the world's too small for walls

I'm Lily. 21.

[were--ralph]

official elon musk hate post reblog to hate like to hate reply to hate

[evanthology]

I would officially like to quit struggling and start snuggling™

[strawberrycreamx3]

i’m trying not to take every bad thing that happens to me as a personal attack, because that obviously isn’t the case. but it’s so hard to continue wanting to bounce back when things seem bleak

[strawberrycreamx3]

do i resent you now because i see you the way you see me? if this is how you’ve felt about me all along i want no part in it.

[strawberrycreamx3]

Fuck an apology, I wanna see you do better

[owlmylove]

sometimes u just gotta clean your room and apply an elaborate skincare routine and pretend that’s equivalent to getting ur life in order

[strawberrycreamx3]

so so so hard to keep going. I’m trying so hard. I wish they knew how much it hurts to breathe sometimes

[strawberrycreamx3]

a worthless person who has accomplished little to nothing & continues to be an emotional burden to all that she interacts with ... that’s me

[strawberrycreamx3]

I’m trying so hard to change the way that I think about myself but it’s incredibly difficult. I think I’ve become accustomed to putting myself down and it’s gone too far. I wouldn’t treat my friends like this when they’re sad, so why do I think it’s okay to do it to me?? The way I view myself ultimately gets projected into the way I think others view me. If I continuously think of myself as uninteresting, unloveable, and a pain to be around, I will always think that others have the same opinion. I have to learn to be kind to myself

[filthy-rat]

when it’s 3 am and you’re alone with your thoughts

[strawberrycreamx3]

i tweeted a video of my mom expecting like a little bit of a response but it ended up blowing up so much more than i thought .. kinda crazy how some people are perfectly comfortable calling others names or accusing people of shit, but it’s whatever. excited for it to die down

[strawberrycreamx3]

i can’t make you realize my worth or force you to care for me .. i guess part of me should be more sad, but i’m just too drained at this point!! i didn’t cry once when you ended things in the summer, so why have i cried so many times now that we’re together? 

wasn’t it you that asked for me back? told me that you realized you missed me? why are you taking me for granted again

[324432463552434565435241354-dea]

your intelligence means fucking nothing if youre devoid of empathy

[dankmemeuniversity]

[strawberrycreamx3]

i can’t explain it. i can say i’m happy. i can be happy. i can act enthusiastic, kind, playful, everything - but i know that one day i will go through with it

[strawberrycreamx3]

funny how my friends all chose me as the happiest out of the group when i’ve dealt with suicide ideation since 10 years old... someone tell me why lol

[strawberrycreamx3]

knowing that my parents aren’t stressed about me not finding a job out of college should be a comfort, but for some reason it isn’t. none of my friends will shame me if i’m unable to find a job, obviously, because they love me for me & not whether or not i’ll be employed.. so why do i feel this pressure? nobody is putting any pressure on me whatsoever to be any sort of way, so why do I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders? so hard to remind myself to breathe when I don’t believe i deserve to. but i do.