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  ask. miscellaneous. navigation. adventures.    Brandon Alexander Thomas Caldwell. I like folk music, disney movies and old literature.   I am a common man with common thoughts.

[louisejennifer]

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BASTILLE: Bad Blood.

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Nah.

[elliegoulding-rph-blog]

Is puberty finally striking?

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There is hair in places there isn't normally ha-no. Trust you to make some sort of comment. Where you been, ginger? I very nearly missed you.

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Nah.

This isn't happening.

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

You really think that’s the only thing I’m upset about, Brandon? Yeah sure, I’ve got that mess to handle, but he’s not the only person it feels like I’ve lost. Did you already forget that I told you I love you and you didn’t even say a thing in response? Not even “Okay” or “I’m sorry I don’t feel that way.” I told Oliver. I told him I still care about you much more than I should and that’s pretty much the main reason he left. So excuse me if I’m a little bitter. I managed to tell the one person in the world who did NOT want to know how I felt.. And I faced up to what it meant. You didn’t say a word, and you still haven’t mentioned it. And you know what? Don’t. If it’s really not something you want to bother with, then don’t. I said my heart’s been broken twice over for a reason. So yes, I feel like getting drunk. I know it’s not the smartest or most worthy way to spend my time, but I want it. At least in this moment, right now. It’s better than laying here with nothing better to do than dwell in my own thoughts.

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Of course I haven't forgotten about it. How could I forget something like that? It's one of the most important things anyone has ever said to me. But you know what, Dylan? I was scared and I still am!You came and you dropped a huge bomb on me. What did you want me to do? When you told me, you were engaged! I did what I did for the same reason I hadn't made a single move on you since we broke up. Because I care about you and I want you to be happy. I didn't want to trash your relationship with Oliver because you seemed happy with him. I didn't expect any of this to happen because you. chose. him!But you think I don't want to bother with this all? Is that really what you think of me now? How can you want me to say that back to you when I don't know when you're with him and when you're not? Because I fucking refuse to say something that is tha big of a deal to me, to have it thrown back at me if you two fix your problems. I was cheated on once, that was bad enough.

I still stand. Getting drunk isn't the way forward.

[xlasthurrahx]

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

You resorted to it when I hurt you, didn’t you? I feel like my heart’s been broken twice over and I’ve got nothing left. I just want to stop feeling for a little while.

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It's what everyone around here resorts to, and it's ridiculous. It doesn't solve anything and eventually it makes you feel like shit. It's rough, an engagement has been broke off, but it's not the end of the world, Dyl. It's gonna feel like it is, but it's not. You're sixteen, for Christs sake. Maybe, in the long run, you'll realise this is better. If someone wants to ruin something that's that big of a thing, maybe you've got to stop and think that it's not worth it and that there are better things out there for you.

.. Okay?

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[gabe-mason]

I got high, Lily got mad, I hid under my duvet

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Very clever of you.

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[gabe-mason]

Where have you been hiding then?

[b-caldwell-blog]

Just around. Been keeping myself busy. What have you been doing?

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

I never said I was going to die.. Just drink. If you’re really all that concerned you can come watch me drink and try to steal the bottle from me when you think I should be done. 

[b-caldwell-blog]

Why is drinking always the answer to everything? You don't have to go there.

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[gabe-mason]

Nothing, good to see you.

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It's good to see you too.

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

What else am I going to do, Brandon? What else can I do?

[b-caldwell-blog]

I don't know. But drinking yourself to death is stupid.

[b-caldwell-blog]

Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

Not you. Just the world. Myself. Oliver.Some more of myself. I’ve got a bottle of rum that says I’ll be much nicer in about half an hour.

[b-caldwell-blog]

You really shouldn't do that.

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[gabe-mason]

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What?

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

Hmm. Fun. I don’t know what album, I don’t recognize the lyrics, but I’m sure it’s absolutely riveting. 

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You're pissed at me right now, right?

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

[stxadamsxwarlock]

At least someone is amused today.

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I'd forgotten how much I love this album.

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Loverboy, you're playing those hearts like toys.

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Text: You're allowed to have important things that aren't me. Text: I was mad when I sent that text... I don't even know. Text: He left me, Brandon. I gave back the ring and everything. I told him where I was, and he came, and he left me. Text: I went to a couple different places. I'm at a hotel down the street from the school right now.

Text: That sounds worse than I meant. But you know what I mean.

Text: Want to rant it all out?

Text: ..What? For good? Just like that? He's a douche.

Text: You can't just come and go as you please, Dyl. It's not good for you, or any of us here. Want me to come and see you? To call you? Anything?