footsteps loud ;

esther / polytropos / hebe & hudson / aletheia / elpis ; well goodnight moon, i want the sun- if it's not here soon i might be done; no it won't be too soon 'til i say goodnight moon. 

[thebooklife]

[namtan]

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[limondoritos-deactivated2021030]

i always look sleep deprived is that hot

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desideratvms‌:

       “ already on it. been living with her so long, i thought i could’ve accomplished it by now. but brynn is kinda scary… idunno how she tunes out everything she hates so well. ” alex realizes she thought she did that too, but it turns out she just doesn’t hate much at all. she’s realizing in the face of all annoyances, she’s not as good as ignoring it as she originally thought. “ definitely don’t wanna fight with jude. i don’t think he’d punch a lady, but you never know, people are acting all out of sorts right now… ” her eyes widen at the idea and she shakes it off. jude’s not fun when he holds a grudge, but he’s not a complete psychopath. “ oooh, yeah. i need someone to keep lookout for me while i restock on sourpatch kids. the cashier there is starting to catch on to my sticky fingers… ”

“i don’t think he’d punch me either- we talked during the lockdown. it was... weird. but he let me sit with him for a little while...” though, she has a feeling that the energy won’t be the same now. she shrugs, “i think it’ll just be a lot of avoiding eye contact. maybe i’ll cry- who’s to say!” she laughs it off, but that’s a real possibility. she smiles then, “hell yeah! i can do that. i’m very good at distraction! i’ll just talk about bees or the iguanas my parents keep or climate change!” she pauses before blurting out quickly, “i’m, uh... supposed to meet up with maitê at some point, but other than that? i’m all yours!” esther knows that alex’s opinion of maitê isn’t favorable... and she can’t completely blame her, but she hopes they can avoid that awkwardness and just focus on getting parker and the sourpatch kids. 

[typiing-deactivated20240430]

saying ohhhh when you still don’t get it >>>>>>

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hudson 📲 maitê

maitê: yeah, i'm editing some photos on insta

maitê: what's up?

hudson: u know what's up

hudson: why else would i text you?

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[ 📲 • SMS ] CALEB → SATAN.

caleb: denial is a stage of grief x

caleb: don’t worry luv me and karma are great friends x

esther: except that it isnt denial

esther: but fine

esther: if it makes you feel better about everything, keep it up

esther: karma and u might not be THAT close considering u almost died but

esther: that's just my opinion

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desideratvms‌:

        after the night he had, he’s absolutely exhausted, and the “rest” their supposed to get seems impossible considering their new living situation. even if exams are cancelled, kenny finds comfort in studying. it feels productive, like he’s moving forward, or that his time has purpose rather than wallowing in the dorms. but the flooded lawns make it difficult to get anywhere. he’s stuck at the edge of the grass that isn’t completely soaked, trying to evaluate just how to get to the library without wading through the water. 

“thinkin’ about taking a swim?” hudson asks, tilting her head to the side as she regard kennedy, “ya know exam’s are... cancelled, right?” there’s a light, almost joking lilt to her tone, but she’s also kind of asking because... she can’t imagine just going to the library for fun. she stuffs her hands in her jacket pockets, “i’m ready to see this go down though, really upset i don’t have popcorn or junior mints or somethin’.” 

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conflaticns‌:

she smirked at hudson as she worked on getting herself dressed. ironically, having sex in a random supply closet had been the optimal choice in location to relieve some tension for the two women. “glad i could be of service, princesa,” she moved her hands up to the hem of hudson’s top, before running her hands down the exposed skin. “come smoke with me later. you’re the only person who knows how to not kill my buzz.” 

hudson rolled her eyes at the petname- even if she kind of liked it- and ran her hands down teresa’s arms, chuckling, “i mean, you could always just choose someone in your room to cozy up to instead. but i think i’m a better option.” she grinned then, “we shoulda smoked in here, honestly- woulda made this even better. no offense, because it was great, but, ya know what i mean.” anything to numb the bad feelings, right? 

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judecz‌:

          ‘ yeah, well — ’ he’s got no witty retort, one hand rising to rub his eyes in frustration. he misses his room in pythagoras, something he never thought he’d say — he misses kenny’s nagging, eli tiptoeing around — his own bed, his own peace. between esther and brynn, his patience is already worn thin, at a breaking point; and nothing she says can convince him otherwise. ‘ jesus christ, esther. give it up. ’ jude spits the words out. ‘ stop with the stupid fuckin’ denial. ’

it’s hard to recall the good memories of her friendship with jude when they’re like this. she tries to picture the times they had before everything imploded- especially at times like this. she wishes she could do or say something to make him laugh or to remind him of how much they’d once cared about one another, “i’m not in denial, jude!” she sighs, words less angry than just plain exhausted, “i’m not a liar- or a bad person!” at least, she liked to think of herself as a good person, “i’m not like that.” she knows the words probably won’t change his mind, but she’ll keep maintaining her ‘innocence’ until she’s blue in the face. probably until she graduates from hu. 

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conflaticns‌:

“don’t you mean make it easier for you? i’m not the one who cries like a little pendeja for everything,” she mocked esther before rolling her eyes at her ex-girlfriend, if she could even call her that. teresa never saw her as more than a mark, even if she’d been the wrong one, not that she would ever voice that out loud, least of all to the annoying female.  

“just because i cry doesn’t make me an idiot,” it was just a handful of other things, “plus, i think crying over you was fair. more than fair.” she had let teresa in, she had trusted her, and she had repaid her in lies and manipulation. she let out a frustrated sigh, “really convenient that i get placed in the same room as two of the only people i actually don’t like being around...” esther was a people person, she loved almost everyone, but being with teresa and jude was difficult. 

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[ 📲 • SMS ] CALEB → SATAN.

caleb: just reminding you :)

caleb: gross don’t thank me

caleb: emotional damages ? just like the one you caused jude

caleb: we love you karma !!!!

esther: well, u also asked me how i am

esther: am i not supposed to thank u for that??

esther: i didn't DO IT

esther: but since u won't believe me, fine

esther: guess that's just karma

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[ 📲 • SMS ] CALEB → SATAN.

caleb: im alive

caleb: must be bc i made a deal w satan when i was friends w her

caleb: ( thats u btw )

caleb: you can worry.

caleb: are you okay ?...

esther: yeah, figured that out, thanks

esther: makes me sound WAY more badass than i actually am, i should be thanking u ig

esther: you're really asking?

esther: im ok, mostly just emotional damages- a few scratches

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@conflaticns​ 

“thanks,” hudson breathed, shrugging her shirt back onto her shoulders and pressing a quick kiss to the corner of teresa’s mouth as she started to button it up, “i needed that.” the storm had caused her more stress than she had anticipated and being stuck into a new rooming situation wasn’t helpful either. thankfully, teresa was always a friend willing to lend her a hand. 

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