But what am I supposed to do?
Chapter 19: the lost cause
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Who knew that one word, one choice could change your world? The repercussions of your recklessness had finally caught up with you both. The question was; what would Minho choose?
You stand there helplessly as Minho begins to pace the room; finding his words. Youāre not sure how much time has passed before you gather the courage to ask;
Your voice is small and weak; you feel like you can barely breathe. Minho lets out a deep sigh before finally settling on the edge of the sofa. You kneel on the floor at his feet, a trembling hand resting on his knee.
[MH] Th-theyāllā¦ force me into a hiatusā¦ make up some fucking excuseā¦
He blurts out, every word seemingly more painful that the one before. You kneel there confused; force?
[MH] I-I wonāt be able to release m-musicā¦ or promote with the groupā¦ or-orā¦ take part in concertsā¦ nothingā¦Ā
You take his hand in yours, giving it a comforting squeeze. You canāt bear this, watching a grown man crumble in front of you. Tears roll down your face; a silent reminder that this is real.
[MH] I wouldnāt even be able to move companyā¦ they have me bound by contracts Y/Nā¦ oh Y/Nā¦ what do I do?
You sit there for a moment, silently taking in what he had said. Minho was bound by contracts for at least another 5 years. You peer up at him, offering him a small smile.
[Y/N] So whatās the other choiceā¦?
You ask, taking a deep breath. Minhoās eyes scrunch in torment; he bites his lip whilst shaking his head. All you wanted to do was take him in your arms, stroke his hair and tell him everything was going to be okay.
His voice cracks as a deep sob fills his chest; you canāt take it any longer. You jump up from your position and wrap your arms around his broad shoulders. His whole body shakes as you hold him; affection and tender words pouring out of you.
[Y/N] Itāll be fine, my love, please donāt cryā¦
You murmur, face buried in his neck already wet from tears. You run your hand through the back of his raven hair and leave a trail of attentive kisses along his collarbone.
[MH] Y/Nā¦ I canāt see you anymoreā¦
You freeze upon hearing the words you already knew were coming. A sharp pain in your heart causing you to gasp. It was really happening. Minho pulls back to look at you, taking your face in those strong, familiar hands.
[MH] Thatās the ultimatum. If I donāt break up with youā¦ Iāll be put on an indefinite hiatusā¦ theyāll end my careerā¦ my dreamā¦
Those words are like a punch in the stomach, nausea washes over you. It was just like 2 years ago.
and youāre going? ā¦what about me? us? am I just not a part of your ānew dreamā.
please donāt goā¦ I donāt want you to goā¦
His pained words echo in your head, but this time, he was the one leaving. Your head pulses and your vision is almost foggy. You lean back on the sofa, feeling lifeless. You canāt let him lose everything for you; heād worked so hard to get where he was. You canāt be the one that ruins it.
[Y/N] Itāsā¦ over then.
You whisper, barely audible. Minho looks at you with disbelief.
[MH] Whatā¦ noā¦ Y/Nā¦ Iāll figure something outā¦ I canāt justā¦
You place a weary hand on his face, the face you loved so much. You have to be strong. You have to let him go.
[Y/N] Minho. I canāt be responsible for your dream being ruined. I couldnāt live with myself if you gave that upā¦ for meā¦ I love you too much to let you do that.
You silence him with a weary smile; your face damp from the tears. A deep sob escapes his throat.Ā
[MH] But what am I supposed to do?
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