Bomp. She/Her ➜ Main: @illmeaning
I do not have any disorders these are symptoms of being an angel ◟autistic + OCD: If I misinterpret an ask or go off-topic, feel free to let me know.
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Readings:
march 16th., march 25th., april 10th: vf oscar party april 24th., may 3rd., may 8th: the parasite reading / may 9th: the dark mirror / may 9th: the post / may 18th: eros and thanatos / may 25th: csas. / may 28th: h—st. michael's six-fold
Monthly readings:
welcoming april: clarity, action, and truth coming to the surface.
welcoming may: come softly darling, i've waited, waited so long
Supplementary Readings:
what activates c’s protectiveness of h / how does h match c's magic / imbalance in their public interactions / h's friends
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Rules / Before You Ask:
I don’t do readings about location, physical health, family matters, legal outcomes, or timelines. I’m not interested in predicting exact events or pretending to be an oracle. My niche is contextual analysis, themes, dynamics, and patterns—not fortune-telling.
Do not ask me to “prove” whether a rumor, scandal, allegation, or claim is true through tarot. Cards are not evidence.
Please don’t DM me your personal crises. I want people safe and supported, but I cannot be your therapist, emergency contact, or emotional support hotline. I’m autistic and tend to respond with practical solutions rather than emotional processing, despite whatever impression my readings may give. Most of the advice I’d offer is the same kind of guidance you could get from a hotline, support service, or resource page.
If you want a genuinely serious answer, make that clear. Otherwise, there is a very real chance I’ll turn your question into a joke depending on my mood. Use the ⚰️ emoji for serious topics/questions if you really think I won’t pick up on it!
I don’t think it’s fair or normal to talk about the way she was dressed, how much money she spent, etc. Seeing people job shame her or tell her that they will give her money has been actually disgusting.
Even if this fandom might not like her for their own reasons, let’s not forget the men we like. They were working their asses off every single month for a paycheck, so that they could get enough money to live and follow their passion in film. If you don’t care about your own morals, how do you think those two would feel hearing you speak that way about a working woman? It’s not okay to shame anyone on the money they get or the work that they do, because it’s fair work.
If anyone wants to hate on her because they have their own opinions on different situations go at it, but to shame someone on the work that they do, the amount of money that they receive or what they wear is stupid, especially when each and everyone of is has a normal job too
yeah, i agree with the core of what you’re saying! it’s an awful thing to slander a person over financial situation, limitations, or restraints of any sort. i’m fully aware of that
that does not, nonetheless, make me think any differently about this situation. i’m speaking from my own feelings here—if i invite someone to a very memorable night in my life, the first award show that i am anticipated to win, i do expect your care to reflect in your appearance. i’m not asking for a thousand-dollar gown, or designer labels, or anything extravagant. there are plenty of ways to look polished and event-appropriate without spending enormous amounts of money. my criticism has never been that she didn’t spend enough money
it’s that the overall result looked underprepared for the occasion, especially next to her partner. is that entirely her fault? i don’t know, i don’t really think so—like we said, the dress code seemed vague. but do i blame hudson or his team just a little? yeah, because i wouldn’t let my partner wear something that’s literally 18,900% cheaper than mine to an event where we both know we’ll be photographed and scrutinized. that would make me feel awful. i wouldn’t be able to stomach the implication that i either didn’t notice or didn’t care about such a massive disparity between us
it’s not that she’s a working woman; it’s that her partner isn’t anymore. if i have some money, private stylists and groomers, maybe some industry connections through them, and the knowledge that i’ll be photographed all night, i would make sure my partner had access to those same resources too. it’s not because i think expensive clothes determine someone’s worth—i’d just want them to feel confident, cared for, and appropriately prepared for the occasion. i’d want us to look good together, too, because that’s a social signal that i think is very important in relationships
again, i agree that mocking her finances, job, or worth as a person is disgusting, but you’re conflating criticism of a specific situation with criticism of her value as a human being, and those are not the same thing
Also though he really didn't NEED to be wearing D&G; it wasn't a high fashion kind of event (though dress code seemed to be Whatever You Want and he certainly wasn't overdressed style-wise and looked GORGEOUS, zero shade on his look). He could have just worn a nice suit without a label, but he LIKES the dressing up and the fashion of it all. Just, a very interesting juxtaposition.
i do think he was thinking more about the photos than the event itself—or, more likely, his stylists were. maybe the event was relatively small compared to a met gala, or a vanity fair event, but people were always going to take pictures of him and circulate them everywhere afterward, so it makes sense to dress with that in mind
i just realized something. the cool, alt, artistic girl who does tattoos to “the partner,”. her outfit being hers at the CSAs is exactly this. obviously VF party was styles by anastasia, hudson's stylist, in clothes either rented or sposered due to his name, eyes on his partner. what you're saying tracks with her current choice. she's trying to be her own thing. which is fine, could've still matched him though.
if that’s the case, i do think it comes off a little mean-spirited, especially if she really is the kind of person who allegedly has the creative foresight to make pinterest boards for outfits and public appearances. maybe it was bad timing, maybe it was an attempt at self-repossession, maybe she was trying to stay in the background as much as possible. regardless, showing up to your partner’s biggest career night wrapped in something that looked capable of generating its own static electricity was a choice, and not one i’m particularly fond of regardless of who’s responsible for it
you’re right nonetheless—wild difference, and could’ve still matched better!
sorry, i just am still stuck on the gender and performance of it all. i'll leave his not walking with her and her helping him out of the car dynamics aside on its own.. but i did just remember h so naturally pulling chair out for connor in that one show. i do have lots of sympathy for him, but h's denial is also inadvertently funny.
i don't know anything about that but i can show you the first thing the algorithm decided i needed to see today
hi bomp! to kind of piggy-back off your last post, do you think we’ll see a big shift publicly when it comes to hc during season 2 filming? a lot of people are saying that the 🐎 will just gradually fade into the background and i wanted to know your thoughts on it. like do you see the pr changing in a sense?
i've always imagined a future where we'd eventually get so overdosed on hudcon content—individual or joint—that one day someone would go "hey… whatever happened to the horse?" and everyone collectively realizes they haven't thought about her in six months
i don't think there will be a dramatic shift in how they behave, aside from maybe a little more maturity. they're Professionals now, just a tad, but being professional doesn't require you to stop loving people publicly. if we haven't seen hudson tone himself down by now, i'm not sure why he suddenly would. maybe on set there are a few more boundaries? especially if everyone's aware that bloopers, behind-the-scenes footage, and offhand moments could eventually become public and cause a bigger reaction?
but i also have a gut feeling that jacob is both very protective of those two and very transparent about what he needs from them. he doesn't strike me as the type to play games or leave people guessing where the lines are under his direction. if there are expectations, i imagine they're communicated clearly and directly
i could see some of the physical clinginess decreasing? that'll actually be interesting to observe! it might tell us something about what behaviors are conscious choices and what behaviors are so ingrained that they happen automatically
and speaking of the pr thing:
on one hand, i can understand not wanting h to act in a way that's considered too "unbecoming" or difficult to manage, especially if there's a particular image being cultivated around him. if his dynamic with c makes him more relaxed, impulsive, emotionally transparent, or otherwise less controllable, i can see why some people would view that as a potential risk.
but on the other hand, there are obvious financial and marketing incentives to keep pairing them together. they generate attention. people are invested in their dynamic. they sell.
and beyond that, pr works for h, not the other way around. at the end of the day, he's the talent. why would you want to upset your own client? why create restrictions that breed bitterness, damage trust, or take a mental toll on someone whose cooperation you ultimately depend on?
if they saw each other constantly, i'd be more inclined to buy the argument. i could imagine a team saying, "hey, there are rumors, you have a girlfriend, we'd prefer you maintain a certain image for your own benefit."
but that's not really the situation, is it? they don't see each other all that often. they have different schedules, different obligations, different obligations. at that point, you're not really managing a dynamic because there isn't much of a dynamic to manage in the first place, so if anything, his team would be trying to regulate an already limited amount of contact. and for what benefit? if the concern is image, why impose restrictions on a relationship that already comes with built-in constraints of time, distance, and availability?
and if the argument is that they're preparing for the future, then i'm even more confused? season two is coming. purely as a matter of advertising, the gay show does tend to benefit when its two leads insist on acting gay outside of office hours as well
I think people mostly want to know if you think this changes things or that hes made a "decision" and we're back in the cycle, since he needs to break it eventually, karmic and all.
I agree that there's no patience with these people and there's an instinct to doom first think later, but i guess i get it
sorry, i think i do this all the time, so thank you for reeling me back in!
do i think that was a decision? no! i think that in order to make a genuine decision, you have to approach a situation with some degree of awareness and a reasonably open mind about what each possible path could bring. a decision implies understanding the options in front of you
i don't really think season one counts: he went into that thinking they were filming a low-budget series with no success and probably very little expectation; another passion project, essentially. how do you make an informed decision about a future you can't even imagine yet?
now, season two is different. you're returning to a semi-familiar environment, even if the budget hasn't changed, but the context certainly has—there's anticipation now alongside the passion; expectations, a sense that something very important is happening here
how do you and your co-star look at each other when you return to the set that accidentally upended both your lives?
i tend to imagine it as two people looking at each other and going, fuck, dude. wasn't that insane?
look at where we were. look at where we are now.
look at how much our lives have changed.
and maybe, more importantly: shit. how much have we changed?
can we still be ilya and shane? can we still find our way back to them? are we even the same connor and hudson who played them the first time around?
i guess we're about to find out!
i think that's a very different position from which to allow yourself to be vulnerable, to open up, and maybe even to reconsider the direction of your life. now there is context. now there is perspective. now there is something tangible to compare yourself against
do i think that automatically means he'll wake up one day during those months and decide, with 100% certainty, that he wants to leave his old life behind—or, conversely, cling to it forever? also no. people are usually closer to pendulums than slingshots. they move back and forth, testing the weight of different possibilities before settling anywhere
but i do think season two will be bigger. there will likely be more publicity, more events, more interviews, more travel, more expectations, more proximity. i imagine it will be more demanding and more immersive than season one ever was, and whether that ultimately draws him closer to his old life or further away from it, i have no idea! i think that's too far ahead for me to meaningfully speculate on
Do you think this is him making a choice? Going along and trying to drag it? Why the heart? Obviously we couldn't possibly know the actual answers but i need some thoughts from intelligent people
i think that's a person posting his partner the same way he's been posting his partner
people don't undergo a complete shift in behavior overnight unless you're vampire cat (㇏(•̀ᵥᵥ•́)ノ) he's still in the same city, around the same people, influenced by the same habits, routines, and assumptions he's had for years. why are some people acting like he'd wake up the next morning and go, "well, now that i've sampled both the highs and lows of canadian acting, i can finally make an informed decision about the rest of my life!"
the transformation i'm talking about isn't suddenly sprouting wings because he won a trophy. it's things like being able to be pickier about the jobs you take; working with higher-caliber creative teams who might teach you more about life and art than any book ever could; it's spending months filming in another country because a director you've admired for years wants you for a project you can't possibly turn down.
the real shift happens in the slow realization that your life no longer has to be structured the way it was before comes through access to opportunities that once felt impossibly distant. you begin making different decisions because you finally realize have the ability to make them
more than that, i find it a little difficult to believe that a long-term partner would be perfectly content in her designated corner while you pursue all of that
i also also think there's a tendency to treat every post as a deliberate statement when sometimes it's just someone behaving exactly as they always have? if you've been posting a certain way for years, you've been with the same partner for probably the same amount, and you publicly brought that partner to an event where you knew you'd be photographed together, why wouldn't that remain your default? why wouldn't you share her?
people don't rewrite their habits overnight just because their circumstances have changed. the circumstances change first; the habits catch up later
now, the heart of it all: i don't actually think it's that deep?
my instinct is still "habit of attribution." people naturally and repeatedly credit the individuals they feel contributed to their wellbeing, growth, or success. connor played a significant role in how hudson understands his own development, particularly in relation to receiving the award. the photo dumps function like a journal to h; the heart is just a cute decoration. if connor occupies a meaningful place in his story, it makes sense that he would surface whenever hudson is talking about support, gratitude, love, or personal growth
i do think the valentine's day heart was a little odd, but if we strip away the romantic context and focus purely on the language he uses for both c and k, there's a recurring thread: stability.
she keeps him stable when he isn't. connor has been his rock, his source of sanity. stability, stability, stability.
if both people have become synonymous with stability in his mind, then it's not surprising that mentioning one might unconsciously pull the other into the conversation as well. it may simply be that his brain has grouped them within the same emotional category. when he thinks about one source of stability, another source of stability comes to mind
he just loves. i don't think it's particularly mysterious.
"bomp, why do you think the vd heart was odd?"
mostly because i think it's unusual regardless of who the other person is: if you're making a valentine's day post for a relationship that's lasted years and years—and especially if it's part of a larger move toward being more public about that relationship—it's a little strange to share or dilute that moment with someone else. and then there's the composition itself. hudson studied filmmaking. he's not incapable of understanding what images communicate. so i find myself wondering why he consistently chooses photos of k where she's looking away, partially obscured, or otherwise visually disconnected from the viewer, or again, connor at all. likewise, why choose a photo where he looks so bleak, for lack of a better word?
i'm not saying there's some grand hidden meaning there. sometimes a photo is just a photo. i just think the choices are unusual
but moving on: (㇏(•̀ᵥᵥ•́)ノ)
"bomp, but what about the readers saying c is going to force a—"
now, this is just me, but i don't think c is going to force anything, ever, from him
let's say, hypothetically, that he genuinely believes k, the van friends, or some other aspect of hudson's life isn't good for him. even then, i don't think his instinct would be to issue ultimatums or tell hudson what choices to make. think about it this way:
you have a friend who's in a relationship you don't think serves him, or attached to something you believe is ultimately harmful to his well-being, you could be upfront and say, hey, stop doing this, but that runs the risk of damaging the friendship. if he listens to you and ends up having a harder time on his own, he could resent you for it, especially if you can't fill the void left by the relationship or attachment you encouraged him to leave behind for whatever reason
but if you let your friend repeatedly exhaust himself trying to find fulfillment in the same attachment, while positioning yourself as a source of support rather than a source of direction, offering him a stable place to land regardless of whether he stays or leaves, then you're doing something different: you're not telling him what choice to make, you're just making sure that when he inevitably starts questioning whether this thing is actually giving him what he needs, you're already there
in a way, you're slowly micro-dosing yourself into becoming the alternative without ever presenting yourself as one. it lets him "arrive" at the conclusion on his own, which means there's far less risk of resentment, because the decision feels like it belongs to him rather than to you.
when you look at everything we've talked about regarding c, which explanation feels the most plausible?
but you know that i don't know! my niche is possible girlflop contextual analysis and patterns—not fortune-telling. i'm just here to share my thoughts! i don't think much of anything here is driven by romantic love specifically, if anything at all. i think it's just love, or routine, or love that slowly became routine, or routine that is gradually becoming love
we can only find out with time!
fortunately, vampire cat is an immortal creature of infinite patience because he knows time is boundless. learn from vampire cat: there is no need to sprint toward conclusions when the future is already on its way (㇏(•̀ᵥᵥ•́)ノ)
hey! I’m really enjoying your posts. I am new to tumblr and would love recs for other astrology/ tarot accounts that post hudcon readings. Some sources seem shady, so I would love some recs for accounts you think have good info, thank you!
hello! ◕ ◡ ◕ welcome! i am unfortunately a very unsociable and self-centered creature, so i don't really keep up with my own timeline or follow many people closely; i'm probably not the best person to ask for recommendations—but i'm sharing this in the hopes that other people will reply with some suggestions!
(please don't tag people, but feel free to @/username them if you'd like to recommend someone!)
for astrology, i almost always turn to @/astro-anon or my own research. as for tarot, most of the readings i see tend to find me rather than the other way around. people send them my way and i read them, but i don't actively seek out tarot readers or keep up with the community very much i'm sorry
hiii sorry if this is random but have you ever done a reading of h’s energy around his friends or of his friends?
idk his friends are …like i got some opinions but idk he might post a story of his friendship tmr and ill have to shut up 😔😭 so i just wanna know your thoughts about thisss?
side note: I adore your reading, it’s so interesting and I love the way you put your thoughts into words, it’s as in I am walking with you through your thought process (if that makes sense)
thank youuuuu
hi (㇏(•̀ᵥᵥ•́)ノ) it's okay! you're not the first person to ask, and i doubt you'll be the last. so here's my thing:
i think there's something very fated about hudson. whether you want to call it destiny, luck, timing, hard work, or some combination of all four, i think that kismet quality is central to both his success and the way people respond to him
i've learned enough through cards associated with the horse(s) and adjacent readings to occasionally catch the scent of something rotten: there's only so many times you can see cards pointing toward nostalgia gone bad, hidden motives, deception, betrayal, snakes and foxes before you start thinking, okay, there may be a pattern here. jealousy is an incredibly corrosive thing, and success has a way of bringing it out in people
but then i have to ask myself: what exactly am i supposed to do with that?
i could make snide posts. i could make ominous warning posts. i could speculate publicly and create an atmosphere of suspicion around people and situations that none of us are truly privy to. i could stress people out based on impressions, possibilities, and interpretations rather than undeniable facts—because tarot isn't absolute and it isn't infallible
at the end of the day, the best username honeybomp can do is present possibilities filtered through her own mind. i can tell you what i think, why i think it, and what cards led me there. i can host discussions and other people's opinions through asks. what i can't do is present “possibility” as probability
there's part of why his friends are "dead horses" to me; i think some situation are ultimately futile from every angle. whatever tensions or dynamics may exist are not things i have any power over, nor are they things i feel particularly called to keep poking at, because to me, there's something wasteful about repeatedly reading on situations that feel fundamentally pointless. maybe that's the autism speaking, but i genuinely don't have much interest in "divining" into situations that could hurt people i care about—in this case, that's hudson and connor
i worry about manifestation. i worry that attention is a kind of energy, and that there is something inherently powerful about repeatedly speaking a thing into the world. maybe it's spiritual, maybe it's psychological, but either way i don't enjoy dwelling on possibilities that could cause harm. i don't want to spend my time feeding outcomes i wouldn't want to see realized, even if doing so gave me more foresight, or more engagement, or a stronger reputation as a "credible" tarot reader
i don't think i'd find much satisfaction in that. i don't really care about being right for the sake of being right. i care about hudson. i care about connor. i care about the people who spend time here and trust me enough to read what i write so if i'm going to devote my attention to something, i'd rather it be in service of understanding than suspicion, and insight rather than anxiety: if you want to use the perspective i provide to justify suspicion, that's fine with me! all i can do is offer my interpretation and what people choose to do with it afterward is ultimately out of my hands
besides, there are other readers who fill in the little gaps i intentionally leave open, and i think that's part of what makes the community so nice!
either way, maybe the autism is also part of why people enjoy my readings in the first place! i suck absolute ass at math but i did learn to show all my work :3 you are walking alongside me through the entire thought process so thank you for liking them!
⚰️I know we love to talk about how intertwined they are how ancient their connection feels. I am interested in knowing how does hudson match connor then? How does he match connors magic with his own? I have seen them as equal partners since the start even though it seems uneven sometimes. I guess im in a lovey dovey mood & I would love your musings on this. (Also used that emoji you said in your pinned)
i’d like to touch on what i think c’s famous intuition is first, outside of any mystical or otherworldly implications. i’ve come to understand intuition as a form of rapid discernment: your body and mind processing a million tiny pieces of information at once, making countless micro-decisions until the process becomes so automatic that it simply feels like you “know"
in that sense, strong intuition is often learned rather than innate. it can develop in people who grew up in environments where they couldn’t fully be themselves, because paying close attention to others becomes a survival skill. for queer children, sensitive children, or children who are otherwise different, being able to quickly read a room can be the difference between belonging and rejection, safety and isolation.
taken from his own words, he was “this artist, sissy boy in west texas that didn’t want to play football.” that’s a heavy awareness to carry from a young age. even if you have supportive people around you, you still understand that there are aspects of yourself that exist in tension with the broader environment. that kind of social isolation leaves an impression on anyone, especially a child.
so you learn to observe. you learn to adapt. you learn to hold yourself a certain way depending on who’s in the room.
if you’ve read my other asks, i’ve talked a bit about gender performativity—the idea that we learn what masculinity and femininity are supposed to look like by observing, interacting with, and responding to the direct people around us. then we reproduce, negotiate, resist, or reinterpret those expectations throughout our lives
i think the same process applies here. c is perceptive because he has spent a lifetime observing. he watches people. he interacts with them. he understands the roles they’re playing and the pressures shaping them. he has done the difficult work of understanding himself both inside and outside of those roles early in life, which affords him a sui generis capacity to adapt, reinterpret, and inhabit different ways of being without losing sight of who he is
maybe that's part of why his acting—his job—feels so convincing, even when it's just his face. he understands people. he seems capable of recognizing the patterns that sit beneath the surface almost instinctively, because intuition is built on years of observation and once he recognizes those patterns, he can reproduce them in a way that feels authentic and human. he's embodying the logic of their inner world, that's what makes it feel like he's not just imitating a person. how saucy!
alright, back to the point: so when people say he’s highly intuitive, i don’t necessarily think they’re describing some magical sixth sense? i think they’re noticing the result of decades spent paying attention. his mind has become incredibly fast at reading patterns, filling in gaps, and identifying the underlying mechanics that drive people. by the time that process reaches consciousness, it no longer feels like analysis—it feels like intuition
then you meet a man who cannot seem to keep himself hidden. no matter how hard he tries, his interior world is constantly leaking into the exterior one, his thoughts and feelings surfacing before he can contain them.
after spending a lifetime learning to read people, connor encounters someone who is almost startlingly transparent—a person whose emotions announce themselves before they're ever spoken aloud. and all of it circles back to identity in a way that feels almost inverse to his own experience.
connor learned to turn inward in order to survive the external world; hudson seems to turn outward in order to survive his internal one
where connor's instinct is observation, hudson's is vulnerability. not because vulnerability comes easily to him, but because he seems to continually choose it despite the risks. connor learned discernment through repression; hudson learned that connection was worth pursuing in spite of it
he wants to be understood. he wants to collaborate. he wants to create with people rather than compete against them. even his ambitions often seem rooted less in recognition than in participation—in being part of something meaningful alongside others; good or bad, his sense of self appears to be fundamentally relational. he understands himself through others, through exchange, through conversation, through creation, through belonging: where some people seek validation by distinguishing themselves from others, hudson seems to seek it by finding ways to connect with them
and those values don't begin with connor. they precede him. they're part of the person hudson already was long before they met
for someone who grew up feeling isolated, who spent years aware of his own difference, who learned to navigate environments that didn't always embrace him, how could that not feel transformative? after years of learning distance, caution, and self-monitoring, you suddenly meet someone whose first instinct is openness. someone who extends trust where you learned vigilance, who seeks connection where you learned discernment, who moves toward people instead of bracing for them.
it's not just that he understands you. it's that he offers a way of being in the world that you've spent your whole life searching for without realizing it. he embodies the ease, acceptance, and belonging that always felt slightly out of reach
how could that feel like anything other than meeting your soulmate? not because he's perfect, and not because you're the same, but because he answers a loneliness you've been carrying for so long that it has become part of the architecture of who you are
so: how does he match connor's magic with his own?
by letting connor be connor—the real connor, the "artist, sissy boy in west texas that didn't want to play football"—and proving to him that that kid can be loved without qualification. not loved because he learned how to perform, not loved because he became perceptive enough, or successful enough, now, or careful enough before, or useful enough all along. just loved.
for all of connor's insight into other people, i imagine the harder task was always extending that same grace to himself. after all, discernment is often born from self-surveillance. there's something suffocating about spending every day with a mind that is constantly monitoring, correcting, and negotiating with itself: do this, don't do that, don't say that, don't feel that, and everything will be fine.
and yet you feel it anyway, because for all the logic in the world, there are parts of yourself that cannot be reasoned away even with time. if you grew up constantly reading a room, anticipating reactions, and adjusting yourself accordingly, it becomes difficult to separate who you are from who you've learned to be. and i imagine that's especially true growing up and entering an industry built on perception: you're expected to please. you're expected to become someone else. you're expected to look a certain way, speak a certain way, carry yourself a certain way if you want to succeed. even authenticity becomes something that can be curated and sold
and then here comes someone whose instinct is not to scrutinize or reshape him, but simply to embrace him exactly as he is
in that sense, hudson's magic is permission. maybe he doesn't possess the same level of discernment, but he doesn't seem any less willing to welcome whatever is placed before him. he isn't searching for an idealized version of connor; he sees the beautiful parts, the wounded parts, the parts that don't fit neatly into any category, and none of them appear to diminish his affection
he sees connor regardless. more importantly, he sees him and loves him. loudly, openly, and without embarrassment. there's nothing tentative about it; he seems to approach loving connor with the same force a bulldozer approaches a fence
hudson doesn't ask for a version of him softened for consumption; made more masculine or more feminine, less strange, less emotional, less himself. he treats the very qualities that once marked connor as different as things worthy of affection, not obstacles to overcome, but parts of the person he loves
that's the inverse of an act. an act is something you perform in response to the 'other'—an attempt to manage perception. it's a negotiation between who you are and what the world is willing to receive.
love, at its best, is what happens when that negotiation becomes unnecessary. when the performance can finally end, and you discover that the person standing in front of you isn't asking for a role at all. they're just asking for you
connor's gift is understanding people; hudson's is making people feel safe enough to be understood.
new thought—if i were being annoyingly tarot-brained about it, i can see that manifesting as pentacles to connor's swords and cups. maybe that's why they fit together so well spirituality as well. understanding alone doesn't always create safety, and safety alone doesn't always create understanding, but when the two exist together, people tend to flourish
how cool if true!
i have work to do now so beep-boop bompous logging off! i hope that answered enough? i am sorry if it didn't
