life with BPD

my personal experiences dealing with bpd tw/vent account

[stormhasbpd]

TW// talking about weight

I am in the process of getting weight loss surgery (gastric sleeve) I’m nervous and excited at the same time. I know doing this is beneficial for my overall health as I’ve struggled with my weight since I was a kid, but I can’t help being nervous about the whole situation. I’m nervous about complications during and even after surgery. However I know this will help my life in a lot of ways, especially since my partner and I are wanting to try for a baby to expand our family and my current weight has been a big factor into why we haven’t been successful in the past. Has anyone ever gotten this surgery or something similar and have any tips/advice?

[stormhasbpd]

I like being possessive, is that so wrong

[stormhasbpd]

It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[stormhasbpd]

I love being married, bc what do you mean my wife charged my kindle, got me a sweet treat, filled up my water cup & made sure my charger would reach my seat????? Like I’m about to enjoy reading while she plays on her pc for the next 3 hours lmao

[stormhasbpd]

I wish I could’ve held you and kissed you just once. To be able to physically hold you and tell you Itll all be okay. To tell you I love you and you’d call me your moonlight for the last time

[fatimazainab]

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[unhingedbbg]

the jealousy fucking drives you crazy

[stormhasbpd]

it consumes me

[stormhasbpd]

My therapist has told me to look at the ‘feeling wheel’ whenever I have a hard time understanding my emotions and it has helped me sooooo much. I’m better with my communication these days and my relationship has been thriving ever since I started referring to it!

[stormhasbpd]

Dating when someone has BPD

Ive been with my partner for almost a year now, and let me just say it has not been an easy ride; but its a ride I will continue to be on for many reasons. My partner did not know what BPD was until I explained it to her before we became official, so it was never something I hid from her. I think its always good to be open and upfront about having it when trying to date, simply because to some people it may feel like a big secret you are hiding from them.

I do not think that having BPD makes you unloveable either, considering I am loved every single day, flaws and all. We both have our fair share of bad days, we argue or fight, but I think the important thing is to communicate your feelings & hear each other out to try and understand where each person is coming from.

For example, me and my partner got into an argument where yelling occurred on both ends and she was getting ready to go into work. We both had a stressful day as we were both thinking back on what we could have done differently, so, whenever she got home we sat and explained both of our sides without anyone interrupting the other or getting defensive. Once we both heard each other out, it became easier to see and understand where we both were coming from during this specific incident.

All I'm trying to say here is that, no you are not unloveable just because you have BPD. You can be loved and love someone and things will get easier to manage with time and patience. Be kind to yourself and understand that this is not something that will just "go away," but it CAN get better with time and good coping skills. You are not alone in this. You are loved and wanted on this earth my fellow BPD baddies <3

[morutecutie-deactivated20250611]

unfortunately i DID take what you said to heart and now i’m sobbing and debating on whether i should kill you or kill myself

[stormhasbpd]

The fact that I’m way to scared to get pregnant and have the family life I’ve always wanted really breaks my heart, I just wanted to have a baby with my partner and be a little family ☹️

[stormhasbpd]

Me and my gf got into a heated argument in front of her parents before she went into work today and I don’t even know how to fix this. I feel justified in my feelings for being upset but not at the way it was handled bc we yelled at each other. I just feel so defeated and horrible

[stormhasbpd]

Why is it so hard for the universe to give me what I’ve dreamed of? I know this isn’t a healthy mindset to have but I just want to have a family and the universe won’t let me have it. Seeing that negative line every time is going to drive me straight to the mental hospital, please. I promise I’ll be a good mother, just give me a chance to show you…please

[stormhasbpd]

I had the worst fight with my mom like a week ago and now I don’t know how I’m supposed to talk to her about me moving in with my partner. I feel like she’s going to freak out and try and hurt me physically. (She already threatened me when we argued and I had a panic attack)

[stormhasbpd]

I’m so depressed and I feel like such a burden to my partner because of it. They treat me so well and yet all I wanna do is rot in bed until I eventually die

I wish I wasn’t such a waste of fucking space

[sideblog66]

i wanna lay under my blanket and die

[shattered-lily]

my bpd runs my life and it's just awful. i feel so bad for everyone around me. they have to put up with a mess who can't even get her act together for a day

my poor partner has to deal with me always wanting to be around them and acting out whenever i'm not all they put their time into. my friends have to deal with the same issue even if it is to a lesser amount.

and i'm not even worth that stress, i'm annoying and unlikable. i'm just not worth it and they make me feel so awful for them when they act like i am because it's clear i've just gaslit them into thinking i'm a better person than i am