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Irish anarcha-feminist spoonie making sense of living life with chronic pain, anxiety, and depression

[nuka-rockit]

Depression™! 

comes with multiple fun features such as:

exhaustion! but not enough to sleep just lie on the floor like a wet towel

whoops! shouldve eaten 2 hours ago

all food tastes equally boring! yeah that piece of old bread and 4 pickles will do

staring at the ceiling!

lose your train of thought every 5 minutes! whatever youre trying to do sure won’t get done anytime soon

every activtiy feels pointless! even your favourite hobbies. Especially your favourite hobbies!

loneliness! but also you feel like a burden to everyone you know so good luck with that

staring at the wall!

wearing the same sweatpants for 3 days straight! because who can be bothered? not you that’s for sure!

yelling at people for no reason! because now even their breathing annoys you 

staring at the wall some more!

Suddenly crying over tiny things! such as dropping your favourite pencil. it’s not even broken. but who gives a fuck!

ORDER TODAY! 

Or don’t. You’ll receive it either way!

because there is no escape!

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ain’t nobody got time for getting better

[spooniestrong]

#September is #PainAwarenessMonth .

How do you bring awareness to chronic pain in your life? (Besides living it, of course.) How do you educate others on your condition?

[litany-of-excuses-deactivated20]

Friendly reminder to check you’re not holding tension in your body. Let your shoulders drop, unclench your hands and jaw. Take a deep breath. Much better.

[drainedluck]

this is such a genuine reminder

[chronic-illness-resources]

Having a Job With Chronic Illness and Disability

Job Hunting for People With Disabilities 

On Gaining Power in the Workplace

Book: I’d Rather Be Working

Top 10 Jobs You Can Do From Anywhere

Tips For Job Seeking With a Disability 

Job Accommodation Network 

Cancer and Careers

[mintyfrills]

Be sure to take care of yourself and take your proper medication, share to help everyone remember their meds! (I keep forgetting myself >////<)

[christian-spoonie-blog]

Resting does not equal procrastination.

Taking care of yourself does not equal laziness.

Don’t ever forget that and don’t let anyone convince you otherwise.

[cwote]

Learn To Say

No, to people when you don’t feel like hanging out

No, to people who don’t deserve your time

No, to people that make you feel uncomfortable

No, to people that threaten your happiness

No, to people that don’t let you be yourself

No, to people that make you ashamed for what you like

[nine-times-blue]

I wonder what it’s like to have a normal digestive system.

[spooniestrong]

When you keep pushing, even though you've got one spoon left...

[spooniestrong]

#September is #PainAwarenessMonth .

How do you bring awareness to chronic pain in your life? (Besides living it, of course.) How do you educate others on your condition?

[myjourneythroughlyme]

Ibuprofen 200mg Instructions: Take 1 Tablet

[ableism101-blog]

Can people stop pretending doctors are perfect? Like, I was misdiagnosed with OCD and if I had went along with it I’d be fucked up from OCD meds.

[heterophobicandhomophobic-bi-de]

The so called “autism expert” my mum and I went to see said I couldn’t possibly have autism *two seconds after meeting me* and my mum theorises that this is because I was a girl

The lack of a diagnosis locked me out of receiving support until I was 10

So yeah, remembering that doctors are fallible humans rather than perfect objective arbiters of truth and rationality would be super helpful

[jenova-amaranth]

When I was getting horrific period cramps that made me throw up my doctor just dismissed it as nothing more than period cramps and the second one was so convinced I was pregnant (despite me saying I had never been sexually active in my life) she sent me for an ultrasound. Where they found I had ovarian cysts.

Then there was the doctor who told me “you’re not depressed; you’re just melancholy :)” but whatever

[spoonie-empress]

I could write an essay on this topic >:(

[clterryart]

  Day 35

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This is so me working out.

[queerbashir]

Shoutout

to anyone who feels that their struggle against invisible illness/mental illness is being ignored. 

I see you. 

I see how hard you are working to function every day. Other people see you doing every day tasks like going to the store, keeping your living space clean, or making appointments, and they might not realize how hard it is for you. But remember that every task you accomplish is a victory, and anything you can’t accomplish can be tried again. 

There’s nothing wrong with needing help. 

You’re doing a good job. 

I’m so proud of you. 

[bigbardafree]

being mentally ill is just being fed up with your own shit 24/7 like oh my god are we really going to do this again can I have like one hour of peace just one fucking hour oh my god p l e a s e

[jadelyn]

I feel like neurotypical ppl tend to underestimate MI ppls level of self-awareness abt our disorders. Like, believe you me, I am well aware that my brain is a rampant shitshow. That doesn’t mean I can make it stop doing shit though.

[the-crane-dance]

Soooo after working crazy hard on my Physio earlier this year, I decided I’m sick of giving up what I love to this disease. So I’m starting aerial again.

And boy do I suck HARD. Where I used to be able to deadlift myself upside down with ease and grace, I can no longer hold my body weight in my arms. I can’t do a pull up, I have no core strength, trying to invert has made my elbows feel like they were ripped out of their sockets even 2 days later and everything hurt so much more than it ever did.

BUT I did it. I went back, I tried, I found a new place to train, and I’m determined to keep trying. I’m malnourished yet heavier than I used to be as a professional dancer, so my body feels so alien, but even if it takes me months or years to get back to being able to dance with ease, I want to. There’s not much weight bearing on legs with hoop you see, so as long as I ca keep my back safe, this is actually feasible.

It’s going to be so hard, for my pride more than anything as I used to be SO good, but I’m trying and that’s the most important thing right?

I’m going to claw my life back, I swear I am.

[spoonie-empress]

Oh honey this made my day, really and truly. So much love to you xxxxx