Thatās why Iām with you.Ā Because you say āIā for me.Ā Because you say āIā for me.Ā Yes, Iām thinking about him.Ā But I recognize the self whoĀ has just done something horribleĀ like a sister Iāve casuallyĀ met on the street!Ā Hello, Sister.Ā Itās like thereās two sistersĀ of Faith andā¦ Chance,Ā itās like two ā¦Ā Itās like thereās two sistersĀ of Faith and Chance,Ā of Faithā¦ My Faith can'tĀ exclude Chance, but Chanceā¦Ā Well, itās like thereās twoĀ sisters of Faith and Chance,Ā my Faith canāt exclude Chance,Ā but my Chance canāt eā¦Ā Canāt explain Faith.Ā My Faith didnāt allow meĀ to wait for Chance,Ā and Chance didnāt give me enough Faith.Ā And then I read that private lifeĀ is a stage, only Iām playing in manyĀ parts that are smaller than me, andā¦Ā yet I still play them,Ā I suffer, I believe, I am!Ā But at the same time I knowĀ thereās a third possibility,Ā like cancer, or madness.Ā But cancer or madnessĀ contort reality.Ā The possibility Iām talkingĀ about pierces reality. Iām unable to say it, maybe.Ā Maybe itās impossible to say,Ā maybe Iām too stupid.Ā Youāre looking at me as if youā¦ Youāre looking at me as if to tell meĀ that I need you to fill me up,Ā as if Iām an empty space.Ā Well, I love you too,Ā but what makes me go onĀ is to know heāll return,Ā and Iāll make him suffer, andā¦Ā And Iāll hurt him, andā¦Ā Iām betraying him, butā¦Ā this brings me small rewards.Ā Wellā¦ But yet, Iā¦Ā I canāt exist by myselfĀ because Iām afraid of myself.Ā Because Iām the maker of my own evil. Ā Becauseā¦Ā Because Iāmā¦Ā Goodness is only some kindĀ of reflection upon evil.
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