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*christ dies on the cross* Um.. okay. That just happened. Awkwarrrrd...
drew me...
still not good at humans but I drew my lazy eye
i am learning to draw humans better but also love aspects of myself I kinda hate. I never see lazy eye representation outside of ableist depictions so in some sense it felt very healing to draw
ultimately, I should love myself 🏳️⚧️
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I love love love saying "I scavenged a working microwave in the boylands" but nobody ever knows the reference and it breaks my heart
like, the first time I ever saw this I laughed so hard I started choking on spit but it's just not the kind of thing you can share with the average person in your life. this world is so cruel
@copperbadge this seems up your alley
If the system ain't broke, don't fix it, I guess! Accounting may not be the oldest profession, but someone had to keep the books for them.
I mean, in theory I know that Excel is based on the structure of earlier accounting technology that's been around for hundreds of years -- what do we think we did to track commerce before computers? -- but it still kind of blows my mind to, for example, look at my ancestor's journal from a whaling voyage in 1770 and see spreadsheets in the back.
The earliest accountants: man i wish i could easily list the same set of properties for a bunch of different instances of the same thing
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“Miko - Japanese shrine maiden.” Hand-colored photo, 1880’s, Japan. Photographer Kusakabe Kimbei.. Image via noel45 of Flickr
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In case anyone hasn't heard, the cyclospora outbreak affecting tons of people in the US right now is coming from Taylor Farms produce. Best to stay away from bagged lettuce and prepared salads completely right now, but especially the ones mentioned in the screenshot:
Taylor Farms Earthbound Farms Little Salad Bar (Aldi) Marketside (Walmart) Kroger House Brand Target private label greens Costco salads and greens etc Trader Joe's chopped salad kits and fresh produce Fast food: McDonalds, Taco Bell, (Yum! Brands), Chipotle, Subway, Pizza Hut, KFC, Olive Garden, Top Golf, Red Lobster, Burger King, etc.
This is not the first time I've heard about a Taylor Farms foodborne illness outbreak. I stopped eating their salads after reading a description of the conditions in their facilities. Doesn't sound like they've improved anything.
We need a fully funded and staffed FDA, and regulations with teeth - and that's exactly what we don't have under Trump. To make things worse, the CDC is no longer tracking these outbreaks. We're on our own.
“Beyond a given point [we are] not helped by more “knowing,” but only by living and doing in a partly self-forgetful way. As Goethe put it, we must plunge into experience and then reflect on the meaning of it. All reflection and no plunging drives us mad; all plunging and no reflection, and we are brutes.”
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Ernest Becker, The Denial of Death
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I wish more people knew how progesterone works (as a psychoactive). So I'm just gonna talk a little bit about that. Consider this a little harm reduction guide to my most-used substance. I have done doses ranging from 200mg to 4800mg and everything in between.
I will be speaking as though this is a recreational psychoactive substance. So for the purposes of this post, the breast growth? That's considered a side effect.
Reblogging this post for reach would be appreciated, as this substance is extremely common with a very specific group of people (hi, dolls. ily). And even if you're not using it recreationally, it's still good to know how a drug works and what it does to you.
Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional. This is not medical advice My sources are psychonautwiki, wikipedia, and the sources linked on those pages. As well as my own experience having experimented with and abused this substance recreationally for about a year. I won't be delving into the chemistry and pharmacology of progesterone, but information on GABAergic substances is readily available. I strongly suggest you do your own research in addition to reading this post.
Progesterone (Pregn-4-ene-3,20-dione) is a steroid with depressant effects. Progesterone itself is not psychoactive. However, the body metabolizes progesterone into a handful of GABAergic molecules (allopregnanolone, pregnanolone, isopregnanolone, epipregnanolone). This means progesterone is a prodrug for these metabolites. This happens in the liver and these metabolites are the cause of the high. Progesterone is fat soluble. So eating fatty foods before will increase the potency of progesterone significantly. From my own experimentation, I have found this to be a roughly two-fold increase in potency. Because progesterone is GABAergic, it is recommended to avoid other GABAergic substances (alcohol, benzodiazepines, opiates, gabapentinoids, etc) while using progesterone. Mixing these carries a significant risk of overdose.
Common Effects of Progesterone: Sedation, loss of motor control, pain relief, anxiety suppression, disinhibition, dizziness, euphoria, increased libido, and amnesia. These effects increase with dose. I find disinhibition, amnesia, and loss of motor control to increase significantly at higher doses, when compared to the other effects. Because progesterone is also a hormone, recreationally using progesterone can have hormonal side effects, including premenstrual syndrome.
Dosage: A common, prescribed dosage of progesterone ranges from 100mg to 400mg. A common recreational dosage will range from 200mg to over 1000mg, depending on the desired strength of the experience. 200mg is considered a "common" recreational dose, 400mg is a "strong" dose, and 600mg+ is a "heavy" dose. Dosages are dependent on the person dosing, everyone's body will react differently to substances. Start at a low dose to avoid undesirable effects. You know yourself best. Keep in mind that eating before your dose means a potentiated experience, and a higher/potentiated dose always means higher risk of undesirable effects, including overdose! While severe and fatal overdoses are uncommon with progesterone, it is still important to be cognizant of the risk. Especially when using other substances. Progesterone overdose can manifest as blacking out, respiratory depression, and/or sudden and immediate loss of consciousness (I have lost consciousness while standing up on as little as 600mg of progesterone. This led to me falling over and getting a concussion).
Tolerance: Progesterone tolerance builds very quickly When using recreationally, I have found it helpful to skip a couple days between doses. This is to allow ones tolerance to get closer to baseline, to minimize potential of an overdose, and to minimize the hormonal side effects. This is recommended with similar substances, such as gabapentin/pregabalin and benzodiazepines.
Dependence, Addiction, and Withdrawals: There are few reported cases of progesterone dependence and/or addiction. However I have found that I have become dependent on progesterone to be able to sleep (though this is partially because I use it to self medicate my insomnia). And I do consider myself to be addicted to progesterone. Withdrawal symptoms (for me) include body aches, trouble sleeping, compulsions to use, irritability, and emotional dysregulation. Skipping days when using recreationally will help minimize the potential of dependence and addiction, but the risk is never zero.
Routes of Administration (RoA): The two common RoAs are orally and rectally. These will have differing intensities, primarily due to the rectal RoA bypassing the liver to a certain degree, when compared to taking it orally. This is why people often take progesterone rectally if they want to avoid or minimize the psychoactive effects. However, the hormonal bioavailability of progesterone, when taken rectally, is higher (due to less of the molecule being metabolized in the liver). So that RoA can be desirable for those reasons.
What you can Expect: I will be talking from personal experience here. Your experiences will be different. 200mg: A typical therapeutic dose for feminizing hormone replacement therapy. I take this nightly. The effects are light, but I notice myself being more social and less anxious. I have not blacked out when using this dose. 400mg: This is my typical social dose. It allows me to be social and not anxious while still allowing me to feel confident to use other substances during these experiences. The pain relief is very noticeable at this dose and I am able to sleep very easily when not in a social setting. I find that this is where blacking out becomes a possibility for me, especially if I have eaten well. 600mg: This is where I start to avoid using other substances. Euphoria, disinhibition, and increased libido are very strong here. Blacking out is common for me at this dose 800mg: Blacking out happens quickly and I will almost certainly lose consciousness at this dose. This is not a dose I use socially for these reasons. At this dose, my tolerance the next day is extremely high and I do not get desirable effects unless I use 800mg+. The chance for blacking out remains the same even though the desirable effects are weak. 1200mg: I black out and lose consciousness within about 30 minutes of the come-up. I have used this dose to fall asleep when I am struggling with more severe insomnia. 4800mg: Full disclosure, this was a suicide attempt. However progesterone isn't great for that. I found myself conscious well into the peak of the experience, likely due to my extremely distressed state. I, surprisingly, did not black out. I believe this is because progesterone's metabolites may have a bioavailability inversely proportional to the dose (similar to gabapentin) in addition to my emotional state. Do not quote me on this, I could not find a source to back this up.
All in all, progesterone is a fun recreational substance with significant and very impactful downsides. I cannot recommend using it recreationally. However, if you choose to explore this substance in a recreational way, I hope this post helps you make a more informed decision. And please take it upon yourself to do additional research into this substance before you use.
Remember, there is no safe drug use. Only safer drug use
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One time when I was like three years old I was laying in my mom’s bed, and I don’t remember what we were talking about except I was being fussy about having to do something, and just like whenever I was being like that she asked, “are you trying to pick a fight?”
And I didn’t really know what that meant, only that I always said no, but for some reason or another I was very annoyed and a fight sounded pretty good so for the first time ever I said “yes”
And I don’t know what I was expecting to happen, but I remember my mom just going “Okay, then. Let’s fight. What do you want to fight about?”
And I remember it occurring to me all of a sudden that the onus was on me to generate the energy to pick something to be mad about, and wishing she’d just do something worth fighting FOR me, but she just went, “I’m not the one who wants to fight. If you want to fight, you have to pick something to fight about”
and I just went ugh. Never mind, that’s too much work. So said “I don’t wanna fight actually, I’m just cranky” and she told me “okay well just say that next time” and in hindsight that was actually probably a very important formative experience
Two dudes in my group chat have been playing league & slowly but surely have shifted from saying "wanna play league of legends" to "wanna play some geego legends". At this point their average post is just @ing the other and going "geegogagand?" and I feel insane
What is going on