my favourite thing about the world is the way it weaves fog between the streetlights that look more like stars and also between your lips and mine as the chill is enough to draw the fog out of us, too
my favourite thing about the world is the way it weaves fog between the streetlights that look more like stars and also between your lips and mine as the chill is enough to draw the fog out of us, too
1/2 hi hello i don't know if this is so much your forte but if you are willing to listen to a follower's gripe then what fool would i be not to take up such a genuinely sweet offer. i reconciled with my old best friend, who is also consequentially my ex girlfriend. i striaght up told her i made my mistakes and they were entirely my fault and she said she wanted to be friends again. so we are. i still want to make things up to her because she's my lifeline but i dont know what i can or should do.
hello. thank you for reaching out. i am here to help in any way i can, even if only to listen. ill put the rest of your messages under the break.
“2/2 even though r convos are strictly text based she comes off to me as monotonous like she expressed inclination to have me back in her life to some degree but seems mostly disinterested while i at one point stopped myself in the middle of work to ask a mutual friend of ours if she's doing ok. she seems fine. but i don't know and i still want to make things up for her because im an idiot who cares about her. i never cheated. i never beaten. i was just reclusive. but i hurt her. dont wanna again
3/2 anyways thanks for your time to listen if you were or are unable to reply. appreciate it. dont have to be sorry for not being on the blog all the time btw. sometimes you gotta have time for yrself and thats ok too but you being supportive to suffering followers is a lovely feat for a fellow somebody with a hear t the size of an ever-growing multiverse”
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so, to begin. it was very good of you to accept your mistakes as your own. mistakes are hard to forgive, and being truly forgiven is something that is hard to come by. but to realize this and still take the risk to reach out and at the very least own up to your shortcomings in the past takes great courage and i am very proud of you, just as you should be of yourself. this is of course not me endorsing that kind of behaviour to begin with, but growth is something that should be commended for the truly repentant.
to continue, her reluctance might be real. sometimes people want to see the best in others and give them a second chance, even if their hurt is still big and real. hurt can dull after time, and sometimes its brought into question if its even worth being upset about anymore since time has passed. but the ache sometimes still remains. it might be subconscious, but resentment is still a very real possibility, even under the surface. but whether this is brought on by your being in contact again or not, i cannot say.
it is up to you to be as open as possible with her that she can still confront you about your pasts together, if only to bring herself peace if its something she needs. she deserves it as much as you do. if she is pushing herself to be your friend again, this is not good for her. and im sure you realize this.
it WILL be okay, no matter what, even if you two arent able to keep in contact anymore afterwards. your growth can continue to thrive, so that you can be better for the ones you love and care about now and in the future.
i would suggest reaching out to her. if you do truly care for her, reassure her its okay if she cant do this. no matter what, you shouldnt be upset with her if this is the case. she is trying her best, im sure, and most likely is genuine in having wanted to be friends again. but sometimes with the reintroduction of people who have hurt us, comes stress and anxiety regardless of how our hearts feel.
itll be upsetting, and its okay to be upset, but its not her fault. tell her you care about her. tell her you want her to be happy. if its true. she will know you have tried your hardest, too. but if theres something she needs, you can try to make it up to her in any ways youd like that are comfortable and meaningful to the both of you. im sure itll mean the world. whether this comes in the form of random pictures of things that remind you of her out in the world, a nice gift, a coffee brought when you both have a minute, a joke you heard, a book recommendation, or just some time to breathe. theres plenty of little things to do that wont make someone feel pressured or stressed, but might brighten their day. im sure youd know best, though. do what feels right.
i really do hope this works out for you, both of you. i wish you the best, and if you need anything else in the future, please do not hesitate to reach out again. i hope this has been helpful. of course, you are able to take this advice with a grain of salt, i am not a therapist or a councillor of any kind. but i do hope it helps even in the slightest.
I feel devoid of human connection. I try to make new bonds and I don’t feel anything but disappointment and anxiety. my situation is destitute. I miss my ex and want to reach out to them, deluding myself they would do anything but treat me coldly and try to hurt me, but they made me feel like they were the only person in the world who understood or liked me. now I’m plagued by nightmares and I’m tired and lonely. I find no joy in life, no matter how hard I try to be optimistic. I enjoy nothing.
watering your true self down for others is going to hurt more than anything. you are you, and you are worth loving and being with. you will find others and others will find you. they are out there, and they are waiting to have someone just like you in their lives. itll be okay. there will always be more than this emptiness we feel. its okay. you are worth searching for. you are worth the wait. i promise.
2 months ago I moved in with my fiancé and his mom. I'm terribly homesick, my grandma is in her last days and I can't find a way to go see her, my fiancé is going through his life without helping me adjust. Today we got into a big fight which ended in him crying and me comforting him. Now he sleeps while I keep myself up so I don't have nightmares, which is a nightly thing. And his mama doesn't like my cooking.
talk to him about your struggles, be open. try not to bottle your feelings up, i promise you are not intruding on his life or his endeavours. you are important. you need comfort and a hand to hold now more than ever.
i try not to look for a purpose in living because i know if i lose it i will be gone but i cannot help it when he tells me i keep him alive though i am the real dependent one also i am regretful i was never able to tell him i loved him. i hope this message fades away quickly
it will be reclaimed swiftly. dont worry. be careful with where your dependancy lies. it sounds.... worrying that he might be using you. perhaps im just reading wrong. be careful and safe, you are precious.
Alright so, long story short, my best friend said he really likes me & I told him we're not compatible enough & I don't see the potential for us being serious. However, I've also done some experimenting with him & just recently came out as a bi male. Just recently, he started talking to his ex boyfriend. He's not mine to claim & even still I don't think we'd be good for each other as a couple. But I'm so fucking jealous. I've never felt this jealous before & I don't know how to handle it
i understand how you feel. please be wary, and do not let your jealousy cloud your higher instinct. if you dont feel it would be in either of your best interests to be involved more seriously with one another, perhaps take this time to contemplate your relationship with your best friend, what it means to you, what you want from it and what you have to give in return.
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