Curiouser & Curiouser

My name's Jordan. I'm a 30 year old lady in Delaware. Depressed and disabled and trying to deal. Art, photography, TV shows, mental health, punk rock, movies, travel, oddities, and loads of random personal shit. Halloween is a state of mind.

[spookyjordo]

It’s going to happen soon, and when it does I don’t think anyone will be surprised.

[vampurrring]

What if I got weirder

[marzluf]

Turnover - “Dizzy on the Comedown”

[catwalkcats]

[spookyjordo]

What am I even doing?

[spookyjordo]

My therapist says I’m supposed to indulge my “bad” side more, but I don’t think she’d like what that is actually going to look like

[spookyjordo]

I miss you I miss you I miss you

Is it out of my system yet?

[spookyjordo]

I miss you and I can’t even tell you that.

[inthedarktrees]

A dream soul that wanders.

Sheryl Lee, Michael Horse, Kyle MacLachlan | Twin Peaks

[spookyjordo]

I just want my brain to turn off

Please. I don’t want to think about this anymore. Just wipe my memory

[unspokengrief]

healing series 31.08.2019

[deadithurts]

andrew garfield saying, “i hope this grief stays with me because it’s all the unexpressed love that i didn’t get to tell her” about his mothers passing is so gut wrenchingly beautiful because we rarely talk about the love we want to express but can’t, not because you’re not brave enough to say it out loud but because they’re not here to listen to it anymore. calling grief the love you never had the chance to share makes it less of a burden and more of something you want to keep and not something terrible you want to move on from. i love love how everything about grief always comes down to “what is grief if not love persevering?”

[spookyjordo]

I guess I’m a slow fucking learner

[spookyjordo]

I guess I’m gonna be the same big dumb idiot I always am!

[spookyjordo]

This past week has just really confirmed my hatred of myself and my life

[spookyjordo]

I wonder if anybody knows how badly this is going to hurt me.

I wonder what will happen when it does

[spookyjordo]

Soft betraying lips

pressed to the base of my throat, my hearth—

the vulnerable purring underbelly of my

Wild heart

Cannot choose

Will not

Boredom is the death of love