System blog and diary of sorts because this stuff felt uncomfortable to put on a personal blog not intended for it. Also makes organization easier for things we may need to look back on. URL (& subsequently title to this post) subject to change; a lot of this blog is just placeholder stuff so we can have the space sooner rather than later.
While we will not vent here unless it specifically relates to being a system, we will still likely discuss our trauma here especially if it relates to our systemhood in some way. We will trigger tag as necessary, but please be aware this is by nature a more raw blog. Keep your comforts in mind when interacting.
More info under the cut.
@barnmates goes by Karl and uses it/its pronouns.
Random followers are ok, we just don't want to advertise this blog because it's not something we want to be known for. Just be respectful and you can stay. No syscourse + we still want to be seen as one person despite differentiating ourselves (we do not like the term "plural" used for us often for this reason). Thank you!
Tags are mostly self-explanatory; a lot of them are plain for straight-forward utility. We use (name).txt for differentiating our personal posts, and our emojis for appearances in art.
Common Fronters:
Karl (⭐ - it/its - neu/ masc terms): Main host; will be around a lot. Likely what most people think of when they think of us.
Portmanteau (✨ - it/its - neu/ nonhuman terms): Secondary host, likely during depressive episodes/ times of high stress.
Sho (✂️ - it/tongue - neu/ fem terms): Ex-host & anger holder. Actually good at being social when in front, it fronting is just rarer nowadays.
Boyfriend (🎤 - he/it - masc/neu terms): Social part. I'm going to be real he's just around sometimes that's it. Fairly responsible, at least by our standards.
Kaden (🦗 - he/him - masc terms): Also a social part. Kind of also Just Around but he also tends to come around when we need a distraction/ a break from being serious.
Role descriptions are mostly just for our utility in observing patterns. We don't hold anyone to specific roles, it's just important to us to recognize why they usually are brought to front.
we were going to draw and mauybe eating and disconnecting from all that will make that more appealing but im half tempted to see if someone else wants to play games or something. i feel like if i think too much its going to go bad
Ohhh I kind of hate when situations are messy and imperfect. And I kind of hate when I feel like I have to make myself invisible for the sake of others because of it.
Ohhh I kind of hate when situations are messy and imperfect. And I kind of hate when I feel like I have to make myself invisible for the sake of others because of it.
oh yeah and we also finally messed with the system map feature. still not a fan of how they expect you to use it (would be better for some of us if we were allowed to describe connections that don't hinge on being relationships) but alas. we are slowly finding out we Do have sorts of in-sys relationships though so it's not as bothersome now i guess. I think our three floaters could be connected if we had a relationship option for splits but i have to be real im only confident in two maybe Three. and that's me thinking the three circus freaks are my fault LOL, but even that im not fully certain about. and maybe michael comes from bf because of source history reasons but it could also be a coincidence. and im certain everyone else was pre-existing and only showed up slowly bc we only just started allowing ourselves this. gestures at bf having likely been around at least 2 years before identifying himself.
Logging fronts for the day and giggling about Sho. Because the like Roles we have marked for it on PS don't really convey the new theory that Sho is most often out for family event days (where we have to be social with family). To be fair we also just didn't have the track record until about now to be able to theorize its around for a lot more than we thought but still. LMAO..
"youre having a lot easier time drawing this ref for an alter" yeah well its simple. if i fuck up my characters ref i will die badly. if i fuck up my alters ref i dont give a shit he can cry about it
