⭒˚.⋆starfacedgirl⋆.˚⭒

⭒my space for random happenings⭒ ⭒thoughts & rambles⭒ ⋆˚꩜｡i like music, film, fashion & television｡꩜˚⋆ ⭒expect everything & nothing⭒

[pigeon-post-office]

Poetry is what helps me remember that even in fragments, I am whole

~Dearest regards Pigeon-post-office

[dreamyeuphory]

~ An hour of your time...~

[oldwinesoul]

[oldwinesoul]

“Across centuries and the void of a world, sleepless, I seek you.”

// Rafael Alberti

[poetic-questions]

—Vincent van Gogh, in a letter to his parents (Dordrecht, 8 April 1877)

[starfacedgirl]

i follow the weeping willows with my eyes

the moss leaving pathways down my thighs

i'm consumed by the dirt and it's killing me

hitch in my voice and i fall fast asleep

nightmares roam and doubt still lingers

blood dripping down each of my finger tips

i savor the flavor, metal is a luxury

don't want to feel numb but i'm mad at the anger

who let this in and why won't it stop

the risk of being hurt or feeling nothing at all

but the oceans that reside within this very being

want me to jump head first without even thinking

but i run too much from my own damn mind

i question too much without looking for answers

i sigh just for a break in the silence

and agree just so someone can owe me a favor

⭒˚.⋆starfacedgirl⋆.˚⭒

[suliqyre]

She knows she'll eventually have to settle. She knows this because it's what always happens. Her thoughts get so far ahead of her that she imagines herself having a future so perfect and beautiful and true before considering whether any of it is realistic. There are so many things she wants, simply because her ideals are so lofty.

She knows she won't achieve everything and she'll have to settle for something less. How much less she does not know, but she's hoping for at least something better than what she has at present. And she knows she's not the only one who'll have to settle. Her friends also have dreams they probably won't fully attain. They too will have to accept whatever small good they can reach.

To settle is not the worst thing, she thinks. The worst thing would be to abandon her ideals entirely. To stop working towards something better just because she knows she isn't likely to get all the way there. She's learning to accept this, but it's not easy and frequently painful. It's difficult to keep pushing forward while also having to settle so often.

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[oldwinesoul]

[starfacedgirl]

i will recollect my thoughts & change my mind again

⭒˚.⋆starfacedgirl⋆.˚⭒

[oldwinesoul]

// Anaïs Nin, from The Voice

[kyronsalvo]

[starfacedgirl]

envy or love.. can we be envious of someone we love¿?

i believe envy comes from a place of mourning within ourselves. to envy is to mourn; to mourn is to love. to envy in a healthy manner is to banish forms of resentment within our psyche. when the body of resentment forms, the love deteriorates.

⭒˚.⋆starfacedgirl⋆.˚⭒

'Saltburn' (dir. by Emerald Fennell) [2023]

[weltenwellen]

Leila Chatti, from "February Letter to Ghost Mother"

[starfacedgirl]

i run around in circles; i'm spiraling and i'm angry. nothing can contain this rage that i was born with. i claw at my legs & beat my fists against the stereo.

i can hear it but can anyone hear me¿?

okay, scratch that. none of that matters. it was a weak moment for me, i apologize for my anger. you can forgive me, or not.. i mean, i'll be mad at myself either way. but before you make a decision, did i tell you i was born with this rage? my eyes are nice and my smile is pleasant but my tongue is a sword and your feelings are its sheath. i get in my own way far too much and blame everyone else for my mishaps. i'm learning to take accountability. i'm learning to dilute the rage. i don't like taking things out on you.

do you hear me when i say i don't mean to¿?

⭒˚.⋆starfacedgirl⋆.˚⭒