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sooo jess here's a list of zayne being a complete freak in public in no particular order
- abyssal chaos ending 'rose under the moon' in which they fuck in a public rose garden
- exclusive tutorial in which they almost fuck on a pool table when zayne's peers and colleagues are downstairs
- the plushie manager event in which mc was in zayne's lap and a customer was like uhhhh there are 2 chairs???
- the wedding banner event in which zayne looped his tie around mc's neck and pulled her in
- secret's kiss in which zayne engineered mc being under his desk while they were undercover & then kissing her stupid when someone left the office
i'm sure there are a ton more i'm not thinking of off the top of my head, but zayne seems to love pushing the boundaries lmao
And so, the woman dies. The woman dies so the man can be sad about it. The woman dies so the man can suffer. She dies to give him a destiny. Dies so he can fall to the dark side. Dies so he can lament her death. As he stands there, brimming with grief, brimming with life, the woman lies there in silence. The woman dies for him.
- The Woman Dies by Aoko Matsuda
NERD!ZAYNE TEACHING THE GUYS HOW TO MAKE A GIRL CUM USING YOU AS VISUAL AID😝
🔞MDNI🔞
*Yes, this is a fuck you to that bitter anon.
"They are full of shit" Caleb wiped a stray drop of alcohol from his mouth with the back of his hand and glared at nobody in particular. "The girls on the third floor make up half that stuff for fun."
You were wedged in the middle, squeezed between Caleb and Rafayel on the edge of a mattress that groaned under the collective weight. Every time someone moved, the springs let out a pathetic little squeak. The alcohol was starting to feel like a warm, heavy blanket behind your eyes, blurring the room into soft edges, but it was definitely making you feel a little more brave. Or reckless. Probably both.
You’d know these idiots since freshman orientation. Two years of shared greasy takeout, late night study sessions, and brutal hungover Sundays. That messy stretch of friendship was the only reason you felt comfortable enough to let your filter slip.
"It's not just the third floor," you said, tracing a finger around the rim of your cup. "It's everybody. The nursing majors. The track team. Pretty much every girl I've talked to. They all said the same thing, that you guys look like you belong on a billboard, but fuck like clumsy horny dogs."
"A horny dog? Seriously?" Rafayel looked genuinely wounded. "I am an artist and a very attentive one."
"You think lighting candles counts as attentiveness."
"It contributes."
From across the room, Sylus remained focused on his phone.
"Let them talk," his thumb paused over the screen "The loudest complaints usually come from people who never say what they really want."
You laughed "That's what you're going with?"
Sylus shrugged.
"Fine. Caleb?" he immediately looked suspicious.
"What?"
"That girl from the lacrosse team you fucked last weekend..."
Caleb groaned. "Oh, come on."
"How do you know she actually finished?"
"Because she told me she did."
"And?"
"And she was loooooud."
You stared at him and saw his confidence falter slightly.
"Girls do that so you'll speed up and get it over with"
Caleb opened his mouth, then closed it. He looked toward the window, his jaw shifting. "She... she wrapped her legs around my waist the entire time. That means it was good, right?"
"That means she was trying to get more friction because you weren't hitting the right spots," you said turning your head towards Rafayel "What about you?"
Rafayel straightened. "What about me?"
"When was the last time you actually looked down to see what was happening instead of just listening to the noises she was making?"
Rafayel's face turned a bright pink that extended to the tips of his ears. "I can tell by the rhythm. The atmosphere shifts."
"The atmosphere doesn't make a girl cum, Raf," you laughed, the whiskey bubbling up in your chest.
Across the room Xavier finally lifted his head from the rug, his hair stuck out in every direction.
"I just do it until they tell me to stop."
The room went quiet.
"Xavi, that is not the reassuring answer you think it is."
"Oh." he considered that.
"See?" you said, pointing around the room. "None of you actually know how to make a girl cum, you just assume you did a great job because you're hot, and then leave them to finish the job themselves after you fall asleep."
"That's correct"
The words cut through the conversation.
Zayne didn't look up from his anatomy textbook, he just adjusted his glasses and continued reading for a few more second before lifting his eyes.
Caleb barked out a laugh. "Oh, here we go."
Zayne ignored him.
"Most guys operate on assumptions rather than observation."
"Listen to the expert," Caleb said. "A man whose dating life exists entirely in textbooks."
Zayne's expression didn't change. "I understand the theory better than you"
"Theory?" Caleb repeated.
"Anatomy, Caleb."
"That's a lot of confidence for someone talking in hypotheticals." Sylus teased.
Zayne hesitated "It isn't as complicated as people make it out to be. I can show you."
"Do it." the words left your mouth before you could calculate the weight of them. "Show them."
Caleb sat up straighter. Rafayel looked interested. Xavier was really awake now.
The room suddenly felt smaller.
Sylus finally dropped his phone into his lap, his gaze locking onto your face, heavy and unblinking.
Zayne didn't blink either. A dark red flush crept from beneath the collar of his black sweater, staining his throat. He looked at your cup, then at the space between his own knees, his jaw working as he swallowed.
Shit Shit Shit
"We're... we've known each other a long time, this feels like we're crossing a line."
"She asked," Sylus stood, the leather chair groaning beneath him. He crossed the room to slide the deadbolt into place before he leaned against the door and folded his arms. "And the doctor says he has the answers. Let's see a demonstration."
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The floorboards felt cold under your bare feet. Taking your clothes off wasn't nearly as smooth as moments like this looked in movies. It was awkward, rushed, and far too real. Your jeans caught on your ankles as you kicked them off, your bra strap twisting before you cleared it from your arms.
"Sit here," Zayne whispered. He was now sitting on the edge of the mattress, knees spread wide apart.
You moved into the gap between his thighs. His chest felt warm against your shoulder blades.
Caleb and Rafayel pulled two chairs forward and Xavier stayed on the floor, dragging himself closer until his knees almost touched your ankle.
Before moving anywhere else, Zayne clamped his hands around your waist. His palms felt warm against your skin, holding you steady between his thighs.
"The skin requires warming first, If you touch her when she's cold, the muscles contract. It closes the blood vessels."
His hands slid higher, the friction of his palms catching against your ribcage. He paused when he reached your breasts, using his fingers to lift and shape them without any sudden squeezing. He kept his touch frustratingly light, his thumbs sweeping in slow arcs across the base before flicking directly over the tight tips.
A gasp caught in your throat, slipping out as a sharp breath. You dug your fingers into his knees, squeezing just to keep from writhing away from his hands.
"Are those goosebumps?" Xavier asked from below before reaching out, his hand hovering an inch from your left knee before he dropped it back to the floor.
"Yes, but it's an involuntary reaction," Zayne leaned his head forward, his hair brushing against your earlobe. "It doesn't mean she's cold."
Caleb cleared his throat, looking down at his hands, then back at you.
The sudden loss of Zayne's touch on your breasts made you shiver, his hands already traveling down your abdomen to grip your inner thighs. He parted your legs wide, exposing you to the heavy stares of the room. Under the direct glow of the desk lamp, the skin of your inner thighs visibly trembled.
His knuckles dragged over your outer lips and he stalled there, his jaw tightening as he drew his hand back and stared down at the slight sheen—not nearly enough.
"She’s nervous and that's completely normal. Any friction here would just cause irritation."
"So you're stuck," Rafayel said. He was leaning so far forward his chest rested against his knees, his eyes wide and tracking every movement of Zayne’s hand.
"No."
Zayne brought his hand up to your face and pressed his middle and index finger against your bottom lip, forcing your mouth open. The scent of paper vanished under the wet heat of your mouth. "Wet them."
You took his fingers in, tongue curling around them. Zayne watched your lips close around his knuckles, his chest expanding against your back, before he pulled them out with a wet pop, a thin thread of saliva breaking between his hand and your mouth.
"You only need to do this once to get things moving," Zayne explained guiding his wet fingers back down between your thighs. "If a man needs to re wet his fingers or use lube over and over, it means he’s doing something wrong."
He pressed his slick fingers directly against your clit, rubbing an agonizingly perfect circle.
A sharp cry broke from your lips and he rested the heel of his hand firmly against your pelvic bone, using that grounding weight to steady his touch while his index and middle fingers began a slow, testing exploration of the skin surrounding the swollen bud. He moved in light crescent shapes, mapping the outer edges first without touching the center directly.
Your hips moved, trying to force his hand to hit your favorite spots, but Zayne held your waist with his other hand, keeping you still.
"Not yet," his voice was losing its stiffness "Look at how she reacts when I go near it. She's so sensitive right here. Such a good girl for letting you all see." The bastard knew about your praise kink. Of course he knew.
He changed the strokes to a firm downward motion along the sides before gathering the slick that was beginning to coat his knuckles and smoothing it back up. He watched your skin change color under his fingers, his thumb finally making direct contact with your clit, pressing down and tracing a tight, clockwise circle.
Your thighs twitched, knees trying to clamp shut around his arm.
"Don't hide," his thumb switched direction, drawing slow figure eight that dragged across the very top of the bud before dipping into the soft groove underneath. "Let them watch how wet you get when someone actually takes their time with you. You look so pretty when you're dripping like this."
Across from you, Caleb's hands were gripping his own knees so hard the fabric of his sweatpants strained. His eyes were wide and fixed entirely on the gloss of your skin where Zayne’s thumb was slicking the fluid back and forth, finding the exact weight that made your head fall back against his shoulder "She’s... she’s shaking..." his voice sounded rough and uneven.
Rafayel moved to the edge of his seat, his fingers tangling in the hem of his shirt, his face had gone from pink to tomato red "And the color is different..."
"Because the blood is pooling exactly where it’s supposed to," Zayne told them increasing the pressure just a fraction until you let out a broken whimper. "If you change the rhythm too fast, you lose the progress, so find the pattern she responds to, and you stay there."
From the floor, Xavier stared at the small twitches of your hole "She’s pulling in, like she wants to wrap around something."
Sylus stepped away from the door, his hands were out of his pockets now, his knuckles white as he watched Zayne’s fingers spread your folds apart, exposing the wet, pink interior completely "She's begging for it."
Zayne looked up at the four men watching.
"The manual rhythm is only the baseline, the tissue is highly receptive to temperature and texture. Anything you can execute with your hands, you can replicate, and enhance, with your mouth.
He brought his index finger directly to the very tip of your swollen clit, pressing with small, localized prods.
"If you use the tip of your tongue like this," Zayne explained, his finger mimicking the flicking motion against the sensitive bud, making your hips jump, "you target the isolated nerve clusters. It's high intensity and it forces the blood to the surface faster."
He then slid his index and middle fingers tightly together, flattening them against each other to create a wider, smoother surface. He pressed the flat length of both fingers firmly against your entire center, dragging them in a long upward stroke from your entrance all the way up to your clit.
"But when she gets overwhelmed, you switch," Zayne said as he repeated the stroke "You have to use the whole flat of your tongue like this. It dampens the sharp sting of the sensitivity while keeping the heat building. You alternate based on how much she's twitching."
He used his other hand to gently pull your lips apart "Look at the opening," Zayne's breath felt soooo hot against your neck. "When the nerves are active, the tissue swells. It opens on its own."
Behind you, something thick pressed firmly into the cleft of your ass. Zayne was completely hard. His glasses had slid down his nose, but he didn't take his hands away to fix them.
"Zaynie..." you moaned, your head falling back against his shoulder again. The sight of the guys watching you was winding the coil in your belly tighter and tighter.
"Tell them," Zayne ordered, his fingers digging harder into the top of your clit. "Tell them what it feels like."
"It's... it's so good," you sobbed out "I... Zayne, I need...fuck...."
Sylus moved closer.
"The internal contractions," Zayne told them, his words breaking as his thumb worked in a fast circle. "They will milk whatever is inside. Just one finger in. Now. Feel it."
"Now?" Rafayel stammered, his hand shaking as he reached out.
"Now!" you ripped the word straight from your chest,
They moved together, a crowded rush of limbs. Four fingers,all pushed into your wet pussy at once.
Your muscles clamped down in spasms. Caleb let out a low curse, his head dropping against your thigh as you squeezed his finger. "Fucking hell... tight little pussy."
"Keep your fingers still," Zayne's thumb was still holding pressure against your twitching clit while he kept your hips steady against his own shaking thighs. "Feel the rhythm. That's her release."
Rafayel didn't speak, his eyes were fixed on his finger buried inside you.
The silence returned slowly, punctuated only by the sound of you trying to catch your breath. One by one, the fingers withdrew, leaving your cunt open and drooling. You collapsed back into Zayne, your muscles humming with the aftershocks.
Four men stood around the bed, looking down at their wet hands. Zayne was breathing hard against your neck, one hand shaking visibly as he pushed his glasses back onto the bridge of his nose.
He cleared his throat, his voice cracking slightly "Are there... any other questions?"
Xavier raised his hand slowly to his mouth, his tongue darting out to taste the wetness on his knuckle, his eyes completely dark as he stared at your open thighs.
"Yeah," he said "Can you teach us how to make her squirt?"
pairing: sylus x gn!reader
summary: after an onychinus ordeal goes wrong, you're the only one able to comfort sylus at his most vulnerable.
cw: accidental child death, consumption of alcohol, sylus cries (a lot), angst/hurt/comfort
wc: 620
“Where is he?”
“Office,” Kieran replies. “Boss has been in there for hours. He still refuses to come out.”
You nod solemnly. “Thanks for calling me.”
“Thanks for coming.”
You offer a thin smile before heading towards the hallway.
Luke leans against the wall across from the room. He pushes off of it when he sees you approach, briefly squeezing your shoulder as he walks away. You wait until he turns the corner before softly knocking on the door.
“Sy, it’s me.”
Silence.
You’re about to knock again when you hear a faint, “come in.”
The door creaks open as you step inside, your heart instantly aching at the state of the office. At the state of him.
Once neat stacks of paper litter the floor around his desk, shards of ceramic pile in a corner–something thrown against the wall, if you’d had to guess–, and an empty scotch bottle sits atop a table near the fireplace.
A half-filled glass swirls once before its owner swings back the amber liquid, downing the rest in one gulp. Sylus slams the cup down next to the bottle, flames dancing in his red-rimmed eyes when he finally turns to you.
“Is this what you came to see?” There’s a gravel to his voice you don’t recognize, a slight slur in his words that completely clashes against Sylus’s always typically polished persona.
You stand frozen in place, eyes wide with worry. To him, he only sees fear.
He tears his gaze away, leaning forward until his elbows rest on his knees and his face is shoved into his hands.
“You can go,” Sylus rasps.
He’s giving me an out, you realize. Even in the state he’s in he still tries to shield me from himself. You won’t have it, not this time.
“I’m not going anywhere.”
Three, four, five steps and you’re standing in front of him. You sink to your knees, one hand brushing back his wild hair, the other placed gently on his thigh.
“Baby, look at me,” you plead through a whisper.
Sylus barely lifts his head, but the opening is enough for you to tuck a finger under his chin and have his eyes meet yours.
Fresh tears threaten to spill out, your own welling up at the sight.
“It was…my fault,” his voice wavers. “I was reckless, careless, so focused on sending a message that…I-I didn’t see her.” The child Kieran told you about over the phone. A vacant building that was supposed to have no one inside.
A single tear runs down his cheek. You swipe it away instantly and kiss the trail it left behind.
Forehead pressed to his, his face cupped in both hands, you tell him, "just breathe."
Sylus lets out a trembling breath, pulling you up onto the couch beside him and dropping his head against your shoulder. He clings to your waist, bunching the fabric of your shirt in clenched fists. You hold him just as tightly, rubbing his back while murmuring sweet reassurances into his ear.
“Let it out, my love. I got you now.”
His whole body jolts, like the floodgates finally broke open. His shoulders quiver and soon the wetness soaks through your jacket. You continue your coos, a calm cadence that offsets the choked sobs sounding from the man in your arms.
You two stay in that position long after his crying subsides. A comfortable silence sits between you, just presence and embrace the only communication needed. I'll always be here for you, your hug says. And I am forever grateful, his relaxed posture relays.
The crackle of the fireplace and his soft, even breaths against your neck lull you to sleep, with Sylus straggling not too far behind.
ginny's note: i wanted to explore sylus' vulnerable side, especially when reality becomes too overwhelming and guilt eats away at who he is. i'm not used to writing this kind of angst (i don't think i ever have actually), so let me know what y'all think!!
xavier is a breath of fresh air in more ways than one
a/n: feeling sad and missing xavier so have some comforting fluff :P
you always seem to feel relieved after talking to xavier. his soft voice and gentle eyes help take the weight off your shoulders as you talk to him, even if it isn’t about whatever is bothering you. his reassuring words always seem to land right where they need to, making your heart race slightly in the best way possible. his soft touches and fun anecdotes make you smile until your cheeks hurt.
xavier always manages to coax you out of your home, even on days when you don’t want to. especially on days you don’t want to.
“the weather is really nice, wanna join me on a walk?” he sounds hopeful over the phone, your chest hurts as you pull your blanket tighter around yourself.
“I’m really tired today, sorry xav,” you mumble, tears pricking your eyes as you try to end the conversation quickly.
“that’s okay, we don’t have to walk much. there’s a nice bench under a tree we can sit at?” Xavier’s voice is just as gentle as always as he speaks, a hint of hope still tinging his tone.
“maybe another time? i just don’t feel like it right now,” you reply, “ill text you later, okay?” you say quietly, hanging up before he can question you.
two minutes later there’s a knock on your door, you answer with red rimmed eyes and tear stained cheeks. xavier feels his heart break in his chest as he hands you your favorite candy.
“you know being outside for even 10 minutes helps boost your mood?” his small sheepish smile makes your lips twitch upwards slightly.
the two of you sit together quietly on your balcony, not saying anything as the sun warms up your skin.
“the weather is really nice,” you finally say, eyes shifting around the cityscape as you stare over your balcony, xavier smiles at your words.
xavier smells like fresh laundry. the smell of his laundry detergent and cologne permeate your bedsheets and throw blankets after he’s been over. it makes you miss him even more when he’s not with you.
after a long day you find yourself seeking out his scent, inhaling the lingering smell that is uniquely xavier on his side of your bed. you pout as the hole in your heart isn’t filled, reaching over and sending him an ‘i miss you’ text. he’s by your side in seconds.
you don’t hesitate to throw your arms around him, shoving your face in the crook of his neck and breathing in deeply. he smells like himself, he smells like home. your mind stops racing and your heartbeat settles into a familiar rhythm. your lips turn upwards as they meet his.
“missed you angel eyes,” you whisper, cuddling further into him, letting his entire body engulf you.
“i did too, starlight,” he mumbles back, placing a kiss to the top of your head, strong arms wrapping around you securely.
xavier was your breath of fresh air, always there when you needed him most.
