Dre

They/them | Multifandom | an artist, fan fiction writer, and a cosplayer... i just like creating stuff

[strawdrerry]

I hate myself 😭

[strawdrerry]

How requiem milgram got me feeling

[strawdrerry]

I forgot that videos aren't allowed on inboxes (⁠^⁠～⁠^⁠;⁠)⁠ゞ

Anyway here's a speedpaint of my first ever attack :3

I'm not really good at drawing armour or wings, but hymn's design is really neat I just really wanted to try and draw him

The character is knight, and hy belongs to @chaotic-krow

[strawdrerry]

drop your artfight account right NEOW i have a goal i must fulfill

Lwiddle o'l me?

Awh shucks...

But only if you tell me yours mmkayy

A bunch of oc refs (the ones featured in my card) under the cut for in case the website is down 👉👈

Trucald & Ivy

Chaiza & Her phantom thief alter ego

Chaiza's son, Conroy & Paris

[gravy-ways]

egg

[strawdrerry]

Happy Birthday Etho!! 🎉🎉🎊🎊🥳🥳

Oh..

@gravy-ways thankies for the idea, it made me giggle

[constellation-sapphic]

Joe Hills has the most correct opinion on fanart, being: he's not paying for it, so he has no say in the art direction, so do whatever the fuck you want

[constellation-sapphic]

Counterpoint. If the boundaries are stupid, do whatever you want forever. In fact, just do whatever you want. They're not paying to direct your art of a character. Make your art.

[transkojiro]

additionally, because i don't think "if the boundaries are stupid" is necessarily a good benchmark for this bc it doesnt address a core issue here: a boundary is not a way of dictating or controlling other's behaviour. a boundary is not a moderation rule. a boundary is for how you will deal with unacceptable behaviour from the other person. a boundary is a personal limit you set for yourself.

"don't draw my character in xyz ways" is not a boundary. "don't 'main tag' explicit works" is not a boundary. "you're not allowed to write explicit fics of my cubito" is not a boundary. "don't ship me or my cubito" is not a boundary. "don't send ccs my work" is not a boundary. they're requests, at best.

"i mute/block when i come across explicit art in the 'main tag' on tumblr" is a boundary. "i will not engage with fanart that depicts me/my character in xyz ways" is a boundary. "i will block you if i see you tagging cc's in my ship art or talking about my fic in their twitch chats" is a boundary. "i will stop using this platform temporarily/permanently if people continue to do xyz because it makes me feel like shit" is a boundary (false has used this one here iirc?). "i will block you if you repeatedly come into my tumblr asks just to demand about another cc" is a boundary. "if there are any commonly used tags for ship art or nsfw art i will be blocking/filtering those tags and encourage the use of them" is a boundary. a very fucking essential one imo. (i know these are block-heavy examples lol. boundaries when you actually know someone personally are going to be more nuanced - and crucially, will not be ultimatum-y and final like an "and now i block" is. but we're talking about setting boundaries in a parasocial context here - mute/block tools are an effect way of keeping yourself safe there, and because they're boundaries, not rules, you are not owed an explanation if you, a whole ass stranger, do get blocked because of them. imo.)

a boundary has to be directed at yourself and your actions. if you cannot enforce it with your own action, then it is not a boundary - it's an expression of feeling, a request, and those are something we + ccs are absolutely allowed to have and hope people will respect and honour. there are definitely plenty of instances that will make me think you're at least a bit of an asshole if you do disregard such a request/feeling.

but open, unmoderated (meaning fandom-specific moderation) fandom spaces on social media + fic archives are not and cannot be bound to those requests, and other fans trying to go after people who "don't respect ccs boundaries" do not count as them being enforceable. if cc's want transformative fan spaces that they can lay down rules on, they need to cultivate those spaces themselves. but those rules would still only ever apply in those specific sites.

[strawdrerry]

"Oh i can't find any good men because all the attractive ones are gay 😔"

Oh boo hoo hoo

I can't feel safe in my own country because you guys are hateful homophobic and transphobic little bitches

[mercyseb]

one of my favorite tropes of media is fate and when it comes to their lessons on how you deal with them

[strawdrerry]

Me prepping for artfight : "I have so many oc and this is my first art fight.. I wonder if I have enough drawings to at least represent them when I haven't finished on a new ref drawing.."

*Later

Opening the third sketchbook " damn I draw a lot..."

Opening the fifth sketchbook " damn I draw a lot."

Opening the tenth sketchbook " damn I draw a LOT"

[tillydouspart]

a chance encounter

[ceruleanheaven]

[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over

[kitkatyes]

i find it really fascinating how my autism affects my ability to recognise emotions and feelings because, like, i've been feeling a Certain way toward my uni course for a while but only really realised I actually want to drop out

like, it's really hard to go from sheer excitement at the start of the semester and gradually decrease into something akin to apathy. but being slow enough to the point where i didn't really notice it until the end of it all

my course is, fundamentally, good. I just feel like i'm enjoying classes rather than actually making art and thats an Issue to me,,, going on to the next semester where i actually get an elective sounds fun but it doesn't solve this problem of just straight dysfunction and exhaustion when trying to create fine art. the pressure of a higher education setting just isn't suited to my neurodivergent mind, i fear

i feel kinda like a little kid at the adults table, just nodding along to the conversation but never really understanding it. I'm just kinda,,, there,,, and i don't really have anything trying me down

[strawdrerry]

This is really relatable tho

I was actually genuinely really excited at the start, but now it's really clear to me that I do really like the classes but I just can't see myself actually working as a fashion designer or something in the garment industry

My mother says that's it's totally okay to not immediately be good at it, that i don't have to be the best at it and that every college/uni student feels this depression at least once. But now, I just feel apathetic and just trying my best to just at the very least pass. It almost feels like a waste to me, like someone else more passionate and caring about this major should be here instead of me. The pressure is really tough ("This is just a taste of what the real work force would be like", I fear if this is just a hint I would just not survive then...)

The world is not very kind for us neurodivergents, I wish you the best of luck for whatever it is you're persuing now 💛

[strawdrerry]

Unfortunately i am still alive

[grayintogreen]

I think what might help the whole "low engagement in fandom spaces driving creatives out because they don't see the point in sharing anything only to get crickets or critics" is not the shaming tone of "look this is how you get nothing, you entitled shits" that tends to be very pervasive, but rather pointing out how actually rewarding it can be to leave nice comments.

I like to leave very long rambling comments on people's fics and that has actually netted me some very real, genuine friendships and we've become cheerleaders for each other. My friend has a D&D Podcast that she doesn't get ANY sort of engagement out of, so I started listening to it at work and livereacting the things I enjoy about it and showing her my investment and it makes her very happy and it makes me happy that she's happy.

Being nice to people... is actually a good enough reason to do things, shockingly enough. You don't have to do it. No one should shame you for not doing it. But it doesn't actually cost anything to make other people happy, especially if they created something that made you happy.

[strawdrerry]

Apart of me is disappointed of myself because i'm kind of pathetic and a failure in a lot of things. But I just realized, if the past version of me see a hint of me now, they would think i'm the coolest guy ever.

Why am i upset i can't be the best version of myself to what other people see? Sure, I'm still not the best version of myself even to me, but the things i'm doing now is the things I have been working so hard for years for.

It will still be painful of how i couldn't fit in, and that no matter what I do I'm still one of the odd ones out. But i'm really grateful for the things i'm more aware off than most of my peers and how my different perspective has made me the person I am

I'm actually a really cool guy, and i wish i could appreciate myself more

[adhdoofenshmirtz]

[mybraincellbelongstomanmech]

‼️ SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 19‼️

This is unexpectedly very fun to do lol

Here it is!! A tribute to chapter 19 💥

All the art shown is of course drawn by @insert-urso <3

The song is "Hard Times by Paramore"

Scuffed cover and a very calm reading of all the reactions by mee (Just for fun, a challenge for my confidence, and a bit voice training) (I'll upload one with the normal singer and no dubbing later.. just in case you guys don't like my voice or just want less chaos lol)

(Robert is a talented coward, meanwhile I am the opposite hahahshagj)

[strawdrerry]

Sorta unrelated, but I'd like to use this video as an example on why we should NOT be using fanfiction as something to judge and critic, instead of as something to have fun with.

It irks me a lot to see new users judging fanfiction writers instead of just clicking a way

Never give criticism to somebody who didn't verbally ask for it. We should be using the comment section to cheer on the writer/artist, or to give your opinion about the beautiful piece they decided to share, or to just freak out about the similar interests you and the community share.

Threats in the fandom should only ever be used in a light hearted comedic way.

Just have fun dudes