rosewatersteel:
“ I didn’t realize there was more than one way to have sex. Were you thinking of putting it in my ear or something? ”the playful tease is more to cover up nerves that now rouse themselves in place of usual overconfidence. suddenly their kisses seem far more intimate than ever before. how can a few words change so much? “ But I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about it—-a lot. There’s no one else I can imagine giving my virginity to, not in this lifetime. It’s been yours since I knew I wanted you to be my first. “ loras chews on his bottom lip out of habit. golden eyes staring up at blue as imagery begins pouring through his mind, scenarios that have fueled midnight desires between the younger mans bed sheets. “ I want to have that kind of sex—-here—-now. " as if on cue thunder rumbles louder than before above the house making the lights flicker on & off almost violently, it was likely they’d all cut out at this rate. loras couldn’t help but think of how cliche it all felt. but even then he didn’t care because this was going to be their special moment. a moment surely renly had thought about as much as himself. “ do you have condoms & stuff—-? “ breathing a little heavier the younger man leans up to press a kiss to lovers lips, fingers carding through thick black hair that he adores so much. “ not that i’m suggesting we do it right away! we can do other stuff first—- “ the nervousness in his tone must be obvious, but slender fingers running over broad shoulders & toned arms are as confident as ever. “ I love you. " loras shifts beneath the duvet. tugging his most loved of all people closer to press against warm skin which had already begun to grow hotter just from the mere thought of what was about to occur between them.
"You're hilarious," Renly replies, deadpan, shaking his head and biting back the urge to cuff Loras around the head for being so ridiculous. There's lines of intimacy for any kind of sexual relationship, he knows that; the idea of going 'all the way' feels archaic to him, beyond anything he'd actually ever considered himself. If Loras wanted a relationship with grinding and oral rather than - well, the obvious - then Renly would be more than happy to compromise on the fantasies he had entertained over the last months. He's careful as he watches his boyfriend, though, eyes flickering over his face before his expression softens and he nods. "Then - we can do that. I just wanted to make sure we were both on the same page before we got half-way through and a little confused while naked. I hardly want you to laugh in my face." He leans up and kisses his forehead, his cheek and, then, his jaw and lips, drawing Loras closer and moving one hand to squeeze at his hip gently. The words are warming, like the thick duvet around them, and Renly has to take a deep breath to let his mind relax around the wild mantra of thoughts in his head. "I've been prepared for a while, just in case, don't worry. We're going to work up to it; there's not going to be any rushed theatrics here. I've done my research and I want this to be perfect for you." Fingers move along Loras' body as Renly kisses him again, tender and gentle and filled with all kinds of emotion he dares not put name to for fear of his cheeks bursting from either his smile or his blush. "I love you too. Just... Kiss me, just for a little while?"













