stargirl

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sundrizzle·:

     wistful   chortles   passes   from    petals   .   couldn’t   believe   scratched   up   excuse   often   heard   on   films   is   being   used   on   him   .  ‘   oh  ,  you’re   using   the   is   not   you   it’s   me   line   on   me  .   come   on  ,   mabel   .   you   can   do   better   than   that.   ’   carelessly    taunts    her   .    with    the    what    could   have   been   removed   ,   he   no   longer   feels   the   need   to   filter   words   .   ‘   you   know    what   ,   it   all   make   sense   now   why   you’re   alone  .   you   deserve   it   .   ’

“ouch.” mabel replied and adverted her gaze from him. she hated the part where she had to try to tell someone what she was thinking. nothing good ever came from it. “guess i deserved that one huh?” it wasn’t anything new though. what he said, she had heard from others before. “i just wanted to see you, to see how you were.”

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sundrizzle·:·

   wrapped   under   soft   cotton   sheet  ,  she   found   comfort   in   the   darkness  .  mind   plagued    with   doubts   and   reservation   about   doted   relationship  .   words   of   reputed   friends   starting    to    taint   own   feelings  .  unequivocally   loves   abel   .   future   with   him   worries   her   .    wants   to   believe   that   she   is   enough   for    him    to   stop   using  .   keep    himself    clean   .   ‘  i   can’t   sleep  ’   weakened   smile   painted   on   own   pair   of  brims  .   ‘   you  … .  us  .   do   you   really   think   you   can   do  it  ?   i   saw   you   abel  .  you   promised    you   wouldn’t   anymore   .    ’  

everyone always doubted him. rightfully so, especially when it came to his addiction. a slow sigh fell from his lips, looking down on his hands in front of him. “ it was the last i had, i’m out now. ” it was a bad excuse but it was true, he was totally out after that. abel knew what he had promised her, he had promised to get clean. “ i will do this. ” a hand reached out and was placed on top of hers, his eyes meeting her gaze. “ i’m just struggling a little... that’s all. “

[bethanyesda]

FIONN WHITEHEAD as Stefan Butler in ‘Black Mirror: Bandersnatch’

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driptape·:

“ no , you’re conceited . i deserve a love story and , baby , we just aren’t that . “ her hand cupping his face , patting his cheek lightly . was it bad that she wanted to keep him in her life ? to look at her like that . “ i thought you liked when i beg you to fuck me . you’re changing on me , ace ? “

“i would say i’m self aware.” whens he moved closer, he wrapped his arms around her, keeping her in place in front of him. “i just want to be sure you know who’s begging who here. i think you couldn’t stay away from me even if you tried.”

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sundrizzle·:·

      ‘   after   what   you   did  .   i   don’t   think   i   owe   you   anything  .   if   you   expect   me  to   act   as  if   nothing   happened  .   you’re   wrong  .  i   have   never   done   anything   to   deserve   this   kind   of   treatment  ,  mabel .  ’   maybe   the   one   at   fault   is   him   for   overestimating   what   he   is   in   mabel’s   life  .   the   feeling   was   one - sided   all   along  .  this  is   the   last   time   nonsensical   heart   wins   .

“i never said you owe me anything.” she had just been trying to ease up the mood but it was clear that it wasn’t going to work. “can’t you see it wasn’t about you? i didn’t think you would care if i stayed or if i went.” she was never nailed down to one place, one thing, one job... one person. it was easier to keep it that way.

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“you still awake?” he asked, seeing them sit in the darkness in the living room. abel sat down on the couch. silence as he thought about what to say. he wasn’t good with finding the right words. “what are you thinking about?” the male turned on one of the table lamps. // @sundrizzle​

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driptape·:

“ baby boy , there’s plenty of people who’ll love me better than you .” the game of cat and mouse was addicting to her . how unstable and passionate they were . she never met someone who matched her so easily , not even her twin . they consistently ran between hot and cold . she knew he was enjoying it just as much as she had . “ no , i call you ‘cause i know you’ll never say no and will show up in a heartbeat . you’re like amazon prime , but of dick . “ 

her comment made him smile even wider. it truly was an entertaining game to play with her. “oh, so you turn to lying now.” he teased, dark eyes looking at her. “what else can i say when you’re begging me to come over?” both of them knew just how bad they wanted each other. no one else could compare to her, ace knew that. 

[stardrizzle]

“then fucking tell me, who’s gonna love you like me? huh?” grin spread across his lips, “who’s gonna touch you like me?” it was nothing new, the other always threatened with it being the last time. it was never the last time. “that’s why you always call me.”

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“i sent you a postcard. you didn’t reply.” she said with a scoff. it had been easier to send a postcard than actually pick up the phone to talk to them. “i guess i should’ve told you before i left huh?” her mind was always in a million different places at the same time, so she left without a goodbye. mabel thought it would hurt less that way. // @sundrizzle​

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The Society (2019—) Created by Christopher Keyser

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