Dylan Wilson

>>The name's Dylan, and I'm a 16 year old student at St Adams. I'm a warlock, and very proudly gay. I might just be the nicest guy you'll ever meet, so feel free to say something to me. I don't bite.

[crissncolfer]

[hoodontillmay]

[stxadamsxwarlock]

Don't forget me, I beg

I remember, you said

Sometimes it lasts in love. but sometimes it hurts instead

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[b-caldwell-blog]

Of course I haven’t forgotten about it. How could I forget something like that? It’s one of the most important things anyone has ever said to me. But you know what, Dylan? I was scared and I still am!You came and you dropped a huge bomb on me. What did you want me to do? When you told me, you were engaged! I did what I did for the same reason I hadn’t made a single move on you since we broke up. Because I care about you and I want you to be happy. I didn’t want to trash your relationship with Oliver because you seemed happy with him. I didn’t expect any of this to happen because you. chose. him!But you think I don’t want to bother with this all? Is that really what you think of me now? How can you want me to say that back to you when I don’t know when you’re with him and when you’re not? Because I fucking refuse to say something that is tha big of a deal to me, to have it thrown back at me if you two fix your problems. I was cheated on once, that was bad enough.

I still stand. Getting drunk isn’t the way forward.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

I don't want you to just say it, and I didn't expect you to then, and I still don't now. But you could have said that then instead of leaving me hanging. I assumed, but I can't be certain with an assumption. I'm being a bitch to everyone right now, or the "everyone" that is you and Lily; the only two who have bothered to speak with me. So don't take it personal. It's not me, and we both know that, but I can't fucking stop and I don't know how to care right now. Well, I do care, I guess I should amend that. I just.. Fuck. I told you because I knew I wanted to, I wanted you to know.. What if you let me get married to someone else just because you thought I didn't actually love you? What if ten years down the line we're at some stupid high school reunion and I tell you then, that I loved you, and you feel like you got shafted because I kept it from you? You deserve to know how I feel so you know where you stand. Yeah, I love Oliver too, which just makes me a giant ball of super douche, but I really can't help it. And obviously, things with me and Oliver aren't going to work out. He broke up with me and we were engaged. I was trying to fix things with him, or at least tell him.. Give him the same level of understanding that I tried to give you. Ask for some damned help. And now he's gone. I'm not trying to turn you into the post-engagement rebound guy. I'm just bitter about everything, so I guess you get to hear me whine and bitch.

I don't know what else to do... I honestly don't. This is like, the cliche heartbreak thing to do, right? I'd go for ice cream and junk but then I'd just be fat and heartbroken and I highly doubt my life would be any better with diabetes. 

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[b-caldwell-blog]

It’s what everyone around here resorts to, and it’s ridiculous. It doesn’t solve anything and eventually it makes you feel like shit. It’s rough, an engagement has been broke off, but it’s not the end of the world, Dyl. It’s gonna feel like it is, but it’s not. You’re sixteen, for Christs sake. Maybe, in the long run, you’ll realise this is better. If someone wants to ruin something that’s that big of a thing, maybe you’ve got to stop and think that it’s not worth it and that there are better things out there for you.

.. Okay?

[stxadamsxwarlock]

You really think that's the only thing I'm upset about, Brandon? Yeah sure, I've got that mess to handle, but he's not the only person it feels like I've lost. Did you already forget that I told you I love you and you didn't even say a thing in response? Not even "Okay" or "I'm sorry I don't feel that way." I told Oliver. I told him I still care about you much more than I should and that's pretty much the main reason he left. So excuse me if I'm a little bitter. I managed to tell the one person in the world who did NOT want to know how I felt.. And I faced up to what it meant. You didn't say a word, and you still haven't mentioned it. And you know what? Don't. If it's really not something you want to bother with, then don't. I said my heart's been broken twice over for a reason. So yes, I feel like getting drunk. I know it's not the smartest or most worthy way to spend my time, but I want it. At least in this moment, right now. It's better than laying here with nothing better to do than dwell in my own thoughts.

[ronieart]

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[b-caldwell-blog]

Why is drinking always the answer to everything? You don’t have to go there.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

You resorted to it when I hurt you, didn't you? I feel like my heart's been broken twice over and I've got nothing left. I just want to stop feeling for a little while.

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[b-caldwell-blog]

I don’t know. But drinking yourself to death is stupid.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

I never said I was going to die.. Just drink. If you're really all that concerned you can come watch me drink and try to steal the bottle from me when you think I should be done. 

[stxadamsxwarlock]

Text: Okay, 1) You *were* being fair to him, okay? You did the right thing. 2) You and Oliver have fought and broken up before and then gotten back together, what's to say this time will be the last? 3) You never know.

Text: He sure didn't think I was being fair... I can't believe he left me in a fucking hotel room like that.. Just. Fuck. 

Text: I know we've broken up and gotten back together. It's beginning to get to the point where I won't be able to count how many times soon. Do you think I want something like that? For either of us? I'm tired... 

Text: Right. I told him I loved him and he stopped talking to me and now pretends like I never said it. I'm sure he just absolutely adores me.

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[b-caldwell-blog]

You really shouldn’t do that.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

What else am I going to do, Brandon? What else can I do?

[stxadamsxwarlock]

Text: I don't really know what to say to that... Text: Have you stopped crying?

Text: It's fine. You don't have to say anything about it. I just want to beat up everyone who talks to me. I don't even know.

Text: I'm.. On and off. I just ruined my engagement because I wanted to be fair and tell my fiance how I felt. Completely. And the other guy I feel for... He can't even tell me what he feels in return, if anything.

Text: So I probably just ruined my entire relationship with Oliver for absolutely nothing and I just can't be bothered anymore. I'm so done with this. Rum is my hero.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

Text: And how are we feeling today, love?

Text: Like a bitch. But I'll get over it. How are you?

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[b-caldwell-blog]

You’re pissed at me right now, right?

[stxadamsxwarlock]

Not you. Just the world. Myself. Oliver. Some more of myself. I've got a bottle of rum that says I'll be much nicer in about half an hour.

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[b-caldwell-blog]

I’d forgotten how much I love this album.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

Hmm. Fun. I don't know what album, I don't recognize the lyrics, but I'm sure it's absolutely riveting. 

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

At least someone is amused today.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

aj-sparks replied to your post: Watching The Notebook

I love that film.

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b-caldwell replied to your post: Watching The Notebook

That film..

[stxadamsxwarlock]

[hpnotiqandhangovers]