i wanna be your bad boy.

Why'd you only call me when you're high?

[astrayryan]

Who’re you callin’ a loser? That isn’t very nice.

[stephenpopcurtis]

It's only because I love you.

Speaking of which, you better cancel all your plans because tonight I'm doing something special for you.

[turntothediaryofjane]

Aww… After the Hannah Montanna thing, I thought you could trust me.

[stephenpopcurtis]

Oh I definitely can trust you, you're like my best friend. But, I don't want you thinkin' I'm weird. 

[turntothediaryofjane]

Oooh… Who is it?

[stephenpopcurtis]

It's a secret.

[astrayryan]

Oh really? And, who would that be?

[stephenpopcurtis]

Just an adorable lil' loser.

[trcphywife]

[stephenpopcurtis]

I think this is my first Valentine's with someone I actually care about.

[astrayryan]

(Paxton slightly flinched away from Soda, but allowed the other to touch him. He missed his touch more than air.) I don’t want to hit you, Soda. I’m tired of hittin’ people. I don’t want to hurt anyone anymore, especially you. I’m barely the better half, Soda. But, I get what you’re saying. I just… I love you too much and it hurts me. It’s like I’m an addict and all I want is more, but I can’t have it. It isn’t fair since we’re always together. I just want to love you like you want me to with no one else to see.

[stephenpopcurtis]

{Stephen sits there in silence for a moment before he clears his throat} I know I really don't deserve it, but what if we tried again? We can keep it on the down low as best as possible. I just really can imagine going on like this... without you. Please Pony. I promise that I won't ever hurt you again. I just... I want to make you feel happy and give you everything you need. Isn't that what brothers are supposed to do? {He delicately presses his lips against Pony's for a moment}

[hellboundxwarrior-blog]

Send me anons as my kid.

[stephenpopcurtis]

BONUS POINTS IF YOU NAME THE OTHER PARENT.

[astrayryan]

(Paxton was shocked by, first, the use of his full name and, second, the loud, stinging contact of Soda’s palm to Paxton’s cheek. He stood in stunned silence as he listened to his brother’s speech, hot tears flowing freely.) I-I, I’m sorry, Soda. I don’t want to be like Dallas Winston. I-I don’t wanna hurt you no more. (He sank to the ground, clutching to his burning cheek.) I’ve been so horrible to both of you. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. You and Darry have been so g-good to me and you guys support me and sacrifice so much. I just don’t know. I didn’t want you to leave me so badly, I just lost control. I really am a selfish Soc without the money. I don’t deserve your love, Soda.

[stephenpopcurtis]

{a pang of guilt hit Soda as he stared down at Pony, slowly kneeling down beside him and reaching out to gently caress the boy's cheek} I-I'm sorry Pony, I didn't mean to hurt you. Please don't cry. You can hit me back if that will make you feel any better? ... I just don't know what to do anymore. With you I'm putting you and I in trouble. If Darry ever found out he'd have a cow and if anyone happened to rat out on me, I'd be sent away for fifteen years. I can barely go one day without seeing you, let alone fifteen. But, without you I feel like my other... my better half is missing. 

[turntothediaryofjane]

Just a few tickets to a Bastille concert, maybe. Since you have the connections and all, that won’t be too hard for you.

[stephenpopcurtis]

Considering the fact that I'm already going to that concert, I'm sure it won't be that hard. Are you wishing to take anyone along or would you like to come with me?

[astrayryan]

(He looked him dead in the eyes, his own watering from anger but the tears did not fall.) I don’t know what will make anything better because you don’t talk to me. You left! I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t talk to anyone besides you and you were gone! So, I decided to stand up to those Socs and to teach ‘em not to mess with me. I don’t want you or Darry worrying about me anymore — I’m too much trouble obviously. I can’t make you happy, I can’t make Darry happy, and I can’t make myself happy. So, I might as well fucking stop trying, huh?

[stephenpopcurtis]

Goddammit Paxton Michael Curtis. {anger boils up within Soda, pulling away for a moment before he turns back to his brother and slaps him directly across the face; he remains silent for a few more moments before tears roll down his cheeks} You're actin' like a spoiled selfish brat. You don't want Darry and I to care about you no more? Well that's not an option. We're all we've got left now, Paxton. If we don't have each other then we ain't got nothing and when you ain't got nothing you end up like Dally. I love you with all my heart and maybe someday you'll understand why I ended things between us, but until then I will tell you it was because I care about you and I don't want you to be stuck here your whole life. I put you before anyone else in life and you're too fucking self centered at the moment to realize that. The reason it hurts me so bad seeing you is not because you disgust me, it's because every time I'm around you I want to kiss you and hold you. But you know what? You're not my little brother. You're acting as fucking ignorant as those socs. I may not be smart or nothing but I know how to treat someone I love. 

[turntothediaryofjane]

No, actually. I was planning on blackmailing you.

[stephenpopcurtis]

Clever girl. What would you ask for in return for keeping my secret?

[astrayryan]

Well, I’m sorry just seeing me brings you so much pain. Maybe if I get beat enough, you won’t recognise me and you won’t hurt anymore. You don’t need anymore reminders of how disgusting I am.

[stephenpopcurtis]

{he sets down his guitar so he can grab onto the collar of Pony's shirt and pull him closer to him in a rough manner} Do you really fucking that will make any of this better? Do you think that's what I want from you? After everything we've been through together, that's what you think would make me happy?

[turntothediaryofjane]

Well then, I’m sorry for unveiling your secret.

[stephenpopcurtis]

It's alright, I trust that you'll keep it to yourself. 

[astrayryan]

Ya, I guess I didn’t. Or, maybe I did. I learned that I shouldn’t be afraid to start my own shit and to not wait for the Socs to come after me on their own. Why the hell did you leave anyway?

[stephenpopcurtis]

Oh yeah, because starting fights always fixes things. I guess I chose not to come home because being around you and seeing you hurts me. It makes me think about what I could have had and I don't need reminders. 

[turntothediaryofjane]

You have pipes on you, Carbonated Drink.

[stephenpopcurtis]

It's actually my darkest secret, I'm actually Hannah Montana. Gas station clerk by day, rockstar by night. 

[astrayryan]

It’s not bullshit.

(He looked away, avoiding eye contact.) Got into a fight…

[stephenpopcurtis]

I leave the house for a couple of days and you manage to get into a fight? That's great... good to know you learned your lesson the last time they beat the shit out of you.