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❛ how about instead of asking me to ban my child from watching her second favourite television show, you just turn the channel to something else and pretend its not on ? she’s four, gordon, she won’t know any different. ❜

“ do you know how hard it is to ignore ? shit trina , how would you feel if you had to not only write songs for that asshole , but also watch his stuff when you’re not working . it’s like torture , straight up torture . ”

#ignore that i reblogged this to jason #waswithholding

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oh, he’s well aware that his parents aren’t the warmest people– as good to him as they were while he was growing up, he’s matured enough to realize how stand-offish they can be when faced with something they don’t like. for example, the fact that their son wasn’t going to lead a white-picket fence life with a wife and children and apple pies and the whole nine yards. that put them in a sour mood. so introducing his male partner probably wouldn’t go over smoothly, regardless of how many times he pled with them to be polite and on their best behavior. this had to happen, though, of that roger was convinced. this meeting had to happen for things to feel completely serious. it was only fair, after all, since he was so comfortable with mimi; though spending time in her company was far more enjoyable for him than this dinner would be for gordon.

“i know it’s not exactly a fun way to spend a friday night,” he allows with a wince that’s followed by apologetic smile, “but it could be nice? and it doesn’t have to be long, either.”

“ i’d be honored to meet your parents . ” okay , so that might not exactly be true , but he at least has the grace to say it with a smile . no need to show the panic that’s bubbling right over the surface . after all , it wasn’t like he’d be the model boyfriend under any circumstances and roger’s parents – – well they weren’t exactly the same as his own . they were all suits and sailing . but maybe that wasn’t all bad . after all , they’d raised roger , and at this point he was all but convinced that roger was the love of his life .

“ do you think that they’ll like me ? ” a noise escapes him that could only be described as something halfway between a laugh and a sigh . “ and do i have to wear a suit ? ”

#besailing

besailing‌ .

@springfelt

“so, how would you feel about having dinner with my parents next friday night?”

it’s brought up with some caution, as gordon had never been properly introduced to his parents before. this would be where impressions were made, and while roger was plenty comfortable with mimi and had already successfully won her over, his own parents were a whole other ballgame. and he knew this would be a source of stress for them both if dinner was agreed upon, but it was a step he’d been dancing around for some time and if this was going to go any further, roger figured it was only right to have them meet gordon. if gordon was ready for that, of course.

“ your parents ? ” two words that strike fear into his heart . sure , roger was sweet but his parents – – and yet he can’t exactly say no , can he ? mimi and roger’s introduction had come ages ago , and the two might as well be old friends by now . he feels a sigh escaping him and he gives a small nod . a nod that felt more like a death sentence than an agreement . “ if you think it’s a good idea , i’m up for it . ”

#besailing

besailing‌ .

brow furrows, as roger tries to decipher what is it gordon’s about to ask. the distance, it’s not entirely unfamiliar, but it feels too cold and somehow foreign to him now. a small part of him aches at the thought of this being the beginning of a break up spiel, but remains composed as he nods his head. perhaps he’s reading too far into it, shouldn’t go to extremes, but the ounce of fear remains and weighs on his heart.

“–you can ask me anything, you know that. go ahead and shoot.”

“ if i asked you if you’d like to move together , what would you say ? ” eyes look anywhere but roger , body braced for the worst answer . ( no , not now . no , i’m not ready . it always had been him holding back before , but what if the tables had turned ? ) it’s always the worst scenario that plays out in his head . gordon schwinn : a pessimist through and through . “ i’ve been thinking about it for a while now . i think it’s a good idea . i love you , roger – even if you might snore or steal the covers in your sleep or god knows what . i’m probably making a big deal out of nothing , you know i do that . but – – ? ”

#here we go #besailing

“ i love you , you know that . ” there’s a tenseness to his words , strange in the half - darkness of his bedroom where there should be nothing to stress about but whether they had enough blankets or who was hogging the bed . and yet there it was – clear as day in both his words and his body , curled on the edge of the bed , as though touching roger is the last thing in the world he’d like to do . ( when of course it’s really the opposite – it has to be the opposite . ) “ – – can i ask you something ? you can say no . ” / @besailing

#this isn't what u think it is #starsiezed

“ trina – – you know that i love you and you know that i love ruth but i really need you to please , please stop letting her watch mr . bungee . if i have to see that man’s face more than i already have to for work , i think that i’ll die . ” / @waswithholding

starter call but the starters won’t have icons because i’m lazy

what if i just wrote without icons

#a concept

“ don’t kill me , but – – how long do you microwave a twenty - five pound turkey ? ” / @waswithholding