𝖘𝖍𝖆𝖉𝖔𝖜 𝖕𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖈𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖘 .

[srivas]

𓂅  AND NOW I FEEL ALIVE, BUT NOT FOR LONG ⦂ STEVIE RIVAS.

meet estella ❝ stevie ❞ rivas — aged twenty nine, cis woman, she / hers pronouns. musician. residing in the coral coast neighborhood of fairford, washington. single. portrayed by selena gomez. penned by willow.

FULL BIOGRAPHY ❋ STATISTICS ❋ CONNECTIONS ❋ FULL NAVIGATION

𓂅   GENERAL INFORMATION .

full name / nickname: estella valory rivas ( legally had her first name changed to stevie, no one other aside her birth parents calls her estella )

age / date of birth: twenty-nine, born on april 9, 1994

zodiac sign: aries sun, pisces moon, sagittarius rising

gender: cis woman ( she/her/hers )

place of birth: miami, florida

current residence: coral coast

sexual / romantic orientations: bisexual biromantic

occupation: musician

𓂅    PERSONALITY BREAKDOWN .

goals / desires: staying sober, maintaining a work / life balance that is conducive to her desire to be productive and her mental health, repairing her outlook on relationships, finding and maintaining the connection she so desperately seeks, finding a space where she can be open and honest about her life without the lingering fear that it is being manipulated for sales or a public persona's sake.

fears: loneliness for the remainder of her life, being buried alive, losing the people she cares about most and loves in permanent and irreparable ways, losing touch with herself and not being able to bounce back from it, house fires.

hobbies: playing guitar / piano, producing her own music, painting, cooking even if it is to little avail, writing poetry & songs, going for walks or runs especially on the beach, smoking weed, playing with the cats down at sweet whiskers whenever she's stuck in a funk, crocheting, drawing, trying to keep plants alive even though she's the farthest thing from a green thumb. 

likes: getting tattoos, being surrounded by other people ( even if it isn't always the healthiest choice ), having someone play with her hair, jo malone candles, scrapbooking in her journal with polaroids and other random mementos that hold no value but mean something to her, french fries from mcdonald's, peppermint hot chocolate at christmastime, creating a song that gets stuck in your head, having complete control, the scent of sawdust, grocery shopping at a farmer's market, the smell of the ocean, traveling the world, consignment shopping, picking her nail polish off after a show. 

dislikes: the idea of superiority and using that as leverage over others, the scent of vaseline, the texture of wool, having to use hotel shampoo/conditioner/soap, invasions of privacy, ignorance, forgetting her password and then having to reset it but then the website telling her she can't use her previous password, having to answer her phone.

hogwarts house: slytherin.

𓂅   FAMILY TREE .

parents: mateo rivas and amanda stohks neé de león

sibling(s): none.

pet(s): none.

𓂅    HEADCANONS .

somebody cue up this is me trying by taylor swift

still smokes weed (claims it’s medicinal) and drinks alcohol in moderation, but has been clean re: narcotics for a month now.

is A Musician with reason: why talk about your feelings when you could just write them into a song and pretend they don’t exist beyond that? is the passive aggressive type, bottles things up and simmers. 

big fitness junkie; she goes for a walk or run every day and, at some point in the very near future, would like to run one of those 5k things.

fluent in both english and spanish. 

incredibly good at math, her worst subject in school was social studies. it bored her to utter tears.

is the person who pulls over on the side of the road to try to help out animals because she has such a soft spot for them.

all of her tattoos are either self drawn or were written out for her by someone of significance.  

being in the kitchen and cooking has become a tactile sort of therapy for her during sobriety. she loves trying new recipes, baking at random (all) hours. is she any good at it? not really, but it's a way for her to feel more connected to her family and replicate the same feelings that food brought her during her childhood. sometimes likes to pretend she’s on an episode of master chef. she’s a dork, your honor.

[srivas]

𝗜𝗠𝗘𝗦𝗦𝗔𝗚𝗘 📲 CODY

Stevie: when and where is the new music 👀 Stevie: and the threads 👀 👀 Stevie: only reason i ever resurfaced, u know!!

[srivas]

PRIDE PARADE 2023. CUSTOM MADE FOR⦂ @phoebebaker​ LOCATION⦂ DOWNTOWN.

Stevie approaches the nearest person, tiny paintbrush in hand and question poised on her lips. "'Kay, this might sound stupid, but... any chance I could get you to paint a tiny little bi flag on my cheek? Promise I'll return the favor," she says, waving the paintbrush in gesticulation. "And if face paint doesn't do it, I also can buy participation through liquor if that's more your speed."

[srivas]

PRIDE BY THE BEACH. CUSTOM MADE FOR⦂ @foxtamara LOCATION⦂ THE BEACH.

Pride's a good time: always has been no matter where in the world she finds herself, always probably will be. She's milling about, cup in her hand, looking for somewhere to deposit herself on the sand where she won't be bothered when she looks up and sees a break-off bonfire and a small crowd. There's a guitar, avid chatter, and like magnetism, Stevie's drawn to it. She stands on the outskirts and observes, up until she's caught. "That yours?" she asks to the woman, head tipping in the direction of the guitar. "It's a beauty."

[anabellapenrose]

open starter for everyone @fairfordstarters

location: ink tattoo shop

Bella was fairly busy today but she preferred that way. There is nothing worse than being bored on job. She liked her job so much though. She always kind of knew what she wants to do once she get that opportunity.

She was sitting on the reception and doing some sketches. They were on her mind for a longer time now and she wanted to see how it is going to look on paper. She heard the bell but it didn’t stop her from sketching.

“Come on in, I’ll be with you in a minute.”

[srivas]

After lunch, Stevie slips into Ink City — normally, any random day past noon wouldn't find her inside of a tattoo parlor, but she's notorious for finding somewhere to give her ink any time the slightest of problems arises in her life. Ink is a personal type of therapy for her, and the itch brings her here instead of elsewhere. Could be worse, Rivas, she says as she pushes open the door and the tinkle of a bell sounds overhead.

"Oh, uh — okay," Stevie replies as she bellies up to the counter, glancing around at the different sketches and designs posted to the wall. "I was just wondering if you had time to squeeze me in? It's... not a big design or anything. I can pay extra if I need to, I just... heard good things about here. Figured I'd give it a try." Her lips pinch up into a small smile.

[ainsleyxwags]

Ainsley: oh shit yes hi Stevie this is Ainsley Wagner. My bad.

Ainsley: it might be kind but it’s also true. You’re so damn good—the energy was infectious truly. My mom adored you so don’t be surprised if she asks you to play at my birthday party. Which I’d love but please know I do not plan my birthday parties—they are my mother’s “thing”. It’s weird and cringe I know

Ainsley: oh! Crusty’s? It’s just a…fairford thing, yknow? Like every city’s got that unique enigma that never dies and if it gets close the locals rally to save it out of principle. Plus it’s where all the middle schoolers go on their first “date” while their parent sits behind them staring them down. It’s a rite of passage

Ainsley: more—definitely more. I can see it in your documentary now.

[srivas]

Stevie: nah, no one's bad! just wanted to make sure. there's very few ainsleys out there, only one of 'em in fairford... hopefully Stevie: aw, thanks. that's really nice. and a first, usually i am NOT popular with parents... like, at all. your mom still plans your birthday parties? that's cute. i love that. i feel like our moms would be really good friends on that aspect - if my mom could plan my entire life down to the minute she would. cringe moms for the #win Stevie: did you have your first "date" there?? also, what about the fairford transplants? how do we experience our fairfordian rite of passage if we are fortunately way beyond the clutches of middle school?? Stevie: HA, as if anyone would give me a doc. but i'll keep it on the backburner.

[catboyaoi]

wow this cannot be good for me *keeps doing it*

[ainsleyxwags]

Text ➡️ S T E V I E

Ainsley: first of all, your set? IMPECCABLE

Ainsley: you’re a talent for the generations—I truly could not help but dance the entire time. And I definitely wasn’t the only one

Ainsley: where did you learn to make music so incredibly???

[srivas]

Stevie: this is ainsley, right? hi Stevie: thank you, that's... really kind of you to say. i'm happy u enjoyed the set! wish i'd been able to get out and dance more this past weekend but we live and we learn, at least i made it down to the infamous crusty's for the first time. what's the appeal with that place, anyways? Stevie: if i say a REALLY sketchy basement of a "friend" of a friend does it make it sound more or less enigmatic

[aylinerdogan]

for: open starter ( @fairfordstarters ) where: the sugar clove event: the summer block bash and music festival

the slow, steady mornings of the festival had granted aylin far more time than she'd anticipated around the restaurant. a small and quaint place, filled with plants and flowers and cuttings ready for a new home; opening up to the regulars who enjoyed a full breakfast in the quiet had been an easy decision to make.

only, the festival had drawn them away; hangovers plaguing the young, or the festivities and fun to be had luring the rest.

still, she'd managed to take full advantage of a quiet kitchen and only few walking through her door. on the counter at the back, she'd laid out samples for the summer menu, a whole new experiment to gently introduce as the week went on. by the time the festival ended, 'the sugar clove' will have truly welcomed in the new season, and aylin couldn't wait.

of course, being her own guinea pig wouldn't do, so it's with an excited glee that she zooms out from the back to the restaurant's counter, her little hands flapping as she giggled. "oh! it's you— good morning! hey, want to do me a favour? i promise it's a fun one."

"and, it'll get you your breakfast for free, plus a few freebies, hm? sounds good, yes?"

[srivas]

Lid of her ball cap down as she weaves through downtown in pursuit of caffeine, Stevie hopes that she's not nearly as relevant as others would have her believe. She's doing her own walk of shame — whereas the rest of the town's still burning through the remnants of their hangovers or trapped in the REM cycle, Stevie's back in her footing of coming down from a performance. She slept three hours at most, the bags under her eyes heavy enough to check as luggage, frame swallowed whole by her sweatshirt and leggings.

Quietly, she slips into The Sugar Clove, scanning through the otherwise empty restaurant. Her stomach's perhaps the one other thing she can't say no to, right after Aylin's ever delightful persuasions. It takes her a moment to process the sunshine thrown her way from Aylin's demeanor, Stevie still much too exhausted to reciprocate. Instead, she smiles gently, edging her way into a seat.

"Well, as long as it's you asking, the answer's yes," she starts, pausing for a moment as she balances onto her chair. "Unless it involves photos — then it's no. I've never looked worse in my life." Stevie drops her hands onto the tabletop, folded neatly. "So, whatcha need from me, boss? Consider me at your disposal."

[srivas]

𓂅 STEVIE RIVAS ⦂ THE DISCOGRAPHY. 2015 - PRESENT

Ultraviolet (2015) — ❝ After a few years of posting music independently through SoundCloud and YouTube, Ultraviolet was Stevie Rivas's first album and project with a major record label. Most of the songs on the album were debuted live over the summers of 2014 and 2015, where Rivas spent her time performing during festival circuits and opening for Imagine Dragons and Fall Out Boy. Rivas described the album as a manifestation of the sun setting on her teenage years and the dawn of early adulthood, where she found comfort in the chaos of not knowing where life would take her. The album would be a critically acclaimed debut for Rivas. Somebody Else became the biggest hit off of the album; it would reach number one nearly six months after its release, with nearly 134 million streams. Rivas would go on three separate tours for the Ultraviolet album. ❞

Wonderland (2017) — ❝ Following hot on the heels of Somebody Else and Ultraviolet's late success, Wonderland is Stevie's most popular and awarded album to date after a debut at number two on the Billboard charts. Wonderland (stylized as WONDERLaND) spawned five singles: Hypnotic, Bikini Porn, Gone, East of Eden, and Midnight Rain. Hypnotic and Gone would be Rivas's first singles to hit mainstream radio and chart on the Billboard Hot 100. This album is infamously known for being written and recorded while Rivas was under the influence, as Rivas described it to Rolling Stones as the acid trip record of her dreams. It is also the only album to feature Rivas's face on the cover, despite all her album covers being personal photos of herself. Shortly after the conclusion of the Wonderland World Tour in 2019, Rivas would enter treatment for opiate addiction for the first time. ❞

time forgets no one (2022) — ❝ Time Forgets No One is the first album in nearly five years after the release of Wonderland and sporadic features on other artists' songs for Rivas. A surprise release on December 31st, 2022, Time Forgets No One (stylized as time forgets no one) would become Rivas's highest rated album by critics, receiving a 92 score on Metacritic. Grapefruit was the only official single and song to be sent to radio, a surprise to fans considering the number of singles Wonderland had produced. Rivas revealed in an interview with Rolling Stone that the album had been recorded in early 2021, while Rivas was sober and living in New York. The album’s title was written in Rivas's handwriting on the cover, returning to the trend of album photography not featuring her face. Rivas announced a summer tour for the album on January 1st, 2023, but the tour was subsequently cancelled after Rivas re-entering treatment in May. There has only been one performance of select songs from Time Forgets No One to date: the Fairford Summer Block Bash Music Festival, where Rivas performed Grapefruit, What If It Doesn't End Well, Taken ft. MUNA, Holocene, and Chasing Thunder. ❞

LISTEN HERE.

[srivas]

CUSTOM MADE FOR⦂ @itsjust-aiden LOCATION⦂ SOMEWHERE DOWNTOWN.

It's nights like these that she really could use a fix, and her brain is much too loud to remind her of all the reasons she can't. The Music Festival is wearing off in her system, coming down from the high that performances have always brought her, and she feels depleted. A void that lets its presence be felt, the maw gnashing against her insides and leaving her feeling slightly incongruent to the way her body is positioned around her soul. She just... hates. Everything. Anything. It's why she's milling around, outside the shopping district downtown with her hands in her pockets, the shadows of the evening rolling off her back when she presses her nose against the glass. Every so often, she's conscious of glancing at her surroundings, just to make sure she's alone in her bullshit. There's one moment, however, where she isn't. "Um..." she trails off when she spots Aiden, unsteadily stepping back from the window of Sprinkle Sweet Cakes. "Not what it looks like. Or — well, guess it is, but I'm not about to commit grand theft pastry or anything like that." She sighs internally. "What's got you out at this hour?"

[windsorbay]

THE CHARACTER.

FULL NAME: Estella Valory "Stevie" Rivas

GENDER: Cis woman

PRONOUNS: She/her

AGE + BIRTHDAY: 29 + April 9, 1994

LENGTH OF TIME IN FAIRFORD: One month

HOUSING: Coral Coast

OCCUPATION: Musician

THE INTERVIEW.

What’s it like, living in Fairford? Did you ever picture yourself settling down here or did you always know this would be your home?

"Short answer? No. Fairford's a blip on the radar — it's like picturing yourself in Suburbia, America, without ever really knowing what or where it is you're settling. It's probably one of the least assuming places I've ever been, which is why my family likes it, I'm sure. They're the type to settle somewhere and find happiness in the mundane, and I just... don't. Also don't know that I'd go as far as to call this home. That's a bit much."

What’s your family like? Are you still close, or have you blocked all their numbers?

"They're... well, they're my family. My mom and dad have always had an odd relationship when you look at shit through an orthodox sort of lens, the two of them coparenting peacefully and staying friends while getting into other relationships when I was growing up. My mom and I have always been closer; couldn't really tell you why. Maybe it was because I felt like I was with her more? Just because custody's 50/50 doesn't mean it always feels that way. They're good people. Consistent. Supported me when I was off bumming it in New York, lying about how I was spending my time (and then when I came clean) and supported me when shit started getting real. Family's important but it's never been a pillar in my life the way it is for other people, truthfully? Probably why they've started using the guilt trips to get me here and pump the brakes on my life, because they know it'll work. Could be a hell of a lot worse, I suppose."

Would you say you’re easy to get along/work with? Why or why not?

"Guess it depends on who you ask," she finally deduces, the slight inch of her shoulders in a shrug. "I'm not always the easiest person to get along with. What's that saying — not everyone's cup of tea? Definitely think I'm more of an acquired taste, but I try not to let that impact working relationships. If I'm gonna be a piece of work, I'm not gonna do it on someone else's dime."

We’ve all had our fair share of shit hit the fan and moments in the sun — tell me about a defining moment in your life, good or bad.

"Pick up a tabloid. They'll tell you a much more riveting story about me than I ever could."

THE PERSONALITY.

— + beguiling, ardent, resolute — - obstinate, abrasive, self-isolating

STEVIE IS PORTRAYED BY SELENA GOMEZ, AND WRITTEN BY WILLOW.

[jj-hayes]

STATUS: Closed. (@srivas)

LOCATION: Music Festival, Day Two, Near the Stage.

While he was initally planning to spend the day after his pool party recovering from his hangover, and maybe taking it a little easy on himself since he might have overdone it the night before, knowing that his beloved neighbour was performing that evening has him leaving his beach house in a hurry. Despite his hangover, he still finds a way to make it back to the festival in time for her set. He is in the front row, and cheering her on. "YEAH! GO STEVIE!" He exclaims as he beams at her from the audience, offering her a thumbs up when she wraps up her set. This is his first time watching her perform live, but he knows for certain that it won't to be the last. He waits for her to make her way off the stage, and then goes off to find her. "There she is, our very own little star! You were so good!"

[srivas]

Stevie doesn't know how to feel about the fact that she's performing in, of all places, Fairford. She's used to a summer festival circuit, something that's embedded inside of her veins, but it's different knowing that she's only performing here because those are the stipulations while she completes her outpatient program — if she's going to work, she can do it in the same zip code as her mother. She feels every bit like the ten year old she's been treated as.

Yet, a night on a stage performing is enough to delude her that she's not really here, that things are as they were a few months ago. Except she knows more faces in the crowd than not, and there's an odd sensation in performing newer music live, the songs that don't taste the same in the back of her throat now that she's sober and the songs that feel like unstitching her fresh wounds. Stevie comes bounding off of the stage, a bottle of water replacing her microphone in hand and the body-pack separated from the back of her shirt.

Her face brightens visibly when she sees JJ, company she doesn't expect on this side of things but is welcome nonetheless. She's used to seeing him around their small corner of the world, so anywhere outside of that feels akin to seeing a coworker outside of the office. She smiles regardless, approaching him. "Ah, thanks," she admits. "You make a pretty good hype squad, you know. I'll be sure to leave you a five star review on Yelp later."

[srivas]

🍦 = What is your muse’s favorite ice cream flavor? Do they prefer eating it in a cone, cup/bowl, or straight from the carton? Do they use any toppings?

"Brownie batter ice cream, or, if I'm in a pinch, Ben & Jerry's Americone Dream. The day they discontinue that is the day I'm officially off this earth. Nothing beats a handmade waffle cone, some caramel syrup, and maraschino cherries. When I was little, I really liked the rainbow sprinkles, so much so that I'd ask for a bowl of those. Totally ruined them for me as an adult."

[srivas]

Sorrento: What is your weakness?

"Aside from McDonald's fries, having complete control over a situation so I can do things how I want it. If someone looks around a room and asks who wants to be in charge, I'll break the hands of everyone who raises it. Not really, but... you get the idea."

[srivas]

HYDRANGEA, ⛎, MUMBAI

HYDRANGEA: STARBUCKS ORDER?

"Vanilla sweet cream cold brew, three pumps of white mocha and the sweet cream cold foam. Or, if I'm not in a coffee mood, pineapple passionfruit lemonade."

⛎  — What is your muse’s zodiac sign? Does it fit their personality?

Steve's an Aries, which... again, one of my guiding pillars in finding their voice and personality. Motivated and passionate and incredibly strong-willed, up to a fault. She is my visionary, hence her being a musician; she has plenty of ambition but her follow-through isn't always the best, especially considering she's got an addictive personality. Once she's hooked on something, whether it's an idea or a substance, she's a dog with a bone and won't drop it until something totally mundane distracts her or it's pried from her jaws. Her Sagittarius rising sign speaks a lot about her, in my opinion — she'll rarely express her emotional needs but she sure will dwell on them enough, enough to create several records worth.

MUMBAI: WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SCENT?

"That briny smell you get standing when you stand right in front of the ocean. Reminds me of home."

[srivas]

MILAN: HOW DO YOU THINK OTHERS DESCRIBE YOU?

"Like anything else, it'd depend on who you're asking. I'm sure the typical answer is just another musician with a drug problem. Holding out hope that someone would say I'm talented? Or, at the very least, overrated — all those singles off Wonderland were a bit much. I'm sure some people thought it was annoying."