how long has pixies older brother been struggling with addiction and how did it affect her and how long does matt know about that
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i haven’t fully fleshed out these characters but i’d say he’s been engaging in it from the age of 15 till now (24). and it’s not something pix knew about till she was around 17, so matts always known about it.
in terms of the effect on her , it mostly just breaks her heart because there’s nothing she can do other than telling him he should stop. of course over the years his struggles have fluctuated, but she’s always struggled with the anxiety of him potentially dropping dead without her knowing so she’s in constant contact with him, even if he’s not always the most present.
essentially she feels an overwhelming responsibility for him, especially because her parents are the kind who are in denial about it and tend to just trust that hes always doing better.
extremelyyy close, and that’s something i’ll expand on in her prologue and the series / any questions i get. but pix has four siblings and her older brother is her literal rock in every sense of the word
does pixie free ball her tits under her shirt whenever she’s home (i started doing this and i love it it’s so freeing) and does matt ever stare and notice she’s not wearing any bra
in my mind pixie doesn’t even own a bra (beyond cute lacy ones for outfits), and is always free balling so to matt he doesn’t notice because she’s always like that
he very rarely shows upset in front of others, even pix, so she doesn’t often get to. there have been a few times where she’s tried — but she doesn’t really know how to, and he struggles to accept it in return
Stoner!Matt and drunk pixie getting home from a party and she’s like you know what you’re kinda hot and Matt is like ok ok you had way too much for drink and she’s like well it’s true you’re good looking and he just says let’s get you to bed
you’re sure the scene must’ve been too close to horrific — matt lugging your half unconscious body back to your place like a sack of potatoes. you vaguely remember the minor motion sickness as he tried to juggle holding you up and opening the front door.
you definitely remember crashing into the couch, minor panic spilling from his lips before he realised it was probably for the best.
after he manages to remove your shoes you haphazardly roll over. a small flicker sparks in your brain, like the last glow of a fire fly before it dies.
“i’m… horribly , sorry.” it takes a second to get the sentence out, but he nods away in recognition of your apology.
“go to bed, pix.” he leans down, attempting to give you a hug. but your arms wrap around his neck, locking him down as he tries to move back — knowing better than to move before you’re ready to let him.
instead your hands find his jaw, fingers lingering where his hair meets the nape of his neck — something that was far too intimate, and wouldn’t have been brushed away so quickly if you weren’t so fucked right now.
“you’re so pretty.” it’s a whisper he can hardly hear, probably because he wasn’t meant to. “no— you know what?” he raises his eyebrows at your frown and clear attempt to think hard about this.
“you’re… you’re kinda hot.”
he scoffs out a small laugh, not believing a word out of you right now. “you’ve had wayy too much to drink.”
“what?” you search his eyes for a second before doubling down through giggles. “it’s true, you’re attractive—”
that’s his cue to pull back, gently moving your wrists to set them down. “oh- kayy , i think you should probably get to sleep now.”
you can’t help but giggle at the revelational, as if it’s almost off putting to see him through such a lense. “i’m making jokes — joking around.. just… saying.” you sigh through the entanglement of your words, eyes already closing on their own accord.
“okay, just sleep, pix.” matt gets nothing more than a hum in response before the conversation falls peacefully quiet.
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