Just Ignore Me Everyone Does

A strange journey in the mind of a near crazy person.

[splattski]

Escape

I just need a friend to show me the way out. It is very dark and lonely where I have been and it has been very tiring. I am hurt and have lost my way and now wander aimlessly. I know everyone has their own paths to find, but I finally understand that i may have been given bad directions from the start.

Really though, How do you ask someone to fight something like this with you or for you at times when you simply can’t ? How do you ask someone to be the seeing eye dog to what is real or just intrusive thinking? How could I ever expect somebody to be there through the worst of it?  

I just hate feeling this way but after this long I don’t know what it is like to NOT feel this way. Doesn’t help that this sickness pushes away the people that mean the most. Even if someone did take my hand and drag me to the right path i would kick and scream and throw a tantrum the whole way. 

First post in who knows how long and it’s to dead drop insomnia fueled depression thoughts. I just really don’t know what actual person I would talk to about this.

[catsbeaversandducks]

By Sad Animal Facts

[splattski]

Elephants never forget and you will never know that they told everybody. Well all the other elephants at least.

[movie]

Why Megan Fox quit Transformers 3

[the-sarkai]

Bay is a shitstain.

[gently-dying]

Fuck this guy, we need less people like this in the world.

[splattski]

This is the kind of thing that puts those ideas in boys brains. Michael Bay glorifies the objectification of women to the fanfare of an explosion filled blockbuster. This is why guys think it is OK when it is absolutely not, because this man gets paid MILLIONS to perpetuate a fantasy that is corruption..

[naturaekos]

Why can’t our two hearts just make up their minds and want the same thing at the same time?

lauren alaina (via naturaekos)

[thedependantloner]

What they don't mention about #growingupwithstrictparents:

- The resentment that begins to build up and damage your relationship with your parents because your missing out on being a kid.

- The self destructive tendencies that develop when you get your freedom.

- Extreme Behaviour that can be dangerous because you feel as if you have to catch up on all the life you have been missing.

- A constant sadness that your never going to live life enough. 

- Developing anxiety over doing things as simple as riding the bus.

- Massive issues with authority. 

- Fear of commitment because you feel as though it is going to tie you down and take away from your freedom again. 

etc…

[hathor77]

‘ - Fear of commitment because you feel as though it is going to tie you down and take away from your freedom again. ‘ This is is me in a nutshell

All of this.

[clintbarthon]

#compulsive lying all the time because youre so used to doing so that telling the truth is weird#being terrified of asking if a friend can come over#hiding everything you feel and then exploding#being manipulative#The self destructive tendencies that develop when you get your freedom#that one is the realest one tho (via howlingcutemando)

[darkblazeprince-deactivated2018]

Feeling like you’re useless when you’re not doing something productive.

[sneakymedulla]

never being able to stand up for yourself, because of your inherent fear you will be severely punished - even if you are in the right

feeling you are never right, even if you are

caving easily to abusive situations, because you grew up learning how to be controlled, that it was “wrong” to exercise power, that it was “wrong” to defend yourself, and not knowing anything about self-respect or having self-esteem

second-guessing yourself nonstop

hiding your entire life from your strict family - even if it means they go to their deathbeds not knowing what has happened to you, because it will just mean you earn only their disapproval or disgust.

non-stop self-hate

non-stop paranoia

[thewikigirl-blog]

-feeling like you have to “prove” yourself

-never feeling good enough

-developing insecurities that eventually grow but stay hidden because you’ve been told that maybe asking a question a few times extra just to be sure everything’s ok is “weird”

-being afraid to make friendships, reach out, or go out because your afraid of doing something wrong

-always being afraid that someone is mad at you

-getting criticized for years on end then getting questioned on all sides as to why you’re so negative about yourself

[ohpierre]

I’m glad I’ve been outgrowing a lot of this, and moving out worked to be a good thing between me and my parents.

[rosy-venus-deactivated20171018]

To all of my friends, this is the reason why I do the things I do

[tealfruit]

I don’t always relate so heavily to these kinds of things but damn if I don’t feel 99% of these

[hemulpajun]

Or as in my case, having to constantly defend yourself and fight back against neverending emotional abuse —-> finding it difficult in adulthood to hold yourself accountable for things you actually did fuck up AND always having to fight back a hair trigger zero-to-sixty attack reaction in a confrontation or conflict.

[jonny5fefrenzy]

“Zen and the Art of Xenophobia” by Five Iron Frenzy

aka: my favorite band ever

[shencomix]

Advanced court tactix.

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[tai-korczak]

Sonder: The realization that each passerby has a life as vivid and complex as your own.

Opia: The ambiguous intensity of Looking someone in the eye, which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable.

Monachopsis: The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.

[fuks]

[lizzysmart-deactivated20190331]

Goalz

[legitimism]

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

[letthelifeinmelive]

THE LIDDO BOYS LEGS OMG

[splattski]

are you fuckin serious

[wiseoak]

[memewhore]

[psych2go]

Sometimes we must undergo hardships, breakups, and narcissistic wounds, which shatter the flattering image that we had of ourselves, in order to discover two truths: that we are not who we thought we were; and that the loss of a cherished pleasure is not necessarily the loss of true happiness and well-being.

Jean-Yves Leloup (via psych-facts)

[psych2go]

The shoe that fits one person pinches another. There is no recipe for living that suits all cases.

Carl Jung (via psych-facts)

[memeguy-com]

[jalapenoandolive]

[the-relatable-blog]

Which Science Facts Will Blow Your Mind

[splattski]

This is so damn awesome, like adding an electric current to a pickle turns it into a nightlight!

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A pickle nightlight? HELL. YES.

[magicaldeductions-deactivated20]

[stayposijpeg]

fucking Bill Nye the damn science guy