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going absolutely, clawing at the walls, gnawing on the bars of my cage, yowling like a moron, mind breaking feral

im ngl chat it’s real hard not to feel like the biggest piece of shit, the ugliest, most awful, terrible, no good, unlovable and generally just repulsive bastard at pretty much all times

Sweat so hard on my daily run that when I took my shorts off I wrung them out and made a puddle. FUCK it’s hot this year

increasingly exhausted of that little voice in the back of my head that’s always there to say

“you’re not good enough”

fuck off mate lifes shit enough already

A hard run on three hours of sleep probably wasn’t the best call I ever made

need to start carrying around a sign that says “just tell me what you want, i’m not gonna figure it out myself”

damnsparce

Interview tomorrow lend me your strength everyone

straydaemon

omw to make my problems somebody else’s problems

damnsparce

If you apply for a job and have to take 2 and a half hours worth of testing to see if you qualify for your application to even be looked at, I feel as if they should pay you for the time spent on those tests

straydaemon

all of my rage

And in the end everything just gets fed to a fucking AI that says yes/no

A lot of people don’t really stop to consider

You aren’t “building up to your real life”, you aren’t preparing yourself for some future hypothetical. It’s here, here and now. What you’re living right now at this very moment is your life, and it will pass you by as you wait to be ready, as you tell yourself you still have time, as you consider the here and now training for your real life.

1st day back in the pool this summer

75 minutes of swimming. MAN I’m tired