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lethal academic casualty but make it poetic

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D-288

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new branding because I need to clean my room and sprinkle some colour in my life. It's July and my room looks gray with hints of blue, so lesssgo!

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hehe

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230626~

Someday I will learn to love you through the creases of your palms. For now, I will hold your hand and hope that pressing long enough ends up meaning something.

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Someday, I hope in a hall full of flowers, I exist as a star. I don't want to be called alive by everything that could wither but hasn't. I hope I burn as the brightest blue, come alive like nothing could ever stand close to the fumes, exist as a lifetime, exist as eternal to someone's lifetime.

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me when people actually give me the attention I was begging for

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New concept where I love myself vvvv much like I get myself chocolates and eat wtv i want to without feeling guilty and try one more time and stay consistent and persistent and grateful and love myself so much that I never think about new ways to kill myself and look at the flowers that line the pavements and arch over gates without wanting the car to crash and for me to not survive. Like i learn and when I fail I try again and again and don't give up on myself. I do things I love and for things I don't I still do them because they are what will bring me closer to what I actually want. And I take work as work and not romanticise pain and hurt and I actually work to move forward. Like what a concept!!

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everytime I remember I am girl my idgaf and my whimsy both get stabbed

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Took this king, poet or soldier test...thought I would be a poet obviously...got the king assigned and realised how right the test was.

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Just found out the outfit I had planned in my head for today has been in the laundary basket for a week because I forgot about washing it in the first place...do I have other outfits I could easily replace it with? Yes. Do I feel overwhelmed to the extent of having to hold my head while crouching? Yes. Technically the day has just started but is it ruined already? Also yes.

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encountered or rather chased a very nice experience which further means I shouldn't surrender my weapons in the face of first adversity that shows up at my door...i am just so glad I showed up 🫡

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I need a structure not alarms tbh

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Just found out the outfit I had planned in my head for today has been sitting in the laundary basket for a week because I forgot about washing it in the first place...do I have other outfits I could easily replace it with? Yes. Do I feel overwhelmed to the extent of having to hold my head while crouching? Yes. Technically the day has just started but is it ruined already? Also yes.

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giving up was never an option lads...for once again I am reminded of how expensive of a taste i possess and how it would stab me to a miserable death if in the future i ever had to forgo something just because I couldn't afford it.

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What kind of paper shortage was i under why would I do that to myself I can't even find the inspiration to read it right now 🫠

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I eat i study I sleep I eat i study and thats my day in a life content.

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okay I am starting...bismillah T-T

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my physics notebook is a museum of self expression except my sense of self is rather concerning.