A Glimpse Of Time

By Stephen Trace Denna

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Go with the flow, immerse yourself in nature, slow down and meander, go around the obstacles, be thoughtful of those downstream, stay current, the beauty is in the journey! ~Ilan Shamir

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Had lots fun drawing my friends as among us characters.

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new sketch book

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Dear Boobs,

    I can’t believe how much alike you and I are in the way we think. I also love that you surprise me with beautiful pictures of you. I hope you love the flowers I put the letters I know it stains the letter I hope that it is still legible. The very last thing you mentioned was the fact that since we’re so close to seeing each other that letter writing has become difficult. If those weren't my same words that I wrote to you then I must be hallucinating.

    I think it’s funny the way we’ve both found it difficult to write to write one another. We didn’t have this problem when I was moving last winter. I felt like that fact that I was leaving I need to write you because we would see each other for a long time (an eternity… ). I wish I could say it was easy to write the word eternity but It made me feel that you are worth so much to me and you will never not be enough for me. I think that just shows us how we are both in love with each other because If it meant I have to wait till the end of time to just see you then I will wait.

    I can’t wait for the first night we can sleep together. I love it when the room is all dark and I can barely make out the outline of your body that’s snuggled so warmly against me. Then before you fall asleep I’ll lean over you and whisper in your ear, “I love you”. Then drawing you closer to me and kiss you gently on the lips and then feel you fall asleep in my arms.

    Yesterday I almost quit work. The assistant manager has been riding me for about two weeks. Ive been doing to work on time everyday and I’ve also been working 20-30 minutes overtime each day on my own time. So we almost went to blows over the fact that he has been riding me and honestly I didn't care if he was my boss. I told him he’s not going to push me around like he does with the Mexican immigrants. I was really mad, everybody at work thought that I was going to hit him or something. They were really scared because normally I’m peaceful and quite but that boss just pushed me a bit to far yesterday. Even if he was the boss I wasn’t going to be bullied around by him or anybody else. But I felt a whole lot better after I got it out of my system.

    So you say your pussy has been getting out of control lately. Well let me tell you lover, my penis ain’t exactly limp when I think of you. Maybe we could put the two together and let them settle it for us.

    when you write and tell me that your pussy is so hot and wet, Could almost taste those delicious juices in my mouth. I can't wait to make love with you also just need to ask if we make love the first night, actually when we make love on the first night we will have to take my van somewhere and find a spot. well lover I love you, and Can't wait to see you finally. I miss you for to long now

Your lover Louden

P.S. Does your mother still think I’m unfaithful to you? I remember awhile ago I over heard her saying that she doesn't think we will last if we are trying long distance.

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I am so thankful for my love, I can't believe its been a whole year! I know I am not the easiest person to be with and we have had our ups and downs but I‘m so happy to have gone through them with you. This book deserves a lot of thanks as well, “The Five Love Languages” not only has help me understand how to love you better but now I know you what I need out of our relationship. I love you babe and so excited for the many years to come.

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Dear Pussy,

    These last few days are sheer torture for me. I’ve been horny for so long and yet I know in a few days I’ll be making love with you. Just thinking about you and your soft skin feels like its only a dream that i will wake up from.  Do you ever get so horny that you might die from it? Well lately that’s exactly the way I feel.

    When I lie here in bed thinking of your breasts or your pussy or your legs its as if some magical spell caused me to get excited and my penis gets so big and hard. I cant Imagine how big it will get when you hold it in your hands and suck on it.

    And then there another form of torture that I have to experience when I think of you. Its called loneliness, I miss you so much that The remaining days might as well be decades. I love you so much that I want to try to experience as much as I can in the three months we’re together. Have you ever wondered about how much I love you and when my love would ever end? If  you took all the boys you ever “fell in love” with and added it all together in comparison to my love for you, It would be equivalent to only a second since the day I feel in love with you. Writing twice a day to you is no problem because I love you so much that If I picked up a pen during any part of the day I could write a love letter to you with ease.  That’s because my romantic love for you just doesn't occur that hour it takes to write these letters. It’s that way every minute of the day.

    These last few days I’m being so carful in what I do. I don't want an accident or anything to keep me from seeing you.  I’m always concerned of how much time I have left and I don't want to wait one minute longer than I have too before I see you.

    I meant to ask you in last nights letter what was it about those other girls at the beach that you thought they “had” and you didn’t. The only reason I ask is because I cant believe that there is a woman alive that is more beautiful or physically attractive then you. Not to mention those perfect breasts with those rose red nipples I would love to be smothered to death with those boobs.

    Well love so ends another letter to the woman of my life, to my lover, companion, and future wife-to-be.

                                                                                                             your future                                                                                                                   Louden

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My last day at work seemed even longer than the others. When the time came for quitting I was already long gone.

Trace Denna’s “Letters From Him” pg. 43

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                                                       “Hand plane”

This took me about a day to shape and carve this hand plane for body surfing and only about 4 hours for all the art work and clear coating 

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Dear Anna,

     I’m in the weirdest mood. I’ve been reading about the life of Mahatma  Gandhi all day long and I feel so peaceful, its almost as if I had no feelings, good or bad. His teaching are hypnotic.  This man was one of the greatest men that ever lead a mass.  I truly believe that if college students like us knew of him and how he led one of the greatest revolutions in history that a lot of violence would be eliminated. This man was so peaceful that it makes you ashamed of the violence that you’ve resorted to too get things accomplished.  I think everyone should read about him.

     This morning I got up and fixed scrambled eggs, bacon, toast and orange juice, and I suddenly realized that the last time I did that was the morning we were at your sister’s apartment. Then I wanted you to be here and have breakfast with me, no one else but you. Wasn't that a great feeling to wake up and have breakfast?  its about the closest we’ve come to know what it would be like when we’re married since the weekends we spent in the motel.

     Remember I mentioned I was reading a book about a girl who was having an affair with a doctor. Well at first I saw us in the book, almost as if someone watched and listened to us when we were alone bed. But then you realized that the doctor didn't really love her nor did he have intentions of marrying her. He was just wanted a bed partner and someone to take care of his apartment.

    Thats where I separated the book from us. because neither one is abusing the other one or using the other one. Not only that but I do want to marry you.  My love for you can’t be measured against say my physical attraction for you. I loved you three months before we went to bed. And for that matter my love for you wouldn't change in the slightest if we did stop going to bed. I’d be hornier than hell but I wouldn't change my love for you. The only way it would be changed would be that it would grow for you.

    I’ve often thought about what would have happened if I wasn't so forward with you when I captured you when I did. It’s really scared me. I pictured myself unhappy and unsatisfied with some other girl. I even imagined if I had dated some else in the dorm or outside and I can't even picture the happiness and deep love I have with you.

   It really shook me at the odds of us meeting and falling in love, the one time that I decided that I couldn’t let you go or let anyone else have you except for me paid off. Even know I have to sit back and think that I actually have you for my very own and will forever. It’s so fantastic that things happened the way they did for us for everything work out.  I’ve often wondered that if time were suddenly set back a year if I would get you again. If you look at all the statistical probabilities that led to our love through out our lives, that even so much as if one event in our lives, that evens much as if one event in our past would have changed that we would have never met. That’s what strikes me as so startling. I don't think that we would have met in a million life times in a million different times. It’s like two stars colliding somewhere out in the universe, The probabilities that lead to another situation exactly like that arising. Thats the way I view us meeting, that it would never happen again. Wow if you really get into the probability element it can blow your mind.

   I guess I’m just lucky to have you and I’ll never stop loving you.  There are many times that I’ve stopped work and said out loud to myself  “WOW Anna actually Loves me, and I love her.” Then I get real happy and go back to work thinking about you all day.

    I could continue forever writing about my love for you just like my love continues for you. But I have to get to sleep because I’ve got to get up mucho early.

                                                                                                    Your forever love                                                                                                                    Louden

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                                                        “Beer Time”

So I asked my friends to challenge me and they said that I couldn’t draw a glass mug full of beer. well here it is. what do you guys think of it ?

p.s. it was actually kinda hard haha!

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Dear Boobs,

    Well lover here it is, three weeks to go. Just about 21 days left till we are together again. I cant wait to see you. Do you think you’ll still like me when we see each other? I hope so, its weird having these thoughts but I just cant see a world with out you.

    Remember I told you about a man named Dave That I worked with when I first came to the cemetery ? He was the one who had a wife and kids plus a girl friend or two on the side. Well today at work we were working about one hour when he fell on the ground and went into convulsions. I don't feel I have to go into the details, but I treated him with first aid until the Rescue Unit came and took him to the hospital.

    I can see why he has a girl friend now. His wife didn't have the car to go to the hospital to see him so they sent me out in a unit to pick her up and take her to the hospital. when I arrived all she said was “Again, well lets go see the jerk”. I mean all the sympathy and concern she had for him was comparable to a king cobra. She made me sick, I was more concerned about Dave than she was.

    Then I went back to work, after work I bought some pants. And that just about rounded out my day.

    I have been baby sitting the chairman of anthropology’s pets while he’s been away on vacation. All the time they’ve been gone on vacation there cat I guess took one to and hasn't been home the whole time they have been gone. Im not to sure how i was going to tell them their cat never came home.  Well about 15 minutes before they drove up, that dame cat came home. I grabbed that cat and pulled it into the house hoping that it wasn't a mirage. So everything turned out alright and I was paid so for my services. That rounded out my action packed Saturday and so ends another exciting chapter of my life.

    The only other thing that I haven't told you about that happened yesterday was how much I thought of you. I went over all the memories I have of you from our first kiss after the soccer game up to our last phone call. like you said in one of your letters about how our love doesn't seem like the usually silly 10 month affair because I feel more in love with you after every letter I get from you.

    you would think that I would have gotten tired and bored of those pictures I have of you. But every time I look at them it gives me the same thrill as they did the first time I looked at them. Thats because you’re so exciting that even the pictures of you are exciting. Not only that but if you don't mind me saying so, you’re pretty darn sexy.

    I mean you’re so sexy that when I see you walking to me it makes my heart beat a little faster, you’re just so beautiful and there is just no denying it.  Besides I kind of like the idea of having the sexiest woman as my own.

    So before I get carried away about your sexiness I end this letter. Besides I’ve got to go to find a place thats not so hot to write you and think of how much I love you.

                                                                                                          I love you                                                                                                               Louden

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“NO DECAFE”

The love for coffee is to great to drink decaf. 

-high on coffee 

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                                                      July1970

Dear Anna,

           This is a combination Friday and Saturday letter. I couldn't write last night mainly because I couldn't stay awake.You know I guess your mother must still be praying for me. I say that because yesterday I was Running the lines as usual and as I stepped over this one bush I came in conflict with a rattlesnakes territory and he or she struck at me. But luckily it got my boot. You talk about scared this kid here was almost shaking in his boots I mean it isn't everyday that you get attacked by a rattler. Ever since then I’m real weary about where I step. The thing that made the situation so abnormal was the time element.  You see during the middle of the day when it is most hot its too hot for a snake to survive the heat, so it usually they seek shelter. but as the day ends and it gets a little cooler it comes out for food.  And it was around 7:00 P.M. and we were just finishing a set of lines before we went in that it happened. Now don't go get all upset because chance are that it wont happen again. but have your mother keep praying for me it helps in certain situation. Tell her thank you from me.

That’s Friday in a nutshell. I was just too tired from working so late to write.

        Today (Saturday) we worked only from 5:00am to 12:00 noon and then took the rest of the day off to go swimming at this water hole about 20 miles from here.  It was a real experience to have all that water to swim in.  I say that because we still have to ration water for drinking and cooking purposes only.  Anyway this place is called Bull Creek, my bud asked me if we would run into any bulls on the way.

        As I was swimming around enjoying the water I wished that you and I could have been there together.  It was so romantic. It has super clear water and when you are swimming there it feels like you are in another world where its like there is no one for miles and miles.  I was imagining a picnic, skinny dipping and maybe a nice picnic, and being able to see the glistening nude body. I would have attacked you on the spot if not sooner.

      Have you had any erotic dreams about making love with me?  The reason I ask that was because I’ve had a rush of dreams about making love or some erotic dream about you.  Its getting to the point where I can't wait until I fall asleep

       Last night I was thinking about different poses of you that I could take a picture of. The funny thing was that I woke up after the dream and wrote down the poses so I wouldn't forget them and then fell back asleep.  And when I awoke this the morning there was the paper next to me and at first I didn't know where it had come from, much less if it was mine. But I gradually remembered vaguely about the dream. I don't remember you in the poses, meaning how you looked, but after reading the list I could very well imagine you. I’m keeping them, so if you want to…?

      Well lover, Im running out of time and also I can't wait to fall asleep to see you in my dreams, so I’ll end this letter with a kiss.

                                                                                                    “KISS HERE”

                     It is the closes thing I can do to kiss those lovely lips.

                                                                                                              I love you                                                                                                                   Louden

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“I REMEMBER”

    When I was drawing this I remember thinking my eyes are hurting and I couldn't really see straight and then I was like then I guess I won't draw this straight then. 

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Dear Anna,

       While I’m writing this letter to you’re probably sound asleep. To think of your soft feminine body relaxed and asleep in that bed of yours makes me lonely. Here I am alone in my bed and you alone in your bed and thousands of miles between us. It would be so romantic for you to fall asleep on my chest like you did at Sammy’s apartment.

       That night I stayed awake awhile longer and listened and watched you sleep. The soft rhythmic breathing made your equally soft breast push against my chest. All the while I stared at the golden hair on your head, occasionally stroking it and occasionally kissing your head. But to do that is but a dream now that is intangible.

       Lately I’ve been distressed about your letters. Do you really think your parents won't allow you to go next time. Is it that serious? Well what ever grounds I made with your parents are hopelessly lost. I guess the I’ll see your parents is when I ask for your hand in marriage. But what you’ve said so far about them, I doubt if they will ever sanction our marriage.

      I hope that at least things between you and your parents smooth out.  Because I’m not worth the break between you and your parents, Anna.  I know how your parents are and every letter that you receive from me probably infuriates them.  So I guess My name is Taboo around your house. I’m sorry Anna for what’s happened its all my fault.  As usual!

      Jobs Here are as Scarce as a snowball in hell. Tomorrow I’ll go to an employment agency and do what ever work they have. The way it works is that a company will call in asking for help and the agency sends us out. we may work a day, a week or a month. our wages depend on what that particular company pays. It varies from job to job.

       During the day while I’m driving through 105 temperatures to different interviews  I think about you. Maybe a song will come on the radio that reminds me of you, or something about you. Then I think about how much I love you and miss you.

       Well booboo I’m going to close with a thought that passed through my mind today and I want to share with you. Love is when you’re not alone anymore. when two people share thoughts and happiness.  Love is knowing that your own heart beats for both you and I. Love is that warm glow thats Radiates from your heart, because you know love means you say “I love you,” to that special someone.

And so to you Anna, my special someone I say, I love you.

                                                                                                 I love you always                                                                                                                 Louden