I was here

All your memories will soften

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Spend your time on those who love you unconditionally. Don’t waste it on those who only love you when the conditions are right for them.

Unknown (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[artist-monet]

Water Lilies, 1899, Claude Monet

[humansofnewyork]

“It was a really toxic relationship.  I think she’d agree with that.  We allowed each other to be depressed.  We encouraged it, actually- just to increase the dependency.  We were together 24/7.  Instead of pushing each other to be better, or get help, we just stayed in bed all day long.  We skipped our classes.  I failed out of school.  Occasionally she’d break up with me, and I’d be a mess, then a month later she’d be knocking on my door.  And I hate saying it out loud, because she was suffering too, and I don’t want to make her seem like a bad person.  But she knew how to pick apart my insecurities.  She made me feel manipulative for needing help.  She made me feel like a terrible person.  Like I just wanted attention.  Since I thought she was the only one who really knew me, I figured it must be true.  It got to the point where I didn’t feel worthy of being around people who cared about me.  So I kept away from my family. Then I took their absence as proof they didn’t care.  Eventually I convinced myself that everyone would be better off without me.  One night I locked the door of my bedroom, and swallowed an entire bottle of Ambien.  A few days later I woke up in the ICU.  My whole family was there.  My mom told me that if I’d died, she’d never have been able to live with herself.  My dad told me that he’d dropped to his knees when he’d learned.  I guess that’s what it took to make it finally click.  I’d spent so much time convincing myself that nobody cared.  If I’d have only stepped out of that relationship, and leaned on those people, I’d have learned how much they did.”

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Good Habits to Develop

1. Set yourself some daily goals. Keep them realistic and achievable. That will give direction so you don’t fritter your time.

2. Read inspirational books and blogs; hang around people who are positive.

3. Stay in touch with what’s happening in the world. We’re not just islands; we are part of one another.

4. Make the effort to stay in touch. Just a “like” on facebook, or a brief text message, conveys to that person that they matter to you.

5. Invest some time in your appearance and health. We’re more confident when we look and feel our best.

6. Pay attention to your priorities. Do what’s most important, and not most urgent, first.

7. Smile. It makes people feel more positive towards you, and it tends to lift our mood, and make us feel much better too.

8. Tidy as you go. It’s easier to work, and yo will feel a lot less stressed, if you’re working somewhere tidy, that’s devoid of clutter. Also, if you tidy as you go, then it feels less overwhelming.

9. Include some margin in your life so you don’t feel so stressed, when the unexpected happens.

10. Take time for yourself as you need to relax, unwind, recover, and recharge your batteries.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Never be afraid to fall apart because it is an opportunity to rebuild yourself the way you wish you had been all along.

Rae Smith (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[konstantin-yuon]

Troitse-Sergiyev Monastery, Konstantin Yuon

[artist-cassatt]

The Befooted Child, 1898, Mary Cassatt

Medium: drypoint

[relenaclub-deactivated20191206]

Toki o kakeru shōjo (1983)

[nevver]

When people were shorter and lived by the water, Tamara Dean

[nevver]

Constellations of Summer, Paul Cupido

[cwote]

“When you’re trying to motivate yourself, appreciate the fact that you’re even thinking about making a change. And as you move forward, allow yourself to be good enough.”

— Alice Domar (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[wrappedallinwoe]

Saturn appearing from behind the Moon

[alisonzai]

bee real, my senior thesis

[cwote]

“So what? You had a bad semester. You gained some weight. So what? You’re single again. You lost your job. So what? What now? You live. You try again. That’s what.”

— never give up (via cwote)

[nevver]

What we’re reading - Eating the Sun, Ella Frances Sanders

[joslo]

“And then there are the times when the wolves are silent and the moon is howling.”

— George Carlin (via mylinae)

[tiktoks-we-like]

[tiktoks-we-like]

Fyi the raccoon is fine and apperently does this often. Hes not going down the pipe but in the square at the top.