A Wildflower

18+ TWs active 9/21 she/her 25

[stonedwildflowers]

I was majorly depressed this weekend. I think for both days I sat at -600 total. Yesterday I made up for this with -1000 calories though. Today I'm going work out in a gym for the first time in a while so I'm shooting for -800. Today marks 7 full days doing my new routine so I will tally up the total negative calories and hopefully it'll be equal to about -500 per day.

[stonedwildflowers]

Yesterday was tough. I finished with -600 calories and didn't hit my steps goal. I will work to make today a little better. At least I'm not binge eating!

[stonedwildflowers]

Yesterday was day 3, I finished with about -600 calories and I hit my steps goal. Today I want to be around -800 with 13,000 steps.

[stonedwildflowers]

Day 2 Done!

I finished with about -900 calories. I didn't quite get to my walking goal, but I'm still pretty happy with where I landed.

Today I'm hoping to keep it up for -800 and 12,000 steps.

I know you can do it too.

[stonedwildflowers]

Dsy one is done. I finished out with -800 calories. Losertown is telling me that if I stick with this I'll lose 16 pounds by the end of the year.

Today I've had a latte (150 calories) and it's already 10 am.

I know I can do it.

[stonedwildflowers]

It's lunch time Day 1. I have no idea when the proposal is coming so I'm hitting it hard from the start. I had 1 peice of toast (70 calories) since I knew I was going to be doing a lot today. I drank 1 latte (100 calories). I'll probably have another latte for lunch. Which brings me to 270 total. I've burned 1,090 so far which brings me to -820.

I'm thinking he might do it on Christmas, so that means I have to maintain 1000 calories in a day until then to be at a good weight.

Tonight I'll eat a small dinner of 300 calories and I'll try to get 12,000 steps in!

[gloryshrdy]

𝘨𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘺𝘴𝘩𝘳𝘥𝘺☆

[stonedwildflowers]

I'm the lady in the background.

[stonedwildflowers]

SO I just found out my lovely boyfriend plans on asking me to marry him. Who wants to join me on a crash fasting from Hell until he pops the question?

[stonedwildflowers]

If you have an ed then you too can do fun things like...

Accidentally poop your pants a little because you took too many laxatives and couldn't feel it coming.

Wake up in a panic because you "feel like" tomorrow is going to be a binge day.

Cry over your older pictures when you thought you were fat but hated yourself and then you suddenly gained 10 pounds and you now understand you had a beautiful body but even when you lose those 10 pounds again you'll hate yourself still because there is no rest.

[stonedwildflowers]

Progress is slow, but it is something and that is what matters.

[stonedwildflowers]

Getting up every damn day?? Trying to be pretty every damn day????? Trying to exist everryyy damn day??

👁👄👁 no.

[stonedwildflowers]

Tell me you have to make sure your fitness tracker is as tight as possible without telling me.

[stonedwildflowers]

Maybe I'm finally mentally stable, maybe I've already taken a laxative. The world may never know.

[stonedwildflowers]

Yesterday I started my new workout schedule. I did arms and probably ate 1300 calories (I had to get a pumpkin spice latte T.T) I did 14000 steps and I felt pretty good. I also did 20 minutes of weighted hula hooping where I flex for as long as possible and with as short/few stops as possible. Luckily I did it so much 6 months ago I don't have too much of an issue with stamina, but it'll continue to get easier.

Today is a new day!

I also found out my boyfriend is going out of town from next Tuesday until Saturday so you know what that means? I'll get to fast like I used to when I lived alone.

Drink some water and go forth to fuck shit up my lovelies. 💗🌸

[stonedwildflowers]

Time to publicly bully myself again.

I'm starting a new regimen consisting of three days repeated every few days.

Day 1 - 800 calories in

Arm workouts

Forward and backwards circles -200 each

Raise the roof motion - 100

Hold them in front of me - as long as possible 3 times a day

Steps: 10k plus

Day 2 - 1000 calories in

Leg workouts

Side leg lifts - 200 each side

Squats - 100

Back leg raises - 100

Laying butterflies - 100

Steps 10k plus

Day 3 - 1000 calories in

Core workouts

Twists - 200

Side knee touches - 100 each side

Knee to elbows - 100 each side

Steps 10k plus

I'll be posting on here every day with dates so I keep myself accountable.

[stonedwildflowers]

I feel so hot or cold about posting on here.

Is it going to be 3 days of constant updates or two weeks of silence?

Who knows.

Anyways what's up, last night I saw my body in a full wall mirror and didn't hate it, but then was on top of my man and almost threw up.

[stonedwildflowers]

Biiiiiiiiitch I didn't eat breakfast or dinner and I only ate 300 calories so you can call me

skinniiiiiiii 💅