10 years ago….just reminiscing to where I was..and how far God has brought me. 10 years ago I was a 17 year old girl who wanted to get away from life, get away from all the problems I was having growing up in school, and at home. From an abusive household with nothing but negativity and abuse..all types of abuse, sexual, physical, emotional and mental..and that was just at home…from being also bullied in school all throughout my childhood, never having any real friends, I wanted to get away from a dysfunctional family, people and a heartbreak. Before I joined the army I was already working at places like KFC, El Pollo Loco, Church’s chicken, the mall, living on my own where ever I could find peace, away from my family…just to be able to graduate high school. That was my ultimate goal..just to be able to prove my mom wrong to be able to do something with my life and break out of that cycle I was in. I had a “boyfriend” who I loved and who I hurt because I was a hurt person..sounds like nothing but when you’re 16/17 a heartbreak like that after dealing with so much pain already could lead you to self destruction, which I came close to many times. Also the pain of seeing my dad, who I had just met a few years prior..chose meth over me. Since I could remember, during my childhood up until a few years ago.. all I could think about was death..not many people know this about me because who everyone sees now, it would be hard to believe I ever attempted to commit suicide or had any thoughts of it. Regardless through all of that…on June 23,2005 an opportunity for me to get away from everything presented itself, the U.S Army…right away I volunteered to go to Korea….FAR AWAY…and so the journey began…the army has had its ups and downs..and the hardships didn’t end there..in fact I went through a lot more that I will chose not to talk about at this time..these past 10 years since I have been in, but by the grace of God here I am, thankful that he has protected me and guarded me all these years…and now that my time with the Army has to come to an end..I thought I would be happy..which I know I will be..but at the moment it just hit me that something I have lived and known for the past 10 years, when everything and everyone has came and went, the army was still there..I will miss being a soldier very much…it was such a huge part of who I was…but I know God has bigger and better things for me and I have all my faith in him…it’s time for a new chapter in my life, time for me to go out on my own, without the Army behind me and find my passions and live life. Thankful for all the people I call family that I have met while I served..as well as all the lessons I learned, not just in the Army..but outside of it as well…time for a change…but no matter what..in my heart..I will always be a soldier ❤️ 6/23/2005-6/23/2015 thank you God for bringing me this far and molding me into me the woman I am today…
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