ย โฆ STILLHAVESPOTS โฆย ย ย is an independent & selective roleplay blog for the MI6 quartermaster ( โQโ ), inspired by the james bond films.ย -โโ written by stophe, 26, any pronouns. sporadic activity.
a collection of sentences tied to those rough patches in life and the moments where those who once stood close proved to be different than what you almost dared to hope for.
โ but it hurts, it hurts more than you can even imagine. โย
โ when youโve been through the kind of crap that i have, you sort of get it. โ
โ i thought i would learn something from all this pain, but iโve never felt more stupid. โ
โ if lifeโs teaching me a lesson then i want to skip it. โ
โ itโs a burden thatโs constantly there, constantly looming, constantly wearing me down. โ
โ it just wonโt let go. โ
โ sometimes it just feels like iโm failing the world, and the world is failing me back.โ
โ lifeโs got to be the worst tinder match in history. โ
โ i would very much like to stop feeling like this, but itโs not that easy. โ
โi watched you lose interest in someone you said youโd love till the end of time. from that moment on i realized iโd never fully trust the words of a lover's mouth again.โย
โi watched our folded hands was change, and now we would never see each other again.โ
โi gave up being pretty when society raised the bar of beauty. โ
โi slept so comfy in your embrace but then i realized that you weren't really there.โ
โto be portrayed as a burden by someone whose supposed to be your rock is the greatest weight in the world.โ
โitโs as if something is eating me up inside, and i donโt even want to stop it.โ
โand maybe i am supposed to feel sad. maybe itโs karma. maybe I do deserve it.โ
"i don't know how to feel."
"but you did leave me. you did leave me, and i waited for you."
"you don't get it do you? what it feels like to let someone inside your heart, your life and your very soul, only for them to tear it all apart as if it was nothing. you did that to me."
"i waited for you, over and over again."
"do you really think i forgot, after all this time?"
"everyone seems to have found their happy ever after and i don't even know if i'm made for that."
"everyone who touched me took a part of me with them."
"to break and to mend myself over and over again, i'm sick of it."
"don't to dare look at me like that when you brought us here in the first place โ don't you dare make me feel this way."
"i moved on, i moved away from you."
"so, that's it then? nothing else? just ... done?"
"all the ones that claimed to love me... i just pushed them away."
"who is to say that you won't leave me, too?"
"right, because that's how it goes. you crack a joke, i laugh and then i'm supposed to fall for you, just like that. a snap of a finger... and then a snap of my heart when you've had enough of me."
"everyone says that they can take it, that they will love me no matter what but the moment i peel away that exterior i've worked so hard on, everyone pulls away... and i can't even find it in me to blame them."
"nothing good will come from regretting."
"the worst part is how i started to think that you were different."
"i could have expected it from everyone else but... not you."
"hands have never been kind to me, and words nothing but sly."
01. avoids eye contact or looking at the floor.
02. wringing hands together in silence.
03. fidgeting with the hem of their shirt, unable to stay still.
04. looking at receiver in long silence before looking away.
05. silently leaves a folded note on the table in front of the other.
06. touches the others arm but pulls back out of guilt.
๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ -
01. slams fist onto a table without saying a word.
02. exhaling sharply through their nose and clenching their jaw.
03. throws an object across the room.
04. crossing their arms tightly, digging fingers into their own skin.
05. pacing the room with heavy steps.
06. glares at the other with a clenched fist.
๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ -
01. gently pushing stray hair behind the others ear.
02. resting their forehead against the others.
03. cups the others face with both hands.
04. pressing a kiss to the others forehead in silence.
05. lingering touches against the others face.
06. wraps their arms around the other from behind and rests their head on the others shoulder.
๐ฌ๐๐๐ง๐๐ฌ๐ฌ -
01. wiping their eyes before someone can notice.
02. pressing their face into a pillow to muffle sobs.
03. pulls the other into a desperate hug and wont let go.
04. silently reaching for the others hand, needing comfort.
05. walks into the room with red-rimmed eyes and no words.
๐ก๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ข๐ง๐๐ฌ๐ฌ -
01. spins the other around without warning in a hug.
02. links arms with the other and tugs them along happily.
03. provides the other with a handmade gift.
04. tackles the other in a sudden and joyful hug.
05. kisses the others cheek unexpectedly and grins.
๐๐๐๐ซ -
01. backing away slowly and looking for exits.
02. hiding behind the other and peeking around.
03. flinches at sudden movement from the other.
04. presses their back against the wall with eyes darting around the room.
05. jumps at a noise and instinctively grabs the others hand.
๐๐๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐
01. tucks a blanket gently around the other person's shoulders.
02. applies a bandage with slow and deliberate care.
03. brings them food and water and watches to ensure they eat.
04. runs fingers through their hair in efforts to soothe.
05. rubs soothing circles on the others back while they cry.
06. stays silently by the others side in support without saying a word.
๐ก๐๐ซ๐ฆ๐ข๐ง๐
01. raises a hand but hesitates.
02. grips the others arm a bit too tightly.
03. pushes the other away with more force than necessary.
04. turns their back on the other to begin walking away without a word.
05. rips a shared photo in half without a word.
06. steps in closely with cold and narrowed eyes.
A ย MOMENTย INย TIME ย THAT ย THEYย ย ย ย ย ย . ย ย . ย ย .
[ ย * ย ] ย ย ย writing prompt ย ย ย ) ย ย ย ย : ย ย ย ย ย send a number ย 1 - 30ย to take a closer look inside this characters life. ย ย ย ย / ย ย ย ย below you will find a series of various prompts offering a look inside a characters past and the important moments of it.ย ย ย ย these are meant to invoke character development ย ย & ย ย can also be altered as seen fit to better suit the character in question. ย ย ย ย ย ย ย bonus if you write a drabble of that specific moment.
01. ย ย wish they could live again.
02. ย ย wish they could do one thing differently in.
03.ย ย ย wish they could do everything differently in.ย
04. ย ย wish they could erase from time all together.
05. ย ย wish they could take a loved one back to see them in.ย
06.ย ย ย wish they knew then what they know now.
07. ย ย wish they had taken more time to savor while they were in it.
08. ย ย wish they could forget for the rest of their life.
09.ย ย ย wish other people thought more about.
10.ย ย ย believe negatively shaped them into the person they are today.
11. ย ย believe positively shaped them into the person they are today.
12.ย ย ย think about every night before falling asleep.
13.ย ย ย think about whenever theyโre having a bad day and need comfort.
14.ย ย ย think about when they need to find the strength to carry on.
15. ย ย think about when they want to laugh.
16. ย ย think about when they want to smile.
17. ย ย think about when they want to cry.
18. ย ย think about when they want to be angry.
19. ย ย tell others about when giving advice.
20. ย ย tell others about when giving a warning.
21. ย ย tell others about when theyโre trying to make them laugh.
22.ย ย ย plan to never tell others about for long as they can keep it a secret.
23. ย ย really want to tell others about but for some reason havenโt.
24.ย ย ย did not think was important at the time and later regretted it.
25.ย ย ย thought was too important at the time and later regretted it.
26. ย ย felt utterly alone even though they were surrounded by people.
27. ย ย felt afraid even though they had no reason to be.
28. ย ย felt at total peace with themselves and everything around them.ย
29. ย ย felt a rage so strong that it scared them.
30. ย ย felt a sense of complete happiness that they had never felt before.
โ your t-shirtโs inside out. โ
โ you already know iโm bad at lying. โ
โ i need you to take a breath. โ
โ i never liked you, but still, itโs like weโre friends. almost. โ
โ weโre gonna be brave, and weโre gonna get out of this. โ
โ canโt tell you how exciting it was listening to that fucking conversation. โ
โ there you are. i was getting worried. โ
โ a bad reputation doesnโt mean youโre bad. โ
โ how about we just talk this through? โ
โ this isnโt gonna end well. โ
โ we can help each other. and get that gun out of my face. โ
โ i think iโm gonna love you for a long, long time. โ
โ thereโs stuff up there you shouldnโt see. โ
โ you ask a lot of goddamn questions. โ
โ you know, i used to be scared of these people. โ
โ i meanโฆour luck had to run out sooner or later. โ
โ like to think, for once, we could finally win? โ
โ i mean, itโs the long way or the โweโre fucking deadโ way. โ
โ you mumble in your sleep. โ
โ no. no questions. just do it. โ
โ nobodyโs gonna be coming after you, right? โ
โ you stay close and you follow my lead. โ
โ itโs a miracle youโre alive. โ
โ it doesnโt matter. you have to trust me. โ
โ you know, people like to tell stories. โ
โ you have a greater purpose than any of us couldโve ever imagined. โ
โ how about we start withย โthank youโ? โ
โ iโd like to go home and drink โtil my face stops hurting. โ
โ i want you to forget this ever happened. โ
โ you canโt be stupid like this. โ
โ if we come up against anything, you get behind me and you stay there, okay? โ
โ iโm trying to keep you alive. โ
โ did it make you feel better? did it make you feel safe? โ
โ thatโs not my fucking home. โ
โ i donโt want your sorries. โ
โ donโt blame me for something that isnโt my fault. โ
โ oh, finally, some fucking luck. โ
โ no more questions about me. โ
โ you want your jacket back? โ
โ fuck you, man. i didnโt ask for this. โ
โ besides, itโs the thought that counts. โ
โ wasnโt my fault this time. โ
โ iโm sorry, but this has gone on too long. โ
โ iโve hadโฆmore good days with you than with anyone else. โ
โ i need you to take a breath. โ
โ can we start a fire? iโm freezing. โ
โ the darkness is falling, the sky has turned gray. โ
โ matter of fact, we can just keep our histories to ourselves. โ
โ you stay here. you hear anything, yell. โ
โ what do you want me to say? โ
โ are you okay? youโre not hurt? nothing? โ
โ thereโs no way anyone knows weโre here, right? โ
โ you do what i say when i say it. we clear? โ
โ where would you be without me, huh? โ
โ iโve been on both sides. โ
โ letโs just handle what we have to handle. โ
โ is it everything you hoped for? โ
โ it doesnโt matter how much you push the envelope, it will always be stationary. โ
โ you hungry? you can share some of mine. โ
โ have i committed a crime? โ
โ those things i didโฆthose things that you judge me for, i did those things to keep us alive. โ
โ i swear, iโve told you everything i know. โ
โ i donโt wanna talk about it. โ
โ just because life stopped for youโฆdoesnโt mean it has to stop for me. โ
โ iโm alone and forsaken by fate and by man. โ
โ here. this make you all nostalgic? โ
โ thanks for still giving a shit about me. โ
โ i am the bad guy because i did a bad guy thing. โ
โ you keep your eyes on me. and donโt look anywhere else. โ
โ i know this hurts. youโre gonna be okay. โ
โ you think iโve never done shit like that? โ
โ maybe we just call this one a success and say our fond farewells. โ
โ it isnโt fair, your ageโฆhaving to deal with all of this. โ
โ i was never afraid before you showed up. โ
โ do i not look scared? โ
โ just a reminder that if youโre dead, iโm fucked. โ
โ what else am i supposed to say? โ
โ we did what we needed to survive. โ
โ is that what i am? am i one of the โwrong peopleโ? โ
โ i shouldnโt have said what i said. i donโt know your situation. โ
โ i donโt wanna hurt you. i wanna help you. โ
โ when do we tell the others? โ
โ well, this is what happens when you fuck with fate. โ
โ i saw what you didโฆthe way you killed those men. โ
โ but first, you have to do something for me. โ
โ be careful who you put your faith in. the only people who can betray usโฆare the ones we trust.ย โ
โ you see my face? do i look scared? โ
โ stay awake with me. โ
โ itโs dangerous, but itโs nothing you canโt handle. โ
โ thereโs a whole lot youโre not telling me. โ
โ how about you shut the fuck up? โ
โ i would very much like for you to hurt them. โ
โ what iโm about to tell you cannot be repeated to anyone. โ
โ theyโre gonna catch us if we donโt run. โ
โ everybody i have cared for has either died or left me. everybody, fีฝcking except for you. โ
โ lately, there are these moments where the fear comes up outta nowhere.ย โ
โ iโm not looking for any trouble. โ
โ i think maybe we got a little off on the wrong foot. โ
โ i came here to save you. โ
โ theyโre not following us. i think weโre safe. โ
โ you think i can still handle things, butโฆiโm not who i was. โ
โ oh, maybe i shouldnโt have said anything. โ
โ seriously, though, how the fuck do you do that? โ
โ well, iโฆi donโt know how to swim. โ
โ holy shit, are you dying? โ
โ i wasnโt gonna say iโm sorry. i was gonna say that iโve been thinking about what happened. โ
โ how about you just take the good news? โ
โ god help any motherfuckers who stand in our way. โ
โ you stay down, you stay low, you stay quiet. โ
โ you shouldnโt have had to. iโm sorry. โ
โ did you kill innocent people? โ
โ donโt tell me that iโd be safer with somebody else because the truth is i would just be more scared. โ
โ you have no idea what loss is. โ
โ when we were talking about hurting peopleโฆwhat did you mean it wasnโt your first time? โ
โ i canโt fucking do this without you. โ
โ looks different in the daylight, huh? โ
Q shakes his head, one hand tightly clasped around the edge of his seat, other holding a shallow bucket handed to him by a shuttle's staff member moments ago. the colour of his knuckles now matching neatly with the white of his face.
" i'll be fine once we get on the ship. " he sees the doors being closed with a loud hiss from the corner of his eyes and takes a shaky breath. " provided we make it there alive, of course. " why is he doing this again? the engine is starting. Q squeezes his eyes shut. he wants out. now. he can't do work on a spaceship anyways, who is he fooling? he can't even take an earth plane, fuck. the palm of his hand moves quickly over his cheek, wiping away a stray tear.
" do you erhm โย do you know how long it'll take, spock? until we get there, i mean. " the question is asked with the thinnest layer of composure. normally he would think of something to recite in his head to calm him down, wouldn't he? think of something, anything. calm down.
sentence starters for muses who do bravery very loudly. remember these sentences can be said to receiverโs muse or they can be said to a third party (a captor, another victim, etc!)
โLook at me! Iโm scared, too. But we have to keep going.โ
โWeโll do it together.โ
โHow do you just โฆ speak back to him/her/them?โ
โGetting yourself killed isnโt brave.โ
โI donโt need you to protect me.โ
โIf you want him/her/them, youโre going to go through me.โ
โYou think youโre being brave?โ
โWe can get out of here or die trying. The way I see it, itโs a win-win.โ
โYou and me, we could do it, you know.โ
โI need to know. If it hurts me, it hurts me, but I need to know.โ
โIโm going to keep going.โ
โI wonโt stop.โ
โWe donโt deserve this. We deserve more.โ
โI know weโre not meant to say, butโฆ my name is [Name].โ
โTake this. You need it more than I do.โ
โAre you ready?โ
โItโs one step at a time. Weโre gonna make it.โ
โLetโs do it before I change my mind.โ
โSlowly, okay?โ
โI need you to be brave with me.โ
โIโm used to it. And I really shouldnโt be.โ
โIโm willing to die for it.โ
โYou think I would betray him/her/them?โ
โStaying alive is a type of bravery.โ
โYou didnโt have to be brave. It shouldnโt have happened anyway.โย
โBeing brave wonโt get us out of here, but itโs a start.โ
โNo.โ
โYes.โ
โTake my hand. Weโll be okay.โ
โClose your eyes.โ
โTrust me.โ
โHow long have you been living like this?โ
โHow is it brave to just disappear whenever theyโre being cruel?โ
โYouโre being brave, now.โ
โBeing afraid doesnโt make you a bad person.โย