Stubborngeisha

I need to go...

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Daddy's Girl

I miss being daddy's little princess, when all my tears are wiped, when I can be carried around his shoulders, and when I am given amnesty over mom's wrath.

Now I have a daughter who loves to cry and cry and cry and a husband who hates her crying and crying and crying

Who easily gets mad when I am sentimental

But I'm a girl. I'm not a man. My strength is in my tears, it gives me resolve.

He does not understand. The more he makes fun of me about my tears, the more angry I get.

It's never a fairy tale when daddy is not around.

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Long lost friend

I woke up today from a dream of Chris. It's been awhile since I've seen or spoken to him, more than a decade in fact. But though the dream was a nice dream, when I woke up I felt very bad. I hope that he has already healed from his past as apparently I haven't.

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Akala mo naman kasi maraming pambili ng sapatos. #wagdawpagusapan #ediwag

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End of the Year

It;s the end of the tiger year and i’ve been agitated, sad, tired and lonely.  i can’t seem to connect with God as well.  

Maybe it’s all that unforgiveness that I was sure I was suppose to do start of the year.

Oh Tiger, where is your fang?  Please let the year end, but let this tiger live on.

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Foolish Heart

I once fell for a philandering fool

So in reality the foolish one of all was mi.

Now Im with a man who barely understands me

and whose love I dont completely comprehend

I guess fools just attract fools.

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Tampisaw

Ito ang panahon na aking paborito

mahinang ulan 

makulimlim na ulap

pero di bumabagyo

Nung akoý paslit parating inaabangan

ang anunsyo na walang pasok

Nang akoý umibig

Maraming pangarap ng pagtatampisaw sa ulan

Masaya

Nagtatawanan

Naghahabulan

Nagmamahalan

Ang konting ulan 

at malmaig na panahon

ang siyang nagbibigay ng araw sa aking puso

Na umasa ng isang magandang kinabukasan.

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MRS POTIPHAR

O Joseph why do you have to show me all your flexing videos?

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Feeling Tattered

Our conversation has run dry That's what's goin' on Nothing's fine, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel I'm cold and I am shamed Lying naked on the floor Illusion never changed Into something real I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

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KLG

Shocked and surprised and overly pleased!  My knees got weak yet I am sitting and butterflies everywhere.

Thank you.

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It’s not funny

He started a joke that got me always crying...

sounds like a song..

but my reality

He would always tease me and make me angry

then afterwards he’d just go away and leave me crying

it’s been 9 years and I still dont like his humor

and he still dislike my lack of it

i wish he’d just consider my feelings sometimes

and that for me 

his jokes are not funny

no matter how shallow they seem

it’s just never funny

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The Secret Life of My Brain

These days, maybe to stay sane my brain wanders... trying to feel the energy of my 20s and soaring with a fellow sag to where laughter and adrenaline never ends.

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Reality is the only Truth

there is no value in comparing your present with a past that was never real nor to a future that's an illusion. #marriedlife

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Endgame

How apt that exacrly 10 years after, it comes full circle.

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Maybe

Maybe one day when i die then you'll regret not being nice to me or maybe you'll finally find someone who gets your sense of humor and romance.

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Hubadera

A true hubadera does not have to peel off her clothes to be found beautiful.  She just is.  And everything about her leads one to have vivid imaginations of her grandeur.

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It’s been a long time

It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this blue, missing being a child, feels like i miss myself too... working like a horse is more than a term, always feeling sick with a stomach germ.

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I thought I heard you yell out someone else’s name…

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And repeated last night in a dream...