one to explain to them

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Honestly I’m at the point where when I say I’m angry at people or angry and a particular assistant tech director I understand that it’s just sadness deep down that is making me feel anger. But I will never let that be dove into because I was vulnerable before and that’s what caused the mess I’m in 🤷‍♀️

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Well apparently if you’re an assistant tech director you’re allowed to just sit in a diffferent room and do nothing 🤷‍♀️ who knew. Crazy how shit works like that.

I hope you can hear the unbridled rage in my thoughts that that was said with

[smarmybouquet]

Flat Stanley is Santa

Flat Stanley is Santa and here’s why: Santa doesn’t have an origin story, it could be anything. Could be because he doesn’t want people to know he was crushed by a cork board as a child. How does Santa get from place to place? Reindeers? Yeah, right, in this economy? Flat Stanley can fly undetected. He can get everywhere instantly without the hassle of reindeer. How can Santa get through all those chimneys? It would have to be magic, but magic doesn’t exist so he’d have to look like that already. Who would be able to fit in a chimney? Flat Stanley. We never hear from Flat Stanley any more and this is why. Santa is Flat Stanley

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

I wanna hold my girlfriend’s hand but I am too shy. And also my friend keeps fucking cockblocking us?? She always walks in between us and Mariah gets what’s going on and moves next to me on the other side but my other friend just stays there

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

You know what self love is sometimes? Cropping people out of photos :)

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Here’s the tea, I have no motivation and have had no struggles so my college essays will be shit so all I have to survive off of are my grades and SAT scores. But my history grade just keeps dropping and I just can’t write a good essay about the past because I don’t ducking care and my fucking goddamn PSAT was just a mess, I’m gonna do so badly on the SAT. Like all I am are my good grades but I’m losing that so like I’m not a person anymore. I don’t have anything. If I can’t get this shit up what am I gonna do?

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Ok man like this is the most straight friends I’ve had at one time and it’s weird. They’re all super nice and go to QSA and stuff but it’s just those little moments where it’s just like, you don’t understand. When straight people complain about the acronym I get hella annoyed because that isn’t for you to complain about??? There are people out there who need to feel represented by the LGBTQA+ name and idk making fun of how long it is and how you’ll never be able to remember that kinda hurts? Like I remember it, the gay people around me tend to remember it, are we stupid for remembering something everyone else gives zero shits about? And then like I’ll talk about something to a straight person and give my actual experience and they just ignore it. Like they’re my friends and they have very loud opinions and voices and I don’t so very often just kinda sit down and let them speak when they have little right. Idk it feels weird they’re good friends but it’s wack

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Yknow there was a lot of stuff I missed that should’ve given me some indication of personality.

They never sat with me and my friends

Even if I begged them, they never changed where they sat to be with me

I always felt extremely uncomfortable around all of their friends because their friends were mean

What does it mean when you surround yourself with mean people? It often means you’re mean too

Not always but yeah

I’m happy with what I have now and sad I didn’t see all the shit I was putting up with before

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Tfw your closest friend in tech was low key just kicked out and you will feel more ignored by everyone around because I actually do fucking work. It’s great how the most popular people in tech are the ones who do the least work and then yell to clean up and make jokes at other people’s expense

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

LMAO just one of those days I fucking guess

[spilltheteahoeassbitch]

Today feels like a slow Lana Del Ray song