Steven Kazmierczak

[moody-co]

Grieving the time you loose because of mental illness is one of the hardest things. Sometimes it’s weeks and a few friends, then sometime it’s months and the special occasions missed and more friends drift away. When it gets into multiple years its no longer about the friends you once had, or the family you were once apart off, it’s just the time. The person you could have been, the people you could have meet, the fun you never had the photos that where never taken. Years stripped from your youth, with no great brave story to say for. People don’t want to hear about the years you “bravely” fought mental illness. Mental illness is so personal that people don’t know how to talk about or what to think of it. It’s too deep, too heavy. It’s not surface stuff.

[depressionsdaughterxx]

Signs You Had An Emotionally Abusive Parent + It Still Affects You Now

-You have unhealthy relationships. 

When children experience emotionally abusive caregiving, trust is compromised, and the ability to engage in and maintain healthy relationships is impaired

-You have low self esteem. 

Emotional abuse shatters hope, pride, and motivation. There is considerable risk of mental health challenges such as depression or poor capacity for functional emotional regulation.

-You have a pessimist view on life.

You tend to be negative about everything and you almost have nothing positive to say. Long-term exposure to negativity and personal attacks damages the foundation of hope

-You repress your feelings. 

Limiting your emotional availability could be a result of emotional abuse from an elder. Shutting down feelings is necessary for psychological survival.

-You sought out attention. 

A child who does not receive praise, acknowledgement or acceptance, grows-up longing for connections and seeking positive attention. Emotional abuse starves a child of necessary love and affection, often resulting in over-reaching for validation from others and excessive approval-seeking behaviors. 

Emotionally abusive parents are very difficult to deal with and sometimes you end up still coping with the thoughts and feelings years down the road. Here are some signs if you had a emotionally abusive parent and it still affects you . 

[messyinretrograde]

[goodanimemix-deactivated2017111]

thoughts on Dylan and Eric ?

I’ve been interested in Columbine since I was a teenager. I remember watching it on the news the day it happened, seeing all the magazines and newspapers with Dylan and Eric on the cover, my parents discussing the massacre, etc. I feel like it’s easy for people to relate to them with all the information we have, from their journals, to statements from friends, footage, etc. I think we all know what it’s like to feel like an outcast, to be pushed aside, overlooked, bullied, etc. People like to place the full blame on Dylan and Eric because it’s easier than trying to understand what would drive two teenagers to commit such acts, but when you actually DO take the time to, you come to the realization that the only reason they became perpetrators is because they too were victims. Eric and Dylan were the first victims of Columbine. People can say ‘Oh well I was bullied too and I didn’t shoot up my school.’ Well, I was bullied in HS myself and I know what it’s like to have those thoughts, to be that mad, to want to make people pay for the things they put you through. Between Eric’s’ deep seeded anger and constant rage, and Dylan’s longing for love/acceptance and suicidal ideology, they were a perfect storm. When they came together, it was the beginning of the end. You can only push people so far before they’re going to break, and unfortunately, Dylan and Eric seem to have both broken on the inside long before 4/20. 

[pipe-bombs-and-senior-proms-dea]

👏👏👏 Very well said @asaproofie

[carelesslyn-deactivated20180214]

The most accurate post about Eric and Dylan that I have ever read ❤️

[goodanimemix-deactivated2017111]

Thank you bby 💕💕💕

[sergeantmiller]

Here's pictures of some far-right White Supremacist mass killers.

Brenton Harrison Tarrant

Killed 51 Muslim worshippers at 2 different mosques.

John T. Earnest

Killed 1 woman & Injured Several others at the Chabad of Poway Synagogue.

Patrick Wood Crusius

Killed 22 People at a Walmart in El Paso, TX.

Stephen Baillet

Attempted to shoot up a Synagogue in Halle, Germany. He would kill 2 others in 2 different locations.

Claude Sinké

Injured 2 Muslim Worshippers in a Mosque in Bayonne,France.

Franz Fuchs

Murdered 4 Romani & injured 15 others in a series of bombings from 1993-1995 in Austria.

Eric Rudolph

Responsible for the Bombing of the Centennial Olypic Park in Atlanta, GA.The bombing itself killed one person, another victim had a heart attack & had died.He was also responsible for a bombing of an Abortion Clinic & a Lesbian Bar that injured 5.In Birmingham,AL, he was also Responsible for a bombing of a Abortion Clinic that killed a Police Officer.

Tobias R.

Kills 9 people at 2 different Hookah Bars in Haunu, Germany. He would later kill his mother then himself at his home.

James Harris Jackson

Killed one black man named Timothy Caughman in NYC.

James Alex Fields Jr.

Killed one, injured 19 after he drove his car into a crowd of protesters at the Unite The Right rally in Charolettesville, VA.

Richard Baumhammers

Shot & killed 5 people at different locations throughout the Pittsburgh Area.

Jeremy Christian

Killed 2 men who tried to stop Christian from verbally harassing 2 Muslim girls on a MAX Lightrail train in Portland, OR.

Philip Manshaus

After Killing his Chinese Step-Sister, he attempted to shoot up a Mosque. He failed after Mohammad Rafiq pinned Manshaus down & struggled to keep him down.

Dylann Roof

Killed 9 at a AME Church in Charleston, SC.Roof attempted to kill himself, but failed. Roof was captured the Next day in Shelby, NC.

Timothy James McVeigh & Terry Nichols

Committing the worst Domestic terror attack on U.S. Soil on April, 19 1995.

They filled a rented Ryder Truck with explosives & bombed the Alfred P. Murrah Building in OKC, OK. Killing 168 People.

Samuel Woodward

Killed Blaze Bernstein , a gay Jewish man, by stabbing him multiple times.

Anders Behring Breivik

Killed 77 total in a terrorist attack in Oslo & Utoya Island.A Van bomb killed 8 in Oslo, as he shot & killed 69 in Utoya.

Wade Michael Page

Killed 6 in a sikh temple in Wisconsin.

Richard Poplawski

Killed 3 cops in Pittsburgh, PA.

Luca Traini

Wounded 6 Nigerian immigrants in Italy.

Robert Gregory Bowers

Killed 11 Worshippers at the Tree Of Life Synagogue in Pittsburgh, PA.

Scott Paul Beierle

Killed 2 women at a Yoga Studio In Tallahassee, FL.

Alexandre Bissonnette

Killed 6 at a Mosque in Quebec, Canada.

NOTE: I know, some either killed 1 or injured a few, but I included them in because they have influenced a few other people that are in the college.

(source: reddit)

[unearthingthedead]

Footage of James Holmes at local gun shops in Colorado. One is Bass Pro Shop in Denver, Colorado, where he purchased an AR-15 and a Remmington 12-gauge, 870 shotgun (bottom gif)

[skeletonunknown]

The fake ID Anders Behring Breivik used on July 22.

(my picture)

[stevenkazmierczak]

“What we witness in such extreme cases is the once carefully camouflaged face of frustration, fury, indignation and self-assertion, gone mad. Mental illness is not the primary cause, but rather, at least partly, the psychological consequence. We see the desperate struggle and utter failure of these defeated individuals to constructively claim and defend their fundamental right to be themselves, to creatively find and fulfill their destiny, and our own failure as a society-- and as mental health professionals--to help them productively do so. Instead, they settle for facile infamy.”

A Wicked Rage for Recognition: The rage behind the Columbine, Virginia Tech, and NIU shootings. (Stephen A. Diamond Ph.D.)

April 22, 2008

https://archive.vn/2qcYa

[robertsteinhauser]

Tobias Rathjen’s Website

[stevenkazmierczak]

https://vimeo.com/392827553

https://videos.files.wordpress.com/01kRLoxj/2020-02-20-09.48.42_hd.mp4

[emergencyshotgun]

real talk though if people spent less time being offended that kids relate to school shooters and more time trying to understand what drives a kid to relate to such people we might stop having school shootings

[kirillov]

I still cannot get over the fact that the names of the lawyers of neo-Nazi terrorist Beate Zschäpe are Heer, Stahl and Sturm (translated: army, steel and storm). Those names are so ridiculously Nazi-esque, no way this is an accident.

[stevenkazmierczak]

Blue Oyster Cult - (Don’t Fear) The Reaper 1976 [Studio Version]

[princeypoison]

A Compiled List of Various Cults, Religious Movements, Secret Societies, Dangerous People, and School Shootings

I originally made this list for myself to do some reading [despite already knowing about 95% of the things on this list already] but then I decided to share this with anyone who has a similar fascination with this kind of stuff as I do. 

It’s not anything super special but it’s a put-together list for easy access and speed-reading. Enjoy.

CULTS/RELIGIONS

THE CREATIVITY MOVEMENT https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Creativity_(religion)

JEDIISM https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jediism

THE CHURCH OF ALL WORLDS http://www.caw.org

THE CHURCH OF EUTHANASIA https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Church_of_Euthanasia

THE UNIVERSE PEOPLE https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Universe_People

THEE TEMPLE OV PSYCHICK YOUTH http://www.ain23.com/topy.net/

THE PRINCE PHILLIP MOVEMENT https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prince_Philip_Movement

THE AETHERIUS SOCIETY https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aetherius_Society

RAELISM https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Raëlism#Member_hierarchy

THE CHURCH OF SCIENTOLOGY https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Church_of_Scientology

INTERNATIONAL SOCIETY FOR KRISHNA CONCIOUSNESS/ HARE KRISHNA https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/International_Society_for_Krishna_Consciousness

THE UNIFICATION CHURCH https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unification_Church

THE KU KLUX KLAN https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ku_Klux_Klan

THE MANSON FAMILY https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Manson#Rise_of_the_Family

HEAVEN’S GATE https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heaven%27s_Gate_(religious_group)

ORDER OF THE SOLAR TEMPLE https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Order_of_the_Solar_Temple

BRANCH DAVIDIANS https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Branch_Davidians

THE PEOPLE’S TEMPLE https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peoples_Temple

HO NO HANA https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ho_No_Hana

AUM SHINRIYKO https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aum_Shinrikyo

CHEN TAO https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chen_Tao_(True_Way_Cult)

MOVEMENT FOR THE RESTORATION OF THE TEN COMMANDMENTS OF GOD https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Movement_for_the_Restoration_of_the_Ten_Commandments_of_God

THE BOHEMIAN GROVE https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bohemian_Grove

CHILDREN OF THUNDER http://murderpedia.org/male.H/h/helzer-brothers.htm

THE VAMPIRE CLAN https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rod_Ferrell

THE FALL RIVERS CULT http://bloody-mess.net/?p=1391

THE CARNY CULT https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carny

THE SANTA MUERTE CULT http://www.vice.com/read/the-cult-of-santa-muerte-the-illegal-mexican-lady-saint-of-death

SUPERIOR UNIVERSAL ALLIGNMENT http://www.apologeticsindex.org/s52.html

BLACK JESUS https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Steven_Tari

RUSSIAN TEEN SATANIC CULT http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/europe/russia/7910893/Russian-Satanists-jailed-for-ritual-sacrifice-teen-killings.html

JEFFREY LUNDGREN’S FARM https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeffrey_Lundgren

THE RIPPER CREW https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ripper_Crew

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SECRET SOCIETIES

THE BILDERBERG GROUP https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bilderberg_Group

ORDO TEMPLI ORIENTIS https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ordo_Templi_Orientis

SKULL AND BONES https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skull_and_Bones

THE ILLUMINATI https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Illuminati

THE CADAVER SOCIETY https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cadaver_Society

THE FREEMASONS https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Freemasonry

THE KNIGHTS TEMPLAR https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Knights_Templar

THE ORDER OF THE NINE ANGLES https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Order_of_Nine_Angles

ROSECRUCIANS https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosicrucianism

THE HERMETIC ORDER OF THE GOLDEN DAWN https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hermetic_Order_of_the_Golden_Dawn

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DANGEROUS PEOPLE

ROBERT CHARLES BROWNE https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Charles_Browne

ALEXANDER PISHUSHKIN https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alexander_Pichushkin

DONALD HARVEY https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Donald_Harvey

DELFINA AND MARIA DE JESUS GONZALEZ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delfina_and_Mar%C3%ADa_de_Jesús_González

PEDRO RODRIGUES FIHLO https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pedro_Rodrigues_Filho

PEDRO LOPEZ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pedro_López_(serial_killer)

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[COMPILED LIST OF SCHOOL SHOOTINGS: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_school_shootings_in_the_United_States#1990s]

[adjustablerevolution]

Patch came yesterday :)

[vanitydoom]

Loukaitis and Kemper

Loukaitis: Favourite killer quote?

Kemper: Favourite mugshot?

Sorry it took so long, I forgot about it

[spookysouthwest]

These houses might look abandoned, but they aren’t. They’re occupied by the few remaining polygamist families in the community of Short Creek–the twin towns of Colorado City, Arizona and Hildale Utah–where Warren Jeffs, spiritual leader of the polygamist Fundamentalist Latter Day Saint church, was captured by the FBI in 2007. He was wanted on charges of facilitating the rape of underage girls, although he was later discovered to have assaulted numerous children himself, taking brides as young as 12 years old. 

Ten years later, as he remains imprisoned, the members of his cult are still largely loyal to him, and at his orders, many fled Utah and Arizona for a secluded compound in Texas. But many families still remain in this community, living in enormous houses to accommodate their large families of multiple mothers and children. Houses remain unfinished not only to better add on to their size, but to avoid paying taxes on them. Committing tax and welfare fraud and cheating the government in any way possible was a practice encouraged by Jeffs, who convinced his followers that he was the president of the United States.

You can pass right through this community as you travel along Highway 389, but I don’t recommend stopping to look around. All property here is owned by the FLDS church, and its members control the police force. Making your presence known in either town will put you at risk of harassment and threats. Just keep on driving. 

[deadstarlet-deactivated20240408]

FLDS “prophet” Warren Jeffs in his 1973 high school yearbook. He was in the top 10 and 3 percent of his graduating class.