What the fuck does I love you even mean? Like what are you really trying to communicate with that? “I love you… as long as you continue being some version of the current version of you that makes me feel great.” “I love you… definitely for now and maybe for longer, we’ll see.” “I love you… or at least most of you so if you could fix a b and c, well then I’d love you even more.” Fuck all that. I want to find someone that is just saying “I love you. I fucking love you and that’s all I have to say because I know you. I know you won’t always be this exact way, from day to day or year to year, but I can see into you’re being, I can see who you are at your core and I love that person. It doesn’t matter to me that they’re scared or angry or spiteful, or any number of bad things they can sometimes be. I look at that person and I see a reflection of myself. I see another soul in this world that wants to love and be loved, that deserves to be loved, and I love them. That’s it, that’s all I’ve got. I love you and I always will.”
That’s what I want. Why can’t I find it?
Quick update. I found it and it’s better than we thought.










