[ 🌧️ ]ㅤ.ㅤis there a pain they refuse to heal from ?
[ 🪞 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhen have they looked at their reflection and hated what they saw ?
[ 📿 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat superstition or ritual do they cling to ?
[ 🌊 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhen was the last time they cried ?
[ 🌧️ ]ㅤ.ㅤis there a pain they refuse to heal from ?
she finds it icky when people imply she could just 'give up mourning' or 'leave all behind'. 'don't live in past'... letting go is hard. Memories of those things were part of her life and involve also happy memories - even if they caused pain for being... things she cannot return to or have ack. i could think only way to make that happen would be forgetting - and that she definitely does not want. even if it was confirmed a key to getting better.
[ 🪞 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhen have they looked at their reflection and hated what they saw ?
excluding times she'd just feel insecure about something in her looks ( like we all do ), but she has had couple of days of really tough time, when she completely locked herself indoors, didn't really take care of herself... Seeing her face after that, knowing she has always been sharp about looks and tidy clothes did make her despise what had come of her at that time It made her angry, hateful... but mostly: so, so sad.
[ 📿 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat superstition or ritual do they cling to ?
well in traditional sense of superstition, she doesn't have any. but ritual wise: checking locks. gates, windows, doors (especially before bed)... when she unlocks or goes for her front door she'll always look behind / around to ensure no one is around. she sets all her keys in a specific place (home, car etc.) so she can always check all of them are there.
[ 🌊 ]ㅤ.ㅤwhen was the last time they cried ?
perhaps two days ago. she doesn't cry daily but when alone / in trusted company - she can cry out of frustration or just feeling sad. reasons may vary: could be an upsetting memory from anywhere in her life, getting really scared, trying to do something and failing, then ending up so frustrated she melts. she expresses emotions, and luckily she can let out some steam at times.