The Art and Ramblings of ToxicDL

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[sounddesignerjeans-deactivated2]

My experience with gender dysphoria is kinda like If You Give A Mouse A Cookie.

It’s not that I always have this constant drive to be female, or that it’s just a thing that randomly comes and goes. It’s more like a constant push in the direction of presenting more femininely.

So if I’m clean shaven, I’m gonna want to put together a nice outfit to go with how nice and smooth my face and legs look (and it might as well be a feminine outfit - that’s what nice looks like, yeah?). If you give me a nice outfit, I’ll want to do my nails and put on some makeup. If I’m in nail polish and makeup, I look pretty nice, and almost like a girl - if only my Adam’s apple was gone and I had some breasts, that’d really complete the look. At that point, I also start getting dysphoric about my shoulders. And if I’m going that far, I should really get facial feminization surgery, otherwise my face isn’t gonna fit with the rest of me. (I understand cute outfits and makeup aren’t every girl’s cup of tea, but this is just about my experience)

It isn’t that I always want to have breasts and rearrange my facial features. When I’m presenting 100% male, those things aren’t even on my mind, and honestly I don’t even want them. After all, if I have facial hair to worry about still, breasts aren’t gonna make me look like a girl; they’ll just make my gender presentation look kinda mixed. So gender dysphoria is kind of a sliding scale.

I say all this because I’ve never seen anyone else say anything like it, but I know I’m not the only trans person whose dysphoria gets worse when I get closer to my ideal presentation, and I wish I’d known about that when I was still trying to figure things out. I thought the reason I didn’t feel very dysphoric was because I wasn’t transgender - it turned out that I just hadn’t been allowed to present femininely enough to really feel how strong the dysphoria got as I moved along the sliding scale.

So, I hope this helps someone. Thanks for coming to my essay.

[sounddesignerjeans-deactivated2]

reblog to help a trans follower understand themselves

[stoneboar]

I’ve never been able to put this into words. Thank you!

[musterniillustrates]

having love in your heart will literally save you from the otherwise cataclysmic experience of being a human being

[musterniillustrates]

i know what i said u pessimistic bastards and i stand by it!!!!

[griffinmcelroyspisskink-remade]

i made a generator for yall to see what ur genders are

[georgieboah]

painfully accurate

[campings]

yeh

[stoneboar]

legit i just got “ ??? ass ??? “

[shadovvlurking]

i’m simple….this is my fav character dynamic

alternatively 

[ubeshibe]

Both great, but may I add another variation

[smokbeast-deactivated20221113]

but have y’all considered-

[romerebloops]

@xenon-draws-undertale

[xenondrawz]

lets not forget

[animution11]

All of these are an accurate representation of my last two brain cells

[stoneboar]

half of these are us @rattlebear

[astarlingdiscovery]

Tumblr blue through the years.

[stoneboar]

first and second still fav

[everythingfox]

unmute to Die

Juniper

[kingikana-deactivated20170826]

oh hey look a locket from when I was little!

i wonder whats inside i-

[pokemondiamondversion]

you freed him like pandora’s box

[donesparce]

There are three breeds of cat:

Chonk

Goblin

Yeah that looks like a cat

[donesparce]

Subcategories of breeds:

Floof

Naked

Normal

[argentinelakeduck]

[catchymemes]

That’s some nice calligraphy you got there…

[countgoat]

[4damien]

Anyone can help!

(Real pen the last picture)

It is important for EVERYONE to know how to help ANYONE. Not everyone can give them selves their medicine under every circumstance. Be educated, help out.

In the last year, i have gotten about five new violent allergies from foods i used to be able to eat. Next time i eat a fruit, my throat could close. I may not be able to inject myself. My boyfriend and i played with my trainer pen for like 30 minutes. He knows how to inject it. I know how. This is important.

[jessafer94]

out of boredom i decided to scan a stuffed shark. here are the results.

[strangersea]

your work is appreciated

[trainsforbrains]

op i spent entirely too long on this and im sorry

[scarlet--raven-deactivated20230]

It’s 1:30 am and I’m cackling like a deranged witch

[memewhore]

[hymnofvalefor]

[thatdiva]

far too often, yeah

[kibumkim]

[sounddesignerjeans-deactivated2]

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Thanks to @stoneboar​ for commissioning this! It’s meant as a notification alarm for taking your meds, but it’s also on your dash reminding you to take a second and think, “Did I take my meds today?” Available free on request.

Lyrics:

hey motherfucker it’s time to take your meds hey motherfucker it’s time to take your meds if you don’t take your meds then you might end up dead hey motherfucker it’s time to take your meds

they might be nonessential that’s okay they might be nonessential that’s okay you should take ‘em anyway so you could have a better day either way it’s kinda time to take your meds

[hungry-hungry-hobbit]

I have this and it is 100% worth hitting Jeans up

[stoneboar]

*smashes the reblog button again*

[ugly-bread]

So hear me out

A movie about

Mae Jemison

Starring

Samira Wiley

[norseminuteman]

Can’t be tight if it’s liquid. 

[stoneboar]

the importance of foreplay

[catchymemes]