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Darth Vader doing Yoga. You can call him. Darth Yoga.

Note: Boba Fett in the left trying to hit on an Imperial officer.

Credit to: TolyanMy

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The Force in me honors the Force in you

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‘worthy’ artwork by David Smith

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True story

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... true story

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2016

Jobs: 4 Apartments: 4 Boyfriends: 1 Break ups: 1 Cars: 2 I admit I'm not perfect. I admit I make mistakes. I admit I love too much with my heart. I trust too much. I spent the past two weeks reflecting on so much. It has rented way too much space in my head and in 2017 I need to make so major changes or i will keep on making the same mistakes. If a man is going to repeatedly text other women, he is not worth my heart. Perhaps i was just too afraid to be alone. But, it is better to be alone than unloved and no respected. I have a vast array of friends who love me... warts and all ... and they deserve my time. Dear 2017 ... i will do all i can to be a better me

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Don’t become who hurt you.

Unknown (via wordsnquotes)

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There is something to be learned from a rainstorm. When meeting with a sudden shower, you try not to get wet and run quickly along the road. But doing such things as passing under the eaves of house, you still get wet. When you are resolved from the beginning, you will not be perplexed, though you still get the same soaking. This understanding extends to all things.

Yamamoto Tsuentomo (via originalgiantcontent)

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And so it goes

Another Christmas in the books... this one was to be spent with my boyfriend and his family. We were to be cooking together on the weekend after wrapping presents and having a fire. We were to be in each others arms , falling asleep while the world whizzed past us. That did not happen. My boyfriend of 7 months had decided that the opportune time to end our relationship was over the phone, during my work day ... a week before christmas. I was completely floored. Heartbroken. Confused. In my heart of hearts I had no idea this was coming. But I should have. See, he has a woman in his life who would not let him be. Foolish me trusted his words when he said they are friends. Foolish me trusted his actions when they went for drinks the Thursday before he ended it. Foolish me believed him when he stated after receiving his belongings that we were good.. we were friends... as he looked at me with glassy eyes after he hugged me. And then I learned. The woman was In his bed before my side even went cold. The woman was in his life within moments. The woman was putting words In his head. We stand and say sisterhood as we tear each other down We claim strength In women , while texting another woman's man I refuse to believe this is what we have become and she is just a weak person. And he is a man child But this seems to be a pattern I see amongst people now a days I find peace in knowing the people I surround myself would never be as such I find peace In knowing that my.puppy girl is the only one I can trust and will give my heart to again I would wish him well, but Instead the numbness in my heart is growing stronger And the anger is beginning to rise as I acknowledge my ignorance in the situation At this moment all I can say is ... and so it goes

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Again

I knew I spoke too soon I was happy for the first time in so long, but I should have know I would have given you everything But you didn't want things And you didn't want me You watched me leave like it was nothing You let me leave like I didn't matter And here I am in a place I know so well With a broken heart And a bruised ego Because I should have known Nothing is meant to last And I am not to have happiness

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 - You don’t think I’m too short to be dignified.

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❤️ I helped

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gif made on request. Use and abuse!

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Listening to him snore is the most peaceful sound to me

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Beautiful

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Ha

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Lifestyles of the Broke and the Awesome

Sarcasm.

It is a trait I am proud of. It used to be self depreciation, but, I am slowly moving out of that territory and falling directly into the realm of answering most questions I am asked with “ Really??”

Who am I?

Does that really matter. I am just anther faceless drone in the world pissing about the issues she has with the universe through the power of wordplay.

I am turning 38 in a month. Most people I know are successful, married adults. Me. I am successful in the world of my business that I work for. I am successful with the company I keep.

Relationships? Prior to my soon to be ex husband I dated the guys that you would read about. The musicians. The actors. The television personalities. And even those you did not read about but man would they change my life for the better. They also lasted as long as a the flavor of a fresh piece of Fruit Stripe gum.

My soon to be ex? Well, he is the ANTITHESIS of ALL OF THIS. I admit it. I went for the safe guy. The quiet one. The one who would never cheat. The one who would never disrespect, because ( and yes this is a fucked up statement ) I was way cooler than he was. Guess What??!! I was wrong. FUCK! But, I have learned a lot about myself and WHO I am.

Who am I?

I a broke and awesome.

I left our marital home (mostly because he asked me to and also because it was just not worth the fight of staying)  with nothing. .. I have never been happier.

Starting over is fucking frightening as as fuck.( Oh I also curse… A LOT SO I hope you are on board with that.. and if not, you should just stop reading now.)  You have LITERALLY nothing. The clothes on your back and what ever is in your wallet.  Friends of mine always made a little fun of me for I had a joint account with my soon to be Ex ( let’s just call him STBE shall we ? ) since we started dating.  NO JOKE.  Third month we were sharing cash!

Girls ( and guys ) if you are reading this … NOFUCKINGWAYNEVERFUCKINGAGAIN!

Let’s be real here.  If you are BOTH contributing.. right on. If only ONE is contributing …

a) RUN

b) NO

c) RUN!!!

Just say NO!!! I mean there are times when the times are tough, but FUCK NO and again GUYS this is for you too!!! If she is not helping … make sure she knows how to stand on her own two feet before she jumps on your back for support!

Anyway I digress… Since the implosion of my marriage I have been living life to the fullest.  I know that sounds whatever but, fuck it I AM LIVING!!!

I have no savings left. I had to give up my dog ( it was his ), fucker got my Nintendo and Xbox, has the house, and all the money.

What did I get??

FREEDOM.

FREEDOM to be ME! Weird. Loud. Happy. ME!!

I went to music festivals, met some awesome new people who I have invited into my circle, go to the city more, see old friends,dance around my house naked if I want to.

Yes, I did the standard “girl got dumped” routine and cut the hair off ( whoops ), dyed it blonde ( woo hoo ), bought every piece of clothing I have ever wanted.

Yes I am broke and awesome.

Free. Happy… and Moving the fuck on wards and upwards

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First blog I wrote after my separation ...