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Brynn - xe/hir/xyr This is my mogai blog! I mogai here. Mostly general discussion + events, but sometimes coin too. I encourage uploading and archiving my flags and terms with proper credit. Mention my url somewhere, or better yet linkback, and we're all good. Idgaf for collections or public displays of them do whatever

Reblogs don't indicate endorsement nor that I share the beliefs of a coiner or person. no DNI but I'm incluspunk, syscopunk (and explicitly endo safe), try to be woke, and am generally tepid in regards to anything more discourse-y that doesn't cause tangible harm to another individual, culture, or community. I am also against bioessentialism, "radical" "feminism" (or nuancefem or 'cryptopeaking' or whatever the hell it was), and proliferation of intersexism. I'm also pro-Palestine and anti-zionist. So Do With That As You Wiillll Icon by flandrepudding

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Zebra: when one's presentation is impacted by their Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder (HSD) and/or Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS). I have hEDS, but this label is open to all Ehlers-Danlos variations and hypermobile disorders, as per Ehler-Danlos Society. Which is also why Im surprised nobodys done this yet lol

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 26: Zero Prompt: are you on any sort of a-spectrum? are there aspects of identity you lack? Answer: Isn't everyone? Lol, yes I am technically, I am demiro, atertiary in a few ways (aplatonic + acedural being the Big one thats like just flat out) & partially aqualitine. But I'm more defined by the presences in my identity than the absences, I think... I dunno, I always found it hard to talk about what isn't there as opposed to what is there. Something I do find interesting tho is that collectively we id as genderless. The blanket self is genderless, and when not fronting in a particular way, eveyyone kinda just melds into a vaguely person shaped blob, which usually leads to bleed over in identity (everyone ends up a transandrogyne genderless futch otter one way or another...). And like, you can kinda feel it? What it'd be like to be tjhose identities, even if you aren't personalyl like I'm not any of that. And it's odd. It feels very odd. I can only describe it as like, if you bsolutely drenched your hand in oil and then shoved it into cold water. I dunno... While I'm rambling, it took a while for me to find out I'm aplatonic as well, cause like... I'm allosocial, both in orientation and as in 'without symtpom'. I don't immediately scream non-friending, that I knowve anyway. I do engage with others in a friendly manner and I don't feel indifferent when I do so for the most part. I like to talk to people, I enjoy getting to know people and making them happy. I just don't feel platonic attraction, or any desire to befriend someone. And being expected to do so, or be in a friendship just feels... kinda yucky? Like wearing the same pair of clothes for too long, when they start getting itchy and grimy from sweat and general day to day crud. I like hanging out with people. I like talking to people. I try to be there for people when they need someone. I like everything generally associated with friendship- just without the friendship part. I fink thats all I have to say for now... Tagging @dragonpride17 and @radiomogai.

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 25: Why? Prompt: why are you part of this community? Answer: Well, where else am I supposed to be?

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 24: Xenogender Prompt: are you xenogender? thoughts on the label? Answer: I suppose I am, yeah! I don't personally self-identify often as xenogender, more often xenine or xenic + some other stuff (like xeynine or horsexenan), but I fall under the definition and you wouldn't be wrong to call me xenogender. It's kinda like calling me nonbinary. You're not Wrong but also like not how I'd describe it. I'm not huge on the historical (… as in like, barely 10 years old if that, but still) description of 'anything thats nonhuman or connected to plant/animal/object/concept/atypical gender experience', but what can you do xD

Tagging @dragonpride17 and @radiomogai

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 23: W Prompt: are there any important dates when it comes to your identity? When did you discover MOGAI/queer community, or that you were MOGAI/queer? Answer: Hm... I don't know if theres any important dates for me in particularu (Not that if there were I'd be able to remember the date omg what day even is it XD) but um I cannot remember a time before we knew we were queer, or even about MOGAI for that matter, so there's that as well. 2018-19 is the guess for MOGAI, but just general queerness... Not sure.

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Sorry that one should've stayed in the drafts. Eitherway, pinned post updated

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 21: Unity Prompt: whats your feelings toward the mogai community? do you consider yourself part of it? Answer: Its my home! my memoy of anything before age like 16 is hazy if not nonexistent cause of Alter Reasons but I asked the memory guy and we've been here since like 10 or 11, so we literally grew up in this sphere (turned 18 this year, so I mean that wholeheartedly), we've come into ourselves in it, and I don't know what we'd be like, what I'd be like, without it! I'm not sure we could ever let it go! The mogai community means alot to us. But also the racisms a problem. And the bioessentialism. And the misogyny. And the intersexism. And the antisemitism. And the infighting. And the accessibility issues, not only from the high barrier of entry from the sheer amount of technical jargon that're usually really innate concepts that're hard to understand (which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but its not exactly a good thing either...?), but from rampant ableism and untagged triggers as well. I love the mogai community, I really really do. So I wanna see us grow as a community and become better people, which includes addressing some really uncomfortable behaviors and questions, and listening when its called out. Uplifting eachother, rather than bickering endlessly without change, or hiding when told somethings unsavoury. And maybe admitting to ourselves (sys we, not general we) that it isn't the same way it was when we joined, and it never will be again. And learning how to love the current state of community without lugging around an expectation of once was. I dunno, I'm just babbling at this point. I just want the place we've put so much time and energy into to be in its best shape, is all.

tagging @radiomogai and @dragonpride17

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 20: Terminology Prompt: what terminology do you use to describe yourself/others use? typical of gender? does it vary? Question: I usually use a mix! Gynine terms are usually the fallback, altho Im not huge on the formaler ones (like lady or woman), but Im also fond of any lightning, thunder, or storm-related ones. SO your elekterine, tempestgender, whatever. & Somtimes we'll mix it up a little and throw a little equine in there cauz Im horsegirl & sometimes youve just gotta say human insted of something gendered which isnt Wrong but isnt Right either so Horse. I'd say its mostly gender typical, yeah! I mean im a girl and a bult and a tempest and a stallion and thats all aspects to my gender identity or similar, so… Sumtimes if Im not 110% on a space, ill just stick with gynine btu also in this hypothetical if they can't process neo-reflang they'll probably misgender me no matter what so XD Not very often I do that

Tagging @radiomogai and @dragonpride17

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my beautiful wife, severe thunderstorm warning, is texting me 😌😚😍😍

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 19: Structure...? Was the word for today structure I dont remember Prompt: how do you conceptualize your identity as a whole? structured/divided Answer: so you know the color wheel picker? You've got your lightness gamma chroma hue, maybe transparency if youre fancy. When you want a color but a different hue, that color doesn't actually exist to monitors or people without shrimp vision, so it'll do the background work of fixing it up a little (a little less chroma, a little more lightness) and giving you the proximity of it, and it'll be fine. I've got the OKLCH color wheel. My identty, or color in this metaphor, I am keenly aware is missing the hypothetical chroma, hue, lightness of the other part of my identity, and is compensating elsewhere to seem similar. It's all separated, but not divided, its allll intertwined. You can tell where what ends and where what begins, but you cant take one part out without it seeming incomplete. You gott ahave the full piccy or else you're just not looking at it right

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Liepard intersex icons — requested by no one

Free to use, but credit is appreciated

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UmSo this is actually the opposite of what i said in my post lol (the label I prefer IS the nicher, more semantic one) but I usually prefer aqualitine over other 'lack of gender' qualities like agenrine, null or even sorta 'lack of categorization' qualities like ineffaline or debatably unidentifiable. Theresa part of me thats kinda. Im a girl, right? Im gynine, I have the qualities of the gender associated with girlhood. If you took out the sense of identity in conjunction to all the other junk and made it something tangible you could look at with your eyeballs, you could point at it and go Yep thats a Girl Alrite. But its nott 100% I Am This is more or less, I range from roughly 75%-argubaly 10% internal sense of 'girlness' based on a variety of factors; mental state, co-fronters, life events + stress, perception within myself #impostersyndrome, whatever whatever. But I'm always atleast a little bit, or want to be. yet theres that at minimum 25% of Nothing that accompanies that girlness. Dats the aqualitine. Its just... nothing! Theres a blank space where the gender is supposed to be. My expression of gyninity always lacks a little something that'd make it 100% Girl, and thats the aqualiity! Aqualinity? I dont actually know the noun form. Anyway, theres not the quality of a lack of something, there just Isnt Anything. Ive of the belief that, solely semantically and on a technical level (on a practical level agenrine is used as a synonym for aqualitine more often than not), agenrine is paradoxically gendered- it does refer to the qualities of gender, but rather its absence than its presence. Meanwhile, aqualitine refers to a lack of quality period. Like the difference between an empty box and no box, or, I guess in my case, most of a box? 3/4ths of a box. Someone keeps taking parts of my fking box. So theres stuff In the box, thats my girlhood, umbinity, whatevr, so my box Isn't empty, which is why I'm not agenrine, but parts of the box is definitely missing. Im lacking parts of my gender quality, which is how I use aqualitine. And then the ecters are in the tesseract in this metaphor, and- /j

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Privated day 12 for a lil because that was Nawt the complete thought or supposed to come out of the drafts yet T_T

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 17: Queer Prompt: do you consider yourself queer? what does queerness mean to you? Answer: I would say so! Its not my most prominent label, ie: its not what Id lead with, but I fall under queer and consider myself queer. Queerness is like... Its a word with political and social weight to it (and not to forget the blood, sweat, and tears. A lotta blood has been given over it), you gotta respect it for what it is. Its something a lot of people hated us (general we as in the community of queer people) for, it's a word utilized often for hatred, and yet queerness is a symbol of resilience. To be queer is to still stand here today, whether in physical body, emotionally, spiritually, or in memory, and live as yourself in a way that is true to you, despite adversities faced. To uplift one another, to support one another, remember and honor our lost, and continue being authentically queer. Its not the most revolutionary thought, but thats just how I see it, anyway

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 16: Plurality Prompt: are you plural? hows that affect identity? Answer: As you could gues by the we/us + mentions of plurality in more answers than not, yes we are plural I'm an alter lol!! Um It sure makes things. mushy? We tend to kinda bleed together into we're all jsut one big indistinguishable blotb identity-wise, theres not really a headspace or anything we just kinda meld together until fronting or just being Really loud. so I think thats part of why Im so adamant about letting labels go when its their time + the whole prominent internal sense thing, to refrain from completely melding into the slurry. Im very loud All the time evyone knows where Brynn begins and ends. Plurality also makes the whole body situation more... Yeah thats just a body theres no attachment to it really. I dont know.

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MOGAI ABCS - Day 15: Orientation Prompt: talk about your orientation/attraction! what is it? does it work/feel a certain way? Answer: My orientation is uh not all that interesting to be honest. Types of attraction & fragarian orientations speci,fically is a massive interest for the rest of the sys but not really me in particular lol they'd love this question. Anywho, I'm primarily intrasakuric, aplatonic, wifeoriented, pomoauxillor, ceduraloriented & a bunch of other shite. It doesn't particlarly work in a specific way I can word, but it does feel kinda like that I sorta Need this dynamic (or adversely Dont Need in the case of the aspec ones) to function at my best. Like yes I can go without a serviship or whatever but my qol woudl go waaaaaay down. And fulfilling that need for a specific dynamic like scratches an itch in my brain. Soething like that. Also Im a lesbian + conceptum I forgot to mention that. I like girls and severe weather