TW: mentions of sexual assault, pedophilia, incest, suicidal ideation, and stillborns. Proceed with caution.
Y'know, I really didn't want to do this, and for the sake of brevity I will indeed put it under a readmore but that is the only formatting I'll do for this post. As of writing the beginning of this, it is 4am. I cannot sleep because of the anxiety eating away at me once more, and trying to just exist on this platform is fear-inducing. What little proof remains in existence will be provided as well.
This is a post detailing actions that the selfshipper known as Pato / Rara / Kestrel / Malice (@.pranabird / @.impurra /@.ultimalo / @.galedinner /@.artofthenight / @.mystrunmah / @.friezaforce / @.goatf*ggot) took against me and another user, claiming that I was defending a "proshipper" and then later calling me one.
(And yes, I will censor that last username, it's not my slur to reclaim.)
So, let me set the scene. I was mutuals with Malice for a few months, because I genuinely enjoyed their DBZ stuff. Back then, my blog was a sideblog called "codeshipping", off my main of "cloudybraiins". When Loke (@.lvckyduelist) showed up, that changed within a week. As soon as they noticed Loke, they began making vague posts about there ship with Katsuya Jounouchi / Joey Wheeler from Yu-Gi-Oh. Who is an adult as of his last major appearance - and no, I will not accept cherry-picking when it comes to what constitutes as a legal adult, especially since Loke has shipped with him since they were 13. If a character is 18, they are an adult, no buts about it.
You see, Yu-Gi-Oh and its first two spinoffs (GX and 5Ds) are directly tied to one another chronologically, and it's confirmed that the youngest of the primary OG cast (Seto Kaiba, oddly enough, based on their birth dates) are all 18 and up in Dark Side of Dimensions - the movie that acted as their last major appearance. GX occurs ten years later, and it's implied that 5D's is about 20 years after GX (as Tetsu Ushio, a character from the first chapter of the manga and first episode of "Season 0" is a semi-important character in 5Ds). Not only that, but while the dub claims it's someone else, I and majority of other people believe a cameo of Jounouchi / Joey in 5Ds. When he'd be somewhere around his 40's, mayyyybe 50's if we push it since he's the oldest of the primary OG cast - and even if it wasn't, he's never been stated to be dead (unlike characters such as Pegasus).
…I'm sure I don't need to explain why we come to that conclusion.
So, not only do we possibly see him much older as an easter egg in a spinoff set ~30 years later, but we also otherwise are lead to believe by Kazuki Takahashi that he's alive and well in 5Ds, and is an adult when his last major appearance happened.
I tried to politely explain this to them, only for Malice to cherry-pick what counts as an adult without so much as asking for clarification from Locke, claiming that even his last major appearance wasn't enough evidence to say Loke isn't a pedo - screw the fandom terms, that's what the accusation is. This is because Locke is a bit older than me (27 as of writing this), being in their 30's. Thing is, their ship with him started when they were a child; with the existence of GX immediately after the original ended in the early 2000's and then 5Ds, it's understood that Jounouchi has grown up with Locke.
If other people are allowed to ship with characters in this same way, so is Loke. No one gets to decide who can and can't so long as both selfshipper and f/o are adults.
I decided I had enough. I broke our mutual following and decided to leave, and they proceeded to say that they made two YGO proshippers delete/archive. Thing is, while they never stated my name... We know who it is. There are very few YGO selfshippers and we all at least know of each other, and talk on a semi-regular basis. Locke and I were the only ones to archive right as this was happening. That's... a little too convenient to be coincidental.
Last I recall, 20-something people liked it and praised them for "kicking out the proshippers". Some of them were my own mutuals, people I had considered friends, a few are even current mutuals. It may have been more, but that post is no more so I can't check.
Mind you... I was pointing out facts about a series I know like the back of my hand, because it's one of two major influences on not only my childhood, but my art style and how I write my characters (the other is Yu Yu Hakusho). If there's one series I know nearly down to a T, it's this one. On top of that, I don't ship with anyone in OG YGO, my only f/o at the time was from YGO 5Ds (Bruno / Antinomy), where majority of the main cast are adults due to the more blatant social commentary (such as police brutality) requiring that. Who is an android designed after an adult man, it's a whole plot thing but. Just sayin'.
Hell, my current switch to focusing on HSR is a direct response to the stress this all caused me. But we'll put a pin in that.
Unfortunately, this is the only evidence I could find remaining on their blog as of posting this (which seems to include a buddy of theirs) of them mocking one of Locke's various coping mechanisms found in their ship. Because guess what? Locke uses selfshipping to cope with various kinds of trauma, like maaaany other people who do this - myself included. The link as of writing this is here. Sadly they're known for deleting the shit, so I wasn't able to get anything else, but there were other posts.
Lemme add some context, from Loke's own blog. This is mainly what the TW at the start is for.
It should also be noted that I too received hate, but was then told to "stop sending hate to myself". So when they get it, everyone is up in arms; when we get it, we get spat at. Lovely.
After this, I decided to delete what I thought was for good, but the few people who stuck by me are the reason why I decided to come back. Since returning though, I am terrified.
Malice's actions have, at least for the foreseeable future, tarnished my ability to enjoy Yu-Gi-Oh - to enjoy writing my ship with Bruno. Anyone who knew me on my old blog knows that I just hit one year of shipping only with Bruno, only for this to happen maybe a week and a half later. He was my only f/o for a year, I had removed all other f/os because I didn't need them. Fictional or not, I found my "person". Now, I feel guilty for even enjoying the series just as a fan, because of the way I was treated over blatant lies. If I didn't have my medication, the reaction would have been so much worse, and the blood of a living person would have been on Malice's hands. Mine, just to clarify; I suffer from suicidal ideation that's only really countered by my medication while I continue seeking professional aid.
That is why I'm writing this, this bullshit had me close to that darkness. I am not doing this to attack anyone, I am stating only what happened to me and making known the person who was responsible. It is not something I wanted to do, but needed to do, because others are too scared of this person to speak up against them. Because sadly, Locke and I are not the only ones who have had to deal with this.
Multiple people - three at least that I've spoken to directly since this has happened, all of which I will keep anonymous here - have faced similar things from this same user, and there's likely more from what I know that I haven't spoken to myself. They all approached me first, to see if it was the same person. But that is their stories to tell, not mine; they can themselves if they truly desire to, and no one is to bother them if they don't.
I also know that there's not much in the way of evidence, but I've at least done what I can to provide what I do have. If there are any questions, just come talk to me - but I will not have anon on. I'm not playing those games anymore. But I do know one thing; I'm no longer going to be anxious to be here. I'm fine with being the bad guy if that's what people see me as, I'm okay with having this connected to my name, but I have a right to be here and a right to defend myself - regardless of how I may be seen by doing so.
I really, really didn't want to do this but... Thank you, if you read all this. It's now roughly 6AM. I have not slept yet. I don't know if I will at this point, so I apologize if this is a jumbled mess. This will be the last I ever speak of the situation publicly.
Good night.
