iāve been hella MIA and hereās why if anyone cares??Ā
so, in hereās a timeline of events
Late January to Mid-February:
My dad had been having major breathing problems since November, so we thought it was asthma, since heās in his 80ā²s and itās common for older people to get asthma. He didnāt feel it was urgent so he didnāt bother with it. During Christmas he got worse, but again, he felt fine otherwise. He went to the doctor in mid-January hoping they would help him, and at most we thought he would have an inhaler and some medication.Ā
Come to find out, he was having a heart attack, and he has congestive heart failure, which was why he was breathing funny. His body was filled with fluid (hence congestive heart failure). Heās only at stage 2, which is pretty decent considering it could be worse. Scary thing is, he had a massive silent heart attack, lived (which is rare!!!) and he didnāt feel a thing. So now weāve had to completely change our lifestyles, and he canāt do much (he still works bless his heart), but heās slowly getting somewhat normal again.
Mid-February to Late March/Early April:
Iāve posted pictures of my dogs before, Benji and Matty. Matty was the youngest at nine, but still senior age. Last year during his checkup, we found tumors on him. We had one removed surgically, they sent it for testing, and they said it didnāt seem to be dangerous. So we left it. Two months later, another tumor appeared, but bigger. Took him to the vet, they said they didnāt feel the need to operate since they would just appear again. One went away on itās own, so we didnāt do anything. During December of last year, I noticed he had a tumor the size of a tennis ball (all of these appeared on one side and didnāt spread) in his stomach. Took him to the vet again, they said they canāt remove it. So I just watched it. The tumors didnāt grow, so I didnāt feel worried. He was acting as normal.Ā
Fast forward to when my dad is in the hospital. All three tumors grew aggressively large, and he was urinating all over the house, which wasnāt normal for him. But with my dad in the hospital, and going back and forth to the local hospital and then two hours away to Nashville to the other hospital they sent him to, I couldnāt take him to the vet. So, when things settled when dad got home, we took him to the vet, because one tumor was so large he couldnāt walk properly.Ā
The cancer they told me he didnāt have, he apparently did have. We had a week left with him, and we had to put him to sleep. It broke my heart.Ā
Early April to Late May:
My oldest boy Benji, he was 13, old, slow and cranky but still feisty, still ate like a good boy and was aware of everything. Slight blindness and deafness but at his age, that was normal. This was a shock.
Not long after putting Matty to sleep, one Saturday morning, Benji was fine...and then he wasnāt. Two hours after he woke up for the day, after being completely fine, after being his usual self....He suddenly got violently ill. I had very little time to get him to the vet, but the secretary at the vet came and got me, which Iām still so thankful for, because after bloodwork and an exam, it turned out he was dying that day from liver failure and severe infections in his blood. I never saw this coming. We had his senior bloodwork done last year and he was fine, completely healthy for his age. But I had no choice, I had to put him to sleep too. It tore me apart to lose my boys so close together.Ā
Late May to Mid June:
I got both of my boys cremated, and after getting Mattyās ashes, I was somewhat okay because I had a final week with him to say goodbye, and give him a good last week with us. He got everything he wanted, so I felt at peace when I got his ashes.
Benji was a different story. The day I got his ashes, I had this crushing pressure in my chest, and I was devastated. That night at around 3am, I woke up being unable to breathe, and this went on for several hours. I was certain I was dying.
My dad took me to the emergency room, and I stayed there for several hours. They ran heart tests, blood tests, all sorts of tests, and Iām healthy. I got diagnosed with severe anxiety and broken heart syndrome from losing my boys, and from dealing with my dadās health issues.Ā
Mid June to August:
Things somewhat get quiet around this time. Iām dealing with my anxiety, trying to find a new routine after having the same one for 13 years, trying to manage a whole house by myself while being chronically ill. Dadās doing well. His cardiologist is pleased with him, so thereās no concern there.Ā
August to Now:
Then this is when things get bad again. One of my aunts passes away, tragically and suddenly. It spikes up my anxiety once again and Iāve gone back to not sleeping well, not eating well, crying all the time, getting flashbacks of things I donāt want to remember. Not long after she passed, itās my momās ten year death anniversary. Then, I lose one of my idols (RIP Mac Miller, I love you) while Iām still scarred from losing another one in December (Jonghyun-ah <3)Ā
This has been a very hard year, and Iām not at all coping well. But thatās why Iāve been basically MIA.Ā
I am absolutely blown away at how quickly my little simblr has grown in just under a week. I honestly donāt know how to express how thankful I am for how kind and supportive you all have beenš
So, as a thank you I am going to be giving away a stuff pack from the sims 4! Submissions will be open until June 10th, 12am GMT and The winner will be announced on June 11th.
Rules:
You must be following meĀ
you must like and/or reblog this post
Fill out this google forum (you will be disqualified if you submit more than once, trust me Iāll know)
You must be willing to share your origin/steam account with me
āI am lonely Life is lonely. Glamorous but lonely. Today after meeting 50k ppl ill go back to the room alone. The burden is huge. Whats the meaning of having nice things?ā
Jiyong was then asked hows he going to solve the problem? He replied, āUnfortunately there is no solutionsā
Itās Laundry Day! And whatās better to celebrate than a giveaway? (See what I did there?)Ā
This giveaway will end on Saturday, January 20th
Rules:
In order to be eligible, you have to have a working Origin account and The Sims 4 Base Game
You must be following me, @funboysims. I will be checking
Reblogs and likes both count
Winners are going to be contacted via ASK - you mustĀ have your ask open so I can contact you. They will then need to reply within 24hrs to accept the prize. If the time allotted has expired, and no response has been made, the individual automatically forfeits the prize, and a new winner will be contacted.
Iām giving away 3 copies of The Sims 4 Laundry Day, so you have 3 chances to win! Good luck!
Alrighty, as I said in an earlier post that while I was planning a giveaway for 100 followers, I hit 200! Originally, I was going to do a giveaway for 100 but I switched it up and decided to do the giveaway for 200 instead!!Ā
Just like my last giveaway, there will be five winners that will be chosen on Saturday, November 25th!
Rules:
Since this is a follower giveaway, you have to be following me!
If you only need one Game Pack then you can also choose two Stuff Packs!
If you already have all of the Game Packs then you can choose one ExpansionĀ Pack you donāt have!
A reblog counts as one entry, liking this post wonāt count!
Each person only gets one entry!
Giveaway ends November 25th!
Winners:
The winners will receive two Game PacksĀ of their own choosing!
The winners must be willing to give me their Origin ID!
The winners must respond within 24 hours or Iāll choose new winners!
Edit:
Since Origin is apparently having a Black Friday sale I decided what the heck! Itās Thanksgiving and Iām super thankful for you guys sooooooooo
The rules are still the same and itāll still end on November 25th, 8pm Pacific time, buuuttttt
There will now be five winners instead of three!
Thank you so much to everyone who decided to follow me! I still canāt believe thereās over 200 of you and Iām so thankful for each and every one of you! I hope you all have an amazing, wonderful week!! šĀ šĀ
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