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Hai! I’m Damien!

I’m an alter in a system! I manage our depression, panic disorder and Bpd.

I enjoy a mix of feminine and masculine things. For example I love cooking, dressing up, skincare, hair care. I also enjoy Cars and motorcycles

This blog is going to be a mix of me talking about stuff that happens irl and also a mix of me showing off my interests.

Sometimes I vent on here because I struggle with our feelings and I get sappy a lot.

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• #Jam- random thoughts

• #Diced- system thoughts

•#Smashed- Vent

#Blended- Rant (doesn’t mean anything)

#Frozen- Rant ( Means something)

My transition goal is to look like myself in headspace

#system #systemtalk #jam

I don’t ever wish anyone’s parents to abandon them because they’re not proud of them.

Our father recently abandoned us because of the fact that we’re not going back to college and not coming back home due to their abuse and neglect.

He chose our stepmom over his own kids.

He did the same thing our mother did.

I hate them both I hate them. We’ve been having a feeling that he abandoned us for a couple months now. But now that it’s confirmed by our sister It hurts.

Sorry for the vent it’s been a lot.

#smashed

I’m losing my mind aaaaaaa

I have this sense of dread that I can’t explain

I’m actually very nervous for simply plural to shut down. Mainly because I’m upset that we will probably lose all of our data. But I understand why it’s shutting down.

We’re gonna use it until it shuts down completely but we have a backup app called Ourcana. It’s 99¢ on the app store. (Only available on iOS tho as far as I know)

#system #simply plural

When your mid breakdown and TikTok suggests the dumbest video so you gotta lock in for a second

#meme

Animatic about our main persecutor Cosmo.

[insert sappy explanation below. If you don’t want to see it then scroll please]

He holds a lot of our rage towards people. Has a high sense of justice in his own way. And he believes that he’s the only one that has ever been able to prove our points,which he’s correct unfortunately.

Obviously he’s permanently messed up relationships because of our ptsd and mental health but that’s in no way excusing his behavior. It’s a reason.

And we’re always trying to improve as best as we can.

But I hate when persecutors are just explained by people to be evil alters who only mean to hurt. Or are the parts of your brain you have to push back. Trust me we’ve tried that. We’ve removed memories from him, made him completely dissociated for years, and his sense of identity was completely haywire. But it made it worse. It made persecution worse once he found out what we were doing.

But I’m also not gonna pretend that people’s repeating harmful behaviors to us don’t lead to him persecuting in the first place.

#did system #animatic #persecutor #system stuff #plural system #plurality #artists on tumblr #digital art #artwork #dissociative identity disorder

Going through old art from like 2022-2023. I didn’t remember drawing any of these.

Food looks so gross right now omfg I gagged at cinnamon rolls

Would it be illegal if I take a bite of out of myself will that still be considered cannibalism?

bothpalms

Baba’s domain 🐈 Collab with @ceeejus 🌟

Idc what anyone says.

I’m so sick and tired of people faking disorders

One of our co workers who was cool and we liked faked fucking DID because he he wanted to have sex with us and ADMITTED IT TO SOMEONE ELSE!

I’m losing my mind are we really only a fucking sex toy?!

Maybe it’s because I’m exhausted and depressed right now. But i don’t think anyone’s ever been actually proud of me.

I’ve always tried so hard to be worth something to someone and I’ve never been. Hell our own family abandoned us because we were such a disappointment.

Unfortunately I need to buy a binder every year because our honkers are too big 😔

UGH MY HEAD HURTS

neur0nom1con

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