Baggage Drop

I want to share my own struggles with mental health and encourage others, I am always willing to talk to anybody | She/her

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About This Blog

Hello everyone! The reason I redid my blog is because, even though I love talking about fandoms and ships, there is something I want to talk about even more: mental health. I am someone who is very reserved in real life and almost never share anything about myself. Recently, I’ve learned it is much easier to open up online when no one really knows who you are and where no one can see you. In this new blog I will be sharing more about my own struggles with anxiety and mental health for my own sake and also because I want other people to see they are not alone. I encourage anybody who is struggling to reach out to someone and if you want to you can always message me.

This blog is called: Baggage Drop, because this is where I’ll be dropping my baggage. Like I said: it’s for my own sake but I hope that people read my story and get something out of it. In addition to telling my own story I will also be sharing somethings that have helped me like quotes from people, breathing exercises, YouTube videos, and anything else I can think of. In one of the other posts on this blog you can find the link to a discord I created for anyone who wants to talk about mental health and really just make friends with similar people. I hope people will join and find it helpful.

To finish up this long introduction, I just want to say that I hope at least one person can find something I say useful.

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Show recs?

Okay so I'm not doing great...as stated in my last post and I really need some distractions. I'm currently looking for a few new shows to watch so I figured I'd ask if anyone has soom good recs? Honestly I'll watch pretty much anything that isn't horror related or too gory (I don't mind some gore just not too much). So DM me or leave a comment with a show suggestion and maybe a little bit of a reason as to why I should watch it. I currently have access to any shows on Netflix, Disney+, and Hulu. Thanks!

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Hi! I just want to say.. I don't know if you believe in God or not (and my intention here is not to offend you). But God loves you. And I love you, too. And I’m praying for good things and better days to come rushing to you. I'm sorry you've been struggling lately. I hope your heart and mind find peace so soon. And I hope you find some good friends to help support you and fill your time with fun and happy memories. Wishing you all the best. God bless you, love!

This was very sweet thank you for being so nice!

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It's Been a While

It feels like forever since I've posted on here. Life's been kind of crazy and honestly just not great recently. I kinda just want some people to talk to and get my mind off stuff. If you're around the ages of 18-20 (I'm 18) and at all interested in playing online games, streaming movies/tv shows, venting to each other, sending music/memes/etc. to each other. Let me know. I like using discord to talk. DM me, like this and I'll reach out to you, or comment.

I'm in EST just so you know.

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Two Years Ago Today

Trigger Warning: Mentions of Suicide

(I might take down this post later)

Two years ago today I made a very important decision in my life: to keep living. Two years ago I was in a very bad place mentally and I honestly thought I couldn’t keep going on. I decided I didn’t want to, but I had one thing I wanted to do and that was to go on this retreat. While I was there I heard a speaker that described her own struggle with suicidal thoughts and tendencies and it started to make me think. Then there was another speaker who spoke and said something that really hit home for me (I won’t share it here because it’s not something I want to share).

Anyway, those two talks changed my entire life and were enough to make me rethink my whole plan. I decided not to go through with ending my own life and now I’m still here. I’d be lying if I told you that ever since that day life has been easy because it hasn’t and this past year has been terrible. I haven’t been feeling great lately but I don’t regret my decision to keep living. A lot of bad things have happened but a lot of good has happened too. I wouldn’t trade the good for anything.

If you are struggling then please know there are resources that can help you. There are people who can help you. Please reach out and ask for help even when it’s difficult to. You matter.

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I wanted to go get ice cream with friends and asked two people but they were both busy so I tried to think of other people I could ask....I couldn’t think of any other people...

Sometimes I think I need more friends irl.

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Please DO NOT watch Sia’s new ableist film “Music.” The autistic character Music is shown having several meltdowns and being held in prone restraint. Prone restraint is dangerous, and has killed many autistic people. Take Eric Parsa for example. Autistic people are killed by neurotypicals who don’t know how to handle meltdowns and Sia just makes light of that. Plus, she cast a non disabled person to play Music. So again, do not watch “Music.” Here’s a thread of films with good autistic representation if you want to find something to watch.

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Reach Out To People

Hello everyone, I have been trying to reach out to people recently and give little bits of encouragement to people whenever I see someone is struggling. When someone posts about something good I congratulate them. I just want to say that of course I will keep trying to do this everyday and I want other people to do that too.

I’ve been scrolling through the mental health hashtag and finding posts from people to either comment on or message them privately. I think we should all try to reach out and encourage one person everyday. If you see a person who is struggling with something or if you see someone who is proud of an accomplishment then reach out. Put some positivity out there!

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Reblogging my own post because it’s Random Acts of Kindness Day! Please, please reach out to someone today. Say something nice or supportive to somebody. This can make someone’s whole day. Please do a random act of kindness today, even if it’s something small!

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You Are More Than The Suffering

You are more than your anxiety, eating disorder, depression, etc. You are more than your mental illness. You are more than whatever you struggle and suffer with.

You are a person. More than that you are someone who deserves good things. You deserve basic human decency. You deserve a good support system, you deserve to be taken care of, to be assured, to be hugged. You deserve company. You deserve love.

I may not know you (whoever is reading this), but I love you and I am here for you.

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Write down a list of things you want, with no one else’s expectations. I want this to be wholeheartedly, unapologetically you.

My therapist, who I just started seeing two days ago and made me think that wow, I think that already, this is already gonna help me go miles. (via caitlynnstudies)

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💕Stop scrolling please!💕

This is a break in your dashboard to re-evaluate if this is actively what you want to be doing with your time (especially for my easily-distracted, chronically procrastinating, or time-blind friends).

Check the the time.

Check your internal state.

Is this what you need right now?

If yes, keep going!

If not, get back to taking care of yourself and responsibilities!

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Reach Out To People

Hello everyone, I have been trying to reach out to people recently and give little bits of encouragement to people whenever I see someone is struggling. When someone posts about something good I congratulate them. I just want to say that of course I will keep trying to do this everyday and I want other people to do that too.

I’ve been scrolling through the mental health hashtag and finding posts from people to either comment on or message them privately. I think we should all try to reach out and encourage one person everyday. If you see a person who is struggling with something or if you see someone who is proud of an accomplishment then reach out. Put some positivity out there!

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Build Yourself Up

I’ve noticed that I’m very good at building my friends up with words like “you’re amazing” or “good job” or “I love you”, but I’m also really good at tearing myself down. One of my first thoughts when I wake up is “what’s going to go wrong today” and sometimes I find myself thinking “I hate myself” or “I’m the worst”. Little thoughts like that always stay in the back of my head and slowly tear down my self esteem.

The thing is, I would never say that to one of my friends. I would never tell someone “I hate you” and I’d never direct half the negative word I tell myself to someone else. I wouldn’t treat other people the way I treat myself. Would you go up to your best friend and tell them they’re ugly or fat or stupid? Would you take half the negative things you say to yourself and say them to somebody you love?

I’m not saying it’s easy to just break this way of negative thinking. I know it’s not. I’m just saying to try and build yourself up more. Try treating yourself the way you would treat someone you love. Look in the mirror today and give yourself a compliment the way you would a friend. I know it’s uncomfortable and I know you may not think you have anything to compliment yourself on. Try anyway, even if you don’t believe it. You may not believe that compliment today or tomorrow, but if you keep doing this everyday then eventually it will become easier. Eventually, you will believe it. It’s a small step to building yourself up.

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Senioritis

People always said it was a thing but I didn’t realize it was actually a thing until I started feeling it. It’s definitely not helping my anxiety. To anybody else struggling with school: good luck! I know I can get my work done and I know you can too. 

Just remember: don’t risk your mental health for a good grade. You can take care of your mental health and get all your work done.

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Yesterday and Today

Yesterday was a good day. I sent out a few encouraging messages to people, started up this blog, got all my work done on time, and laughed more than I have in a while. Today was a bad day. I didn’t get much of anything done, I felt like I couldn’t talk to anybody about what was bothering me, had a small panic attack, and just overall felt bad. Yesterday was good but today was bad...and that’s okay.

I hoped that just because yesterday was a good day, my whole life would get better over night. I knew that wouldn’t happened and that’s not how that works but I guess I hoped it would anyway. One good day doesn’t mean all your problems are solved and just because you make a resolution one day, that doesn’t mean you’ll automatically want to stick with it tomorrow. You’re allowed to have one good day and then feel bad again the next day. That’s okay. Just don’t let the bad days go on forever, don’t let them break your entire spirit. 

Take the good days and enjoy them but don’t expect that your motivation and happiness will just automatically last. You have to work for it. Just because one day is easy, that isn’t a guarantee tomorrow will be easy too. It’s okay if day 2 is worse than day 1. Just don’t give up.

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To anybody who reads this: I hope today is a good day.