You’ll never see this and if by chance you do.. just know this is for you. I met you when I was my lowest.. I didn’t want to be around anyone.. but you came into my life and made me smile, giggle, fall asleep at peace and make me realize love is all around. I got happy when I realized you didn’t live far from me.. but I was sad as well.. because I ended up falling in love with you. No not sexual but in love with your personality, how verbal you are, caring but strict.. you being yourself is what made me like you.. you came around more often and we ended up chilling with each other a lot. And I guess by the time I noticed it .. it was too late .. I was already falling in love with you. I stopped hanging out with you because I never thought anyone could deal with me.. but my boyfriend or ex boyfriend at the time. So in thought you didn’t really want me.. for the emotional or mental part of our beautiful friendship.. I distanced myself.. because I didn’t want to hurt you.. I didn’t want to cause you pain. Come to find out.. you fell in love with me when I fell in love with you but we never said anything… I wanted to tell you but I didn’t want you to tell me “you’re lying, you just saying it” or something along those lines. I don’t take time out my day to see you because every time I look at you.. I get lost in your eyes.. your face. Your aura for sure.. it’s just captivating. Your words are strong and true. You’re a genuine human being that just wants love.. you want love. & I want you to know that I do love you.. I want to be with you.. but you know my situation right now.. but if this can’t be fixed and you choose that you’ve had enough of my bullshit.. please just don’t forget about me.. I’ll let you go and live ya life, find the one for you.. but I’ll always be in the shadows.. watching over you.. making sure you are being filled with love and affection, tenderness and care. I will lay a life down for you baby.. bc baby… you earned my heart before I gave it to you. You earned my respect and with that comes love. 🥺😭 you really make me feel like I’m on a cloud some days.. but you’ll always be the one that seems to pull me out of the dark before anyone else.. 🥺😩 I wish I could’ve told you that I wanted to be with you when I had the chance.. bc now.. we’re just two people .. that know one another.. that has love for each other and a bridge that I can’t seem to meet you in the middle.. and fear plays a major part in this..
