Questioning Everything

pro-recovery 𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑙𝑦 ❤︎ Sw:213 / Cw:164.6 Gw1:165✔︎/ Gw2:155𝗫 / Gw3:145𝗫 / Ugw:130lbs𝗫

[strawberry-thin]

Hello

Just thought I’d give an update if anyone cares it’s day 4 of the loose a stone diet(l.a.s.). I did pre weigh myself (not the official end weight for this diet) but I just wanted to know if I’d made any progress and I’m back to 165.8. So I’ve lost so far like 7.8lbs so that’s amazing 🙃idk how. But mostly I bet it’s water weight but I will be done with the l.a.s diet by 12/10 so I’ll give my end weight then I’m only 10.8 from my goal for Christmas and I’m thinking we’ll deff get there. After this fif diet I’m not sure what I will do 😬maybe make my own or if I find another one I wanna try. I just know I gotta loose as much as I can before Christmas week when Ik ppl will make me eat 💀

[strawberry-thin]

Hello sorry I’ve been mia but I had family over all week and I couldn’t restrict but yesterday I started the fix it fast diet (10days) and I gain over that week 9lbs so here’s hoping I loose 15lbs from this diet but my goal is to be 155 by Christmas so the countdown starts now 🙃

[strawberry-thin]

On my last day of the abc diet and tomorrow is my last weigh in. Can’t believe it’s been 50 days already. I’m hoping my crap eating this last week didn’t ruin everything as today I’m fasting for the second day to try to makeup for how crap I ate this last week of the diet but we’ll know more tomorrow. If you want a like actual results post and how the diet went or stuff I’m not sure I’ll post that but maybe.

[strawberry-thin]

I have literally 4 days left to the abc diet after today and I have done nothing but binge like a disgusting pig 💀I have to keep on track these last days so my final weigh in means something. I need some one to just slap me when I wanna eat like I can’t keep doing this I can’t be a faliure. Tomorrow and statursay I will fast and I won’t break it at night and I promise that.

[strawberry-thin]

UPDATE:

Well today I had my second to last weigh in and I was 166.8 this morning. I’m officially at 8 days(counting today)till the abc diet is done and I’m both excited and just ready for it to be over. I’m not sure what diet I’m gonna do for after but if u have any you’d like me to try maybe so u can get an idea if it works let me know. I’m also only 1.8 lbs from my first goal weight and that’s something I’d never thought I’d get to so.

[strawberry-thin]

TOXIC RANT:

Who’s the absolute disgusting idiot who binged twice in the span of 2 hrs?? Me that’s who. Today was almost Done.I was doing so well fasting for the second day why would I do that. I can’t fucking stand my self. Now I’m gonna fast till Monday and hope my weigh in then isn’t absolutely fucked because I can’t find a way to control myself. Plus My throat is killing me from purging but I can’t have that just sitting in my stomach and I feel like I got it all but Ik I didn’t.

[strawberry-thin]

Well I didn’t gain from yesterday so that’s good. But I’m feeling like shit, not physically just mentally. I Also can’t help but love and hate every person who says I look skinnier. I wish ppl wouldn’t comment on it because I’m still disgustingly big. I wish ppl wouldnt praise me, trust me there isn’t anything healthy about how I’m doing it or easy. I’m dying but since I’m huge ppl see it as amazing, I’m drowning won’t anyone notice that.

[strawberry-thin]

Did nothing but binge all day can’t fking stand my self 💀im hoping tomorrow I didn’t gain any weight 😭 tomorrow I’ll eat as needed by the abc diet but fast Thursday and Friday.

[strawberry-thin]

UPDATE:

Well here’s the promised update// I weighed in today at 169.8 !!!! Which is unbelievable for me, but I’m now 4.8lbs away from my gw for thanksgiving and 14.8 lbs from my Christmas gw. Today Is the start of wk6 of “8” and I fast but might have a single rice cake since I have a major migraine.

[strawberry-thin]

Got my weigh in today in the morning also I’ll be starting week 6 of the abc diet. Excited to almost be done. I’ll update in the morning how it went! Hoping it’s good since my gw for the end of this is 165 and 155 by Christmas.

[strawberry-thin]

Ate like shit this entire week pretty sure I gained and tomorrow is my weigh in 💀kill me

[strawberry-thin]

Almost done with week 4 of the abc diet this Sunday then Monday is start of week 5 and I’m like petrified I’m not gonna have lost shit cause Monday-Wednesday I was constantly binging. So 🤦‍♀️ fml.

[dumbaccountidontcareabout-blog]

Reblog the pumpkin king and you’ll lose 5 pounds this week

(just do it)

[strawberry-thin]

Wishing for this one day finally 💀

[strawberry-thin]

I’m officially 12.6 lbs away from my gw by thanksgiving so that’s good and 22.6 from my gw for Christmas but I’m so sick of these bumps that popped up on my chest and thighs like ?! Is this from restricting? Dose anyone else have this problem.

[s0ur]

Grace Elizabeth for Victoria’s Secret x For Love and Lemons S/S 2020 Campaign

[single-grain-of-rice]

Man it would be awful 😉😉😉😉😜😜if somehowww i lost twenty spooky pounds 😫😫😫😨😨😨😱😱 by Halloween🤪🤪🤪😈😈😈, now that’s some spooky shit 🤒😳🤪😵🧐